always the babysitter, never the baby

A, I fucking stupid? Is… is the international weapons museum where Owen fell? Did they go back and Curt killed Owen on those same stairs? Am I stupid???

didn't Curt blow up the whole building though? how is the staircase still there? am I missing something?

I really wanted to use "cop a feel" in a fic, but it felt too modern so I looked it up, and it actually originated in the 1930s and is perfectly acceptable in a curtwen fic

update: "get/getting fresh," meaning to make an unwanted sexual advance, is also period appropriate! God someday I'm gonna nerd out and compile a list of period-appropriate idioms and turns of phrase

having OCD is so funny because I can promise you that any given point I am having a complex and heated inner dialogue with myself, and I am losing.

idk if this is an usamerican thing or not but it always blows my mind as a small european country resident that yall have many names and types of apples???? what do you mean its not just red yellow or green??? why is it so complicated??? who is granny smith????

'whats your favorite apple' 'red' 'no i mean like what type' '??????' actual conversatiom i've had with a mutual from usa

the world is so big and beautiful

ai could simply never create a body of fanfictional work that is so revealing about the author that it borders on humiliating.

thinking about madeline ashton's sex tape and her proudly announcing that she pays to keep it online and i know it's just a throwaway joke in the show but i'm constantly thinking about a version of the story where she is not actually the one to release it on purpose but it in fact did get leaked against her will as you'd typically expect when things like that happen but the actual subversion is that she has to tell herself that she actually wants it out there and it's Good publicity for her so she is very vocal about wanting to keep it up online because that's the only way she can feel okay about it like it's not a violation as long as you can convince yourself you're in control of the narrative and the way you're being seen. very deborah vance burned down her husband's house of her. very me in high school back when i was dating boys and the teenage boy gossip mill is a hellish meatgrinder designed to chew girls up and spit them out 😔

oh my god just remembered previews falling apart suicidal madeline ashton who desperately wanted to wrest control of the narrative back from helen so bad that she was like what if i just killed myself in front of everyone to change the trajectory of their lives forever GOD i miss you so much baby you are so perfect and precious to me………… they're laughing and i can't control it! i had the spotlight and she stole it!!! don't let them see you cry, don't let them see the pain, maybe i should DIE then they'd see my name!!! cue the camera flashes, view madeline's life in ashes. i'm done, you win, i can't restart! 'cause it's all falling apart!!!!!!!

anyways. let's all hold hands and fallingapart kill ourselves together <3

unfortunately i have free will so im about to make art that is going to appeal to basically 4 people. let us hope those 4 people follow me.

carlos alonso was so right argentina is about meat is about violence is about state terrorism is about colonialism is about meat is about sex is about meat is about autopsies is about culture is about mutilation is about meat is about meat is about meat