*talking to myself*

I wish I was a crash out to people type of person but unfortunately I am a ‘will communicate exactly how I feel with a neutral tone and if you don’t get it you’re out of my life and will genuinely wish you the best’ type of person

my fav hobby is falling in love, making them obsessed with me, cutting them off, giving them a second chance, realizing they haven’t changed and cutting them off again

can someone tell me how to deal with existential boredom because I cannot take it anymore nothing works anymore i’m tired and want to cry myself to sleep knowing how understimulating life is no matter what I do

I really wish I still had my illusions because at least back then I wasn’t saying much but I was having a blast and a lot of chemistry with ppl

some men will spend their entire life convincing themselves they don’t care and my heart aches for them tbh but that’s not my sadness to carry