Lili

That’s not the point though, I want to talk about my current issues with the character korekiyo shinguji. I liked him for a bit, starting middle of last school year. It started off fine, he was a good gag, or joke, or whatever.

It stayed like that till current day, except the more we (my friend/friends) joked about him the more I’ve grown to like him as a character. With this personal liking of kiyo he also desensitized my rights from wrongs, making me see problematic media or actions less serious and or pleasurable to me.

I feel like an idiot whenever I try to explain why I started to fear him to my friend. I just say it’s ‘irrational’ but it’s not. the fear comes from internal shame and disgust in myself knowing I let something as minuscule as a character turn me into a horrible person.

I still love him. Why am I acting like Hes real? It’s not like he can see this, but I can feel him. I feel all characters even if they’re just pixels behind a screen, that’s why I do little prayers and acts of devotion to them.

Maybe once we’re all separated by schools I can finally just leave this world after we’re all used to not seeing each other every day