Y.K

She would hate me if she knew tho

He doesn’t love me, he left me when i needed him the most, he left me at my lowest just to save himself some peace of mind. He didn’t fight for us. I loved him and i wanted to give him everything. I loved him with all possible 5 love languages and it was still not enough for him to love me back the same way or to make him stay. So why would i choose someone who did not choose me. Why would i fight for someone who would not fight for me. Why would i stay with someone who would not value me? Who thought that i was okay with doing the bare minmum just because i did not talk. I did not talk because i loved him that much, that i let him devalue me. My mistake. I called him, i texted him, i loved him, i bought him gifts, still none of this was enough for him to fight for me or do the same for me. And he knew what he was doing, he knew he was downgrading me, devaluing me, thinking i do not deserve more, better. He knew exactly that he would be killing me by leaving the way he did, the timing he did. How could i ever trust him again or love him again after what he did to me. He does not deserve me. He does not deserve my love or my energy. But i guess it is fine i mean i have never experienced true love i thought i did with him turn out it was only me who loved but was never loved back.