Here I am back
This time I’ll try something different. This blog hides some part of my childhood and every time I feel sick and sad I return to this fucking place. I can’t say I don’t particularly hate this site, but all I remember about it is negative thoughts and sadness. However, here I am back again writing my blues. My life is not going well. I am in a good university, I am studying a major that I am happy with but I cannot achieve the success, aaand I don’t know why. I guess I didn’t understand how life works properly. I am a pessimist. The country I live in is in a really bad shape right know okay, but I think this situation affects me too much. Like I can’t do shit right now but as seeing this much negative news and conditions, I am drifting into a rabbit hole. On top of everything I think I fell in love, but also I am not sure as I cannot understand my own feeling for gods sake. Don’t understand it wrong I am not happy about it. I am not happy at all. This feelings give me nothing more than pain. Also I cant see the path I want to go. I don't know what to do. I am sad. These games that I am wanted to play is not for me I can see, but there is nothing I can do I guess. Let the games begin. I’ll fight with all my might and than we see who run out first. Stay tuned :)





















