Closet Otaku

I can be proud that I rely on myself, but also causes me to live in fear of relying on others. That’s why I fear relationships.. Like here, have my feelings, have the ability to crush my existence. I think about giving a person the ability to hurt me, and it scares the shit outta me. But then I think, hey this human, this one it’s a good one, they just might be worth the risk. Slowly I’m evolving, slowly I’m changing my thinking. I used to just assume that everyone would be shitty until they proved me wrong and did something nice. My pessimism protected me. It was my shield, the glass wall that stood between me and the world around me. It’s now starting to crack, and the light looks so beautiful through those cracks.