Proof of Existence

Let's be real, how many of you guys saw them dancing and thought about SU fusion dance.

goodbye, steven universe…

So, Steven’s way too caught up in the fact that he’s a Diamond right now, and therefore a hideous and overpowered monster who can’t hope to be understood by normal humans or normal gems. Let’s talk about that.

For all Steven’s enthusiasm to be a Crystal Gem and to demonstrate his powers, he’s always been weirdly ashamed of how being half-Gem affects his ability to live alongside humans. I don’t think he’s ever really decided how to feel about it. It’s only after seeing Steven growing substantially and changing his hair and getting diamond eyes, now that it’s clear that his physical form is so malleable to how he thinks of himself and what he wants to be, that it really hits me how growing up with Greg and around so many humans has affected his identity. How sort of…quietly unhealthy it was, to go around with his gem covered up all of the time, and his appearance so determinedly human. I mean, think of how upset and ashamed he was when he decided his inhuman aging would screw up his friendship with Connie.

Right now, Steven is a whirlpool of self-loathing mixed into repressed issues and trauma with the Diamonds and hatred for his mother, and because he’s feeling so disconnected from and alienated and misunderstood by both other humans and other gems, because his gem powers are being triggered by his trauma, he’s connected some dots and blamed it all on being a Diamond. 

Yellow and Blue Diamonds eyes.

Dr. Maheswaran describes Steven’s fractures as “Everything is perfectly aligned. It almost looks as if the bones healed themselves the instant the injuries occurred.” Oftentimes, when humans break bones they require casts or splints to hold the pieces in the right place and time for the body to heal the pieces back together. Because of Steven’s healing abilities, his fractures fused back together the moment of impact. Physically, his bones were healed in the same sense Greg’s leg healed in “House Guest” and how bones heal in real life, just much, much faster. His gem caused this healing to occur but it’s not actively holding the bones together like glue for the duration of his life.

steven: