Watching the Loki finale and this is reminding me so much of Agents of SHIELD Season 7 Episode 9 "As I Have Always Been"

Sif puts the collar on lorelei and right away it cuts to Ward aiming the gun at May and pulling the trigger. She had taken the bullets out so it's fine, and then suddenly he's out of Lorelei's trance.

Viewing first time: maybe it takes a few seconds to come out of the trance, that was close lol

Like, just now at the end of ep 8 "The Well"

Skye offers to talk to him but he says maybe later, and then May leaves the door to her room open and this is when their friends with benefits thing begins

Now when he sees May do that, we stay on his face for 5-10 seconds and see him thinking about it. On first watch you'd say he's thinking "I wish I could be the guy who could take Skye up on her offer, but no, I have a dark past and May gets that more and with her I can continue to have all my walls up" and hence he chooses to go with her.

However, watching him think now, I'm like wait, that's not what he's thinking. He's thinking "I really really really want to go talk to Skye cause she's cute and I have a lil crush, but I need to do this so I get closer to May and she doesn't get sus of me ever and feels vulnerable etc. I'm on a mission. I have to do what's best for the mission".

It's not "I wish I was more open and communicative", it's "I wish I wasn't a secret spy for hydra".

This is also one of the moments where Ward becomes irredeemable for me. Cause yes I know his loyalty to Garrett was SUPER strong, but this is one of the MANY moments where he could have made the tough decision to NOT follow Garrett and chosen his found family and come clean and help take down hydra.

Ofc it has flaws, most of them do

But it's also a good time and has a lot of positives

Every marvel movie can't be infinity war, or endgame, or even winter soldier

two of my absolute favourite characters of all time, finding happiness together

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