Silence

INSOM-FCKING-NIA 😩

I just realized that no matter how close you are with some people, there are personal things that you can't just casually unload to them. You'll still feel that you are alone in this world. Even if you're ready to burst from all the emotions pent up inside, you'll only have yourself to depend on. You need to stay like the normal person you are, even if you want to just beat a random person up, or just punch a wall, you're all alone. No other person. Friends are there to cheer you up or stay with you on your worst but they're not always there in that exact moment when you feel enraged, alone, depressed, anxious, or worse, suicidal.

H I G H

Sooooo, I had a "date" but my date doesn't know that we are in one. 💔

Passion. The one thing that I do not have these past few years. My passion to do the things I loved doing went away. How do people rekindle their passions to things anyway? I just began to realize that I'm just doing what I have to do to get by. I used to dedicate my time to those things. But now, I feel stagnant. No progress, no growth. Nothing. Now that I think about it, the old version of me was better than what I am now. The pressure is suffocating. Time went by and I haven't accomplished anything. What am I doing with my life? It's the same cycle every fucking day. Always tired, always empty. I need my passion back. I need my old self back.

When you're surrounded by people but still feel alone. Hahaha new year feels.

Longing for emotional stimulation tapos nanood pa ng romantic kdrama. Good job self.

Idk if I have too high standards or just subconciously afraid to commit. What to do..

Not sure if it's because of the season pero gusto ko na ulit magjowa haha. Pesteng panaginip yan e.

Feeling shitty about myself.

Tired.

Y'all miss your exes while I miss my grandma 💔

Why tf do I feel shit when someone who I barely know suddenly blocks me? Fck this shit.

... is active now. 😶

Heh. I guess it's all over.