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tis i, neo with my third muse ( lets all hope i can do three because here i am ). this is miss song ahyeon, she has been here multiple times and some might remember her but this is miss ahyeon, revamped. she is not pursuing the idol path, she pursues acting/modelling and everything that comes with that. she has some personal struggles... been a trainee at lgc for what will be her forth year, she recently completed her degree in korean painting. her hobbies are: dawing, painting and sculpting. i am reachable on twitter: @_leefox_ and discord ( ask and you shall receive ).

RED

She had not expected this opportunity at all, especially as a trainee. And she was among models and Jaehwa, a debuted idol too - this was quite exciting. (Yes, at work, her mind changes from classmate to idol, that’s how the switch works in her mind.)  The script was short and sweet, different cuts with solo scenes but Nayoung’s excitement could not be contained at her first opportunity for a commercial, ever. There may be other opportunities in the future, but nothing replaces the feeling of the first one. And for her favourite thing too. Life simply cannot be beat in this moment right now. The make up artist had applied on the product, and her eyes stare at it with stars in her eyes, unable to constrain the jubilation. So she’s a little dramatic. Nobody has to know, nobody has to know- and she looks in the mirror, and makes a small noise when she spots Ahyeon, the model behind the brand. 

She spins out of her seat, and bows at Ahyeon. It’s been a while since she has actually seen her, minus the portions of overlap at the concerts but that hardly ever counted when there was a ton of them all in one big area, barely a moment to greet the other. “Hi Ahyeon, it’s been a long time. Or it feels that way anyway.” There’s the delicate dance between whether she ought to remain extremely professional, or if she lets herself be a tad free, and the latter wins out. “Thank you thank you thank you thank you!” She reaches out to lightly grab at Ahyeon’s elbow before retreating back out of the other’s personal space. “Sorry, as you can see, I am absolutely elated to be here.” So much for butterflies, it seems all those flew away…

@lgcahyeon​

ahyeon wasn’t sure if she would ever get used to this, it was strange not being there to have her photo taken but to observe and guide the shoot. the model wasn’t entirely sure how she felt about it but for now it was an interesting learning experience, if there was one thing she felt confident in it would have to be the models she picked. all of the girls had their own charm and apart of her thought the girls fit the red color almost as good as her, red was one of her favorite colors and she would lie if she hadn’t wished she could model for the brand herself but that was too much.

besides she was happy to have others represent her brand as well.

one thing was that she wanted to be on set for most of things, because honestly she wanted to know what it was like to be on the other side. so she made sure to greet the models, when she finally got to nayoung she smiled at the girl - she seemed so excited, which was a little overwhelming for ahyeon but she greets her. “ it has been quite a while, ” sh remembers that they trained together but then ahyeon was mostly a loner and she eventually swayed from the idol path as well, so it was only natural.

tw: adultry / cheating / bullying

ahyeon wouldn't lie she was a little disappointed that she didn't get chosen to make a brand, but she couldn't help but look at the other side. the brighter side, now she would just have more time to pursue things she actually wanted to do. there was just something about it that didn't sit right with her, and with the acting audition she was instead considering if she should audition to act.

those that followed her should know she used to act, many years ago and as a child people let things slip past. so even if she had acted badly, they let it slip because she was a cute kid.

the only downside to not being picked would be that she would have more free time. even though she knew she might find a way to keep herself busy. ever since she knew her would join type zero, she couldn't help but feel sad, and she certainly had been hurt when he had never shown up like he said he would.

she was embarrassed that she had actually managed to catch feelings for the american dog, now she wanted to do what she could so that she might forget them. bury them. throw them out. that was what she should do and what she needed to do because he would debut, and she... well, there was no time for her in his new schedule, certainly, and he already showed that to her. which is why she has not picked up any of the calls from him and not replied to his text, not even opened them because she knows that her heart might waver. even if she likes to portray herself as a strong, independent woman that does not need love - she remembers the last time she was in love, which also ended up with her getting  hurt.

@s.ahyeon just posted a photo!

[ ✉️ ⇢ spicy fox  ] ⇢ yes! I’ll be over in a bit! 

the reply was sent before parker had enough time to truly process his situation, current situation. in honor of his and dowoon’s news, a few of their close trainee friends had decided to go out to celebrate before the two boys were too popular to be out in public. but she had asked if he wanted to see her – she wasn’t like this normally – and if he were completely honest he hadn’t planned on being so attached when he started to talk to her, tease her, but here he was. if she asked, he would come– or so he thought. 

no sooner was he off his seat, than his phone was snatched by byungho, and parter was pushed back into place, happy cheers and voices initing that there was no way he could leave now. he couldn’t even tell her why…

💬 to american dog

 📤◞ see you soon

ahyeon saw his reply and replied to him as soon as she could, she was fumbling around her apartment now - making sure everything looked nice and clean. then she contemplated if she should actually go outside and meet him outside instead. ‘ that might be more risky now... ’ so she waited, not sure how long she waited because when she looked at the clock again, she noticed how an hour had gone by and she tried to reason with herself, ‘ probably busy... he’ll come. ’ but suddenly it was past eleven, it waws late and she had schedules in the morning.

feeling defeated she made her way to the bathroom to do her bedtime routine, and while she looked at herself in the mirror she catches her own expression and feels like an idiot.

ahyeon brings her phone back up and opens the messenger app to start typing but she stops herself. no. she wouldn’t and then she sighs heavily, putting her phone down she finishes up in the bathroom and makes her way onto the bed, it was close to twelve now...

‘ he won’t come. ’

and even if she didn’t want to admit that to herself she laid down in bed and she knew, right now the clenching of her chest was hurt and she remembered that feeling, she has experienced being hurt before and she didn’t like the ending of that.

‘ i’m an idiot. ’

parker can’t deny how the amusement on his face when she replies back so quickly, granted he hasn’t been able to stop smiling since the news broke, but still. knowing ahyeon for as long as he has, he considered it a miracle that she hadn’t left him on read for a while before replying back.  [ ✉️ ⇢ spicy fox  ] ⇢ i’m debuting

reading parker’s text made her widen her eyes, she knew he was debuting - she had seen future dreams after all but she didn’t know what that had anything to do with her bringing him luck. if there was one thing she knew about debuting, it was that everyone got busy... too busy and for someone like her that had just started realizing that she might be feeling something more than annoyed with him, it made her heart clench.

💬 to american dog

7 months later…

[ ✉️ ⇢ spicy fox ( @lgcahyeon​ ) ] ⇢ you really are lucky, you know that? 

💬 to american dog

there’s no way that taiyou can stop himself from being charmed by ahyeon in the moment, the softness that others rarely saw felt like a special treat, even if he wished more people could see it. ahyeon is a kind and sweet person. even as taiyou struggled through the unknown areas of his relationship with eunho, ahyeon was there, even if her words lacked tact at times, but at the time, her honesty was what he needed. “you’re very much welcome,” he hums with a slight smile. 

“greet my family? surely, my mother will ask when we’ll get married,” he teases, voice soft in hopes that only ahyeon can hear. “maybe next year we can take a trip– i think you’ll like my family,” he adds with a a small laugh, stopping only to gather his thoughts. “i think phrases like taiyou is so kind, and taiyou is the best will be all you need.” his chuckle is low in his chest before shaking his head, knowing he would never trick her like that. “it’d be nice to hang out and go shopping and relax, don’t you think?”

catching sight of someone heading their way, taiyou stops and quickly hands the man a flyer with a few soft words and a bow. “it’s a shame we can’t go to an onsen– i that’d be really nice, but i doubt eunho would be too happy.” 

there weren’t many people she felt comfortable showing this side of herself to, taiyou was one of them and she wasn’t sure when it started but she is glad that at least around him there is no use acting because he will see through it if she ever dares to lie to him about her actual thoughts and feelings. he was her best friend, and that meant something to her.

“ ask us to get married? doesn’t she know you are already seeing someone? ” ahyeon lifts her brow to glance at the taller, she knew of course she knew but it wasn’t such an easy thing to tell ones parents, “ she doesn’t need to know the gender of who it is but... you know what i mean. ” then again she could never relate to having a good relationship with ones parents, because her mother is off somewhere and her father is a workaholic that she ever rarely saw growing up, “ taiyou is so kind, taiyou is the best~~~ ” she repeats in a slightly mockery tone, “ like that? ”

Taiyou couldn’t help but smile at the distress in Ahyeon’s voice. He hadn’t known when exactly he had come to the conclusion that Ahyeon was a very cute person, but somewhere in the line of their friendship, he had become adamant in that fact. For as cool as she tried to present, there was this soft charm that he couldn’t help but find endearing, and even when her cuteness was less obvious, Taiyou couldn’t help but struggle to hide his fondness. While he tried to present to the world that Eunho was his best friend, trying to take advantage of heteronomitive relationships, there was no doubt in his head that that title was actually Ahyeon. 

“You’re doing well,” he replied softly, pausing a moment to hand a flier to an attendee, and urging them to please come to Korea to visit their cafe. The longer they were at the event, the more comfortable Taiyou seemed to become with speaking to people and handing out flyers. Maybe it was because it was his home country and he was speaking in his native language, but even when he had lived in Japan, he had never been one to talk much to strangers. It just hadn’t been who he was— but now, perhaps things had changed? 

“You’re pretty, so you don’t even have to talk much,” he commented, finally turning to face his friend. “Just smile brightly and say ‘thank you’ and people will happily take anything they give you.” His smile was earnest, if not a bit cheeky, oddly proud of this ability of the younger. “I’ll teach you more Japanese phrases when we all go to dinner, okay?”

ahyeon had always wanted to go to visit japan with taiyou, ever since she got to know him back when they both were trainees. if someone asked her who her best friend was she would have to say danbi and taiyou, the only downside to their friendship was their genders, if they were to be too affectionate or show affection in public, things could cause a stir which was annoying enough in itself. taiyou was a handsome man and she an attractive girl, surely, there were someone that thought they were together.

“ thank you,” she whispers and looks at the taller with an unsure expression, ahyeon didn’t get insecure about many things but this made her feel just a tad uncomfortable. because she didn’t speak much japanese, only basics, if she didn’t get to do this with taiyou ahyeon would for sure avoid this.

fighting the urge to straight up facepalm or hit her own forehead at how badly she’d fucked up there, jaekyung was almost too busy with her internal beating up that she just barely grasped when ahyeon responded to her.

god, the obvious confusion in her whole posture and voice made jaekyung wince even more. so of course she’d do nothing to help her situation but flash an awkward thumbs up in response. “very welcome. any time,” was the only response she could murmur without stuttering or making an even bigger fool out of herself but it definitely did nothing to improve her situation.

“but uh yes… I’m a vocalist and dancer,” she responds before clearing her throat, hoping it will help her regain some sort of composure despite the crimson shade on her cheeks. “I’m Jaekyung. Park Jaekyung. you’re uhm… you’re ahyeon, right? the model?”

ahyeon never really imagined that she would leave someone in legacy like this, it felt like the girl had been almost starstruck by her but it was all very surreal. ahyeon wasn’t that well known as a model yet, she had only been active for half a year at most, yet here this girl seemed shocked to see her. when ahyeon had been a trainee herself a year ago.

“ jaekyung? ” she repeats, nodding her head before smiling at the girl, “ yeah, i am song ahyeon. ”

Jinseo frowns as he sorts his notes, deciding which of these perfumers he wants to meet with today. He is half-tempted to ask the Legacy staff whether he can take Ahyeon, Jisoo, and Woohee to the lessons with him. After all, it’s his way of saying thank you to the two models who served as the Aphrodite and Paris faces of his fragrance; it’s also a way for him to get them to network as well. It would also be unfair to leave out Woohee, who is supposed to learn. 

He accepts his caffe lungo with thanks, savoring the taste of coffee against his tongue. Honestly, after this trip and all those cafe events, Jinseo doubts he can go back to basic Americanos. 

“That’s good to hear,” Jinseo says with a nod. “I also hope you’re having fun while we’re supposed to be working.” This is what he’s most worried about as a senior model. He is learning a lot, but he only hopes that the junior models are also learning about the industry. In Ahyeon’s and Jisoo’s cases, he hopes that this trip helps them figure out their brands. He’s almost jealous that they get sort of inspiration tours. Not to mention, they have Sanghyun and himself as reference, while Jinseo had to wing it as he went along.

“My favorite thing about Italy?” Jinseo’s lip quirks upward. “Definitely the food. No questions asked.” He chuckles. It’s been way too long since he had authentic Italian pasta, and he isn’t going to complain. He still has to watch what he eats since he will be going for fittings soon. “We’ll be doing lots of traveling as models, especially once the big brands and international designers notice us… What were you most excited to do here in Italy that we haven’t done yet though?” 

ahyeon never thought she would get to travel the world like this, at least not as a model and not so soon. when she was young ahyeon thought she would become an actress but she moved away from that path, joined legacy in high school and thought maybe she’d be an idol - but even that path wasn’t for her, despite everything she tried. ahyeon just didn’t have the passion for it, not like the other girls and she thought modelling would suit her.

if not, she could have just gone to college and studied but thankfully.

she enjoys modelling, even if it is difficult at times.

“ i am enjoying myself, being in italy is a nice change of scenery from korea and i appreciate the opportunity i am getting here. ”

it was a genuine appreciation.