he’s quick in his steps with a coffee grasped in his hand, a slightly crumpled bouquet of flowers held at his side as he ducks through familiar halls in pursuit of a particular brunette. she’s all too noticeable, even with her back turned and bucky reaches a metallic hand out to gently brush her hair away from her neck once he’s within touching distance, letting out a quiet “ boo ” to announce his presence.  

work is slow — it always is when she wants nothing more than to go home into the arms of her boyfriend. hours pass as the clinic hours dwindle, pushing around charts as if it's doing anything [ it's like the real doctors are actually doing something while lexie's across the wall, watching. begging for a chance to prove herself ] her head swirls, a press against his lips & lexie feels the warmth fill her body as a grin spreads, [like a schoolgirl she's laughing, mood instantly brightened as bucky shines like light as he enters]

LEXIE GREY:    I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU.  WE’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR YOU.  IT’S BEEN SO HARD WITHOUT YOU.  

MEREDITH GREY:   WHAT IS THIS PLACE?  AND YOU, ARE YOU REALLY HERE?

LEXIE GREY:     THE DEPTH OF THE PAIN YOU FELT …  IT WAS THE LOVE.   THE LOVE YOU HAD FOR ME.  FOR MARK.  FOR DEREK.  THIS PLACE IS FOR YOU.    IT’S ALWAYS BEEN FOR YOU.   

      [   A  BROKEN  RECORD PLAYER.  ]      an ode to a lost sister.

𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒐𝒏𝒆.      WASHING MACHINE HEART / MITSKI.   :    ❝  i know who you pretend i am …      ❞  

𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒘𝒐.       FEVER DREAM /  MXMTOON.   :    ❝  take your time / enjoy it … every fleeting moment.  ❞  

𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆.        LIGHTS UP /  HARRY SYTLES.   :    ❝ it’d be so sweet if things just stayed the same . ❞  

𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒓.        PROM QUEEN /  BEACH BUNNY.   :    ❝  turned her tears to diamonds in her crown.    ❞   

𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒇𝒊𝒗𝒆.        ALL I WANT  /  KODALINE.    ❝  so you brought out the best in me / a part of me i’d never seen   ❞   

songs she hears on replay / songs on a an ipod left to rot.  six feet under, there is no music. no warmth. 

      unsent text   (   𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑡𝘩  𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑦  )   :        it’s so lonely out here

      unsent text   (   𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑡𝘩  𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑦  )   :        i miss you a lot.

      unsent text   (   𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑡𝘩  𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑦  )   :        take your time.  

MY KID SISTER LEXIE . .  .   I LOVED HER.   

     a   𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓   to   my  sister.   for  how  terrifying  dr.  grey  is,   she  is  equally  brilliant.    a  hundred  times  more  brilliant.    a   thousand  times  more  caring.   she  can  change  the  world  if  you  just  let  her.    i’m  always  with  her.   if there’s  anyone  you  can  believe   in,   it’s   her.     in  the  short  years  i’ve  known  her,   she’s   always  been  by  my  side.   she  saved  our  father’s  life.   she  saved  mine.   even   if  she  doesn’t  know.   even   if  she’ll  never  know.   i’m  waiting  for  you meredith.   i  hope  i  wait  for  a  long  time.   

[    *    chapter one .     ↷    :       the   classification  of  anatomy.    *    visual.   ]  

[    *    chapter two .     ↷    :       encyclopedia   speaks.    *    interaction.   ]  

[    *    chapter three .     ↷    :       more  than  anything,  we  wish  to  love.    *    study.   ]  

[    *    chapter four .     ↷    :       i  am  the  reason  you   lived.    *    answered.   ]  

[    *    dedication .     ↷    :       i  know  my  sister  like  i  know  my   mind.    *    meredith  grey.   ]  

[    *    dedication .     ↷    :       meant   to    be.    *    mark  sloan.   ]