And I was too young to know...

James giggled with Madison’s answer. “You know what I mean”, he lowered the tone of his voice. “It’s one of the times that I miss school...Winter break, Spring Break, Summer Break....breaks in general. Now, we have specific days off each months...it’s good that you can gather them up though”, he mumbled and followed Madison. He leaned on the counter and sighed. “Yeah, for starters-I don’t know why we have used the uber anyway”, he smirked, looking around.

Even if James’ movement was rather slow, Madison’s legs slowed him down even more for a few seconds, before he felt her loosening them up again. He could feel it coming any second and, once Madison said his name, he started moving faster again. After a few seconds, he thrusted his hips abruptly against Mad’s and stopped moving, having a numbing feeling spread through his body. His hands caressed her breasts and cupped them lightly, before caressing her sides.

Madison smiled at James. “You’ll find out. Eventually.” She said. Madison smiled when James winked at her and went back working as he left.

James smiled widely. “Oh is that so?”, he laughed a little. “Good”, he nodded and gathered up his stuff. “I’m gonna wait for you in a few hours”, he said, winking at her, before walking out of her office.

James shook his head, smiling at that.  “Oh”, he widened his eyes in surprise. “And you’ve given one to Stephen yesterday...”, he bit his lower lip. “Why do you have a problem with that?”. James finished his coffee and his sandwich and stood up. “Alright...so that we won’t forget....once you’re done, you come to my office...we get ice cream and we go to my house?”, he leaned his hands on the edges of her desk.

James shook his head, smiling. “Right now that I’m saying it, it was...then, I was literally in agony”, he giggled. He raised his eyebrows, trying to remember what that was. “Uhm...”, he blinked.  “And what was that?”, he asked. He raised his head as Madison averted his attention towards her. He started laughing with that. “Sure, sure”, he nodded, smiling widely.

James smiled at her and looked down. “Like...he came inside...me...before I got inside you....and I got...slightly stuck and couldn’t move my hips...I mean, thank god, he didn’t start moving we’d stay like that for a long time”, he shook his head. “I know, Mad...I’m just teasing you...I don’t even believe it will ever happen, since I have enough doubts with liking one girl...imagine being attracted to two”,he smiled, looking down.

James winced at that. “Sorry about that”, he looked down for a moment. He caressed her sides, as she was talking. “Same actually...I thought I would be the one that would be neglected...but ice cream stuff and all... nope”, he widened his eyes. “I had a problem during what happened...but it was kind of solved...but it got me too tense, anyway”, he rolled his eyes. “But, yeah...let’s finda girl for our second threesome...no guys now”, he chuckled, looking down.

James smiled shyly as she said that. “He aggressively liked the new flavor yesterday-just saying in case you didn’t notice”, he widened his eyes subtly and looked down. “That sounds like a great idea”, he smiled widely. He caressed her sides a little, before pulling away from the kiss. “So...what did you think of...what happened yesterday?”, he asked her, looking into her eyes a little unwillingly.

James looked at her, as she talked. “I’m definitely attracted to both, at the same time”, he widened his eyes, as he said it outloud and instantly closed his eyes. He blinked fast, as Madison analyzed Stephen. “Did you really talk about that with Stephen, when you were together? I really need ice cream right now, by the way”, he chuckled. He sipped some more coffee and smiled, as he saw Madison coming closer to him. He smiled, as he sat on his lap and moved his hands on her hips first and raised them on her sides. “I’m gonna try and talk to you, whenever I freak out again”, he smiled at her and kissed her lightly.

“I’ll talk to you”, he nodded. “What about...your doubts...what you told me before?”. James blinked. “I still don’t understand that logic...yes, I was new...what about it?”, he said, looking at Mad. He bit his lower lip and felt a little shy himself, as Madison blushed. “I’m...gonna think about it”, he said and started eating his sandwich.

James shrugged. “I think that if I actually talked to you, you’d freak out. I passed all the phases....that I was experimenting, while liking men, that I’m not ready for anything...I’ve reached a point that...what I told you...I thought that it was unfair for you that you were with me, so it would be better for us to break up and let me have some sort of space. But that passed only for a day, so I freaked out for another day or so that I actually thought about it and then, I let it go. I don’t know how to deal with it...I think it’s a little uncontrollable...it makes me uncontrollable”, he frowned. “That was  what I thought at first...okay and a little during it...”, he made a pause. “I suggested it...because as a second thought I realized that I was awkward, because I was a little attracted to him”, he closed his eyes. “What I said before about you wanting to have sex with Stephen...and I thinking that...I wasn’t putting you there...I was also putting Stephen....I thought that he wanted to be with you and he was all over me. SO all over me....I didn’t get to comment on it before he left”, he said stubbornly. “I don’t know if I’ve missed it...being touched like that by a guy...but I’m probably not used to being bottom anymore”, he shook his head. “And I was bottom a lot of times”, he chuckled, looking down. He raised his head abruptly, as she said that. “Uhm...”, he hummed, widening his eyes slowly.  “If you still find it weird, I don’t know...I don’t want you to do something that you don’t want to...I don’t remember asking you...but you’ve used it before, right?”.

James let go off his cup on the table and crossed his hands together. “ Not as much as I was before, I still have my doubts...I realized a lot of stuff before...during or even after what...happened yesterday”, he sighed heavily and looked down.”Honestly...I thought that since I like men for most of my life, so far, I wasn’t feeling that it was fair for you...and I supressed that feeling. I mean, it’s hypocritical of me to think that, because you denied  liking men for most of your life, as well...but you’ve been with men, before...I...have never been with a girl...besides you”, he bit his lower lip hard, staring at the floor. “So, somehow...in my awkward head, I thought you’d like to have sex with Stephen again and be with him...because you had sex before and I was a convenience, because I’ve been with men before...and we’d be together so...it wouldn’t count, as cheating...like we said’, he took a deep breath and finally turned to look at her. “So, when....this started...your attention to me...felt weird...Weirdly good. I don’t know how to explain it...I mean...I expected something else”, he blinked fast. “But, it was better than I expected”, he said. “I guess I lived in my head so much time, while we’re trying to figure it out, I didn’t know you liked me that much and I actually liked you back...like in a way....more than friends. Not that I didn’t feel it before...but...I always doubted what was going on sexuality-wise for me and what people thought of me that way...”, he bit his lower lip. “The last part happened, before I realized I was something more than gay, but I let that be”, he said and looked down again. 

James chuckled at that. “Surely...but I’m hoping for changing it soon, enough...I can’t listen to employee’s complaints on new upcoming projects for another second. Seriously”, he widened his eyes. “Less than yesterday, but it still feels...that it’s there”, he pouted and took a bite from his sandwich. “Honestly, I didn’t expect it would go like that, yesterday...but okay”, he sighed, drinking some more coffee.