Itâs crazy how things can change. How one day you wake up and your world is completely upside down. Your daily routines are no more. The man you love is gone and he took away every ounce of happiness you had with him. Itâs truly baffling how codependent you can become on someone, and when they walk away youâre left lost. Youâre left to figure out the mess on your own. You have to reconfigure the life you once knew. There are no more goodmornings or goodnights. There are no more late night trips or Saturday breakfasts. There you are left to collect the pieces to your own broken heart. Itâs crazy that people whom you promised to spend forever with are now probably going to spend forever with someone else. Someone who doesnât know how you like your eggs, someone who doesnât know that you love your laundry done with fabric softener. But Iâm sure they will get to know all your quirks just as I did. Iâm sure they fell for the same man that I once did. Everyone says that âtime heals all woundsâ. And that might be true but maybe not for me. I have had more suicidal days then not. I have thought about what this world would be like without me. I have not been able to come to terms with how you could âfall out of loveâ with someone who wanted to build a life with you. Itâs crazy how one day I woke up and you were just someone I once knew and nothing more. Iâve learned over the past 7 months that nothing and I mean nothing is permanent. There isnât a soul that owes you anything and life...especially life owes you nothing. I am coping and learning to be happy again. I have not tried to harm myself and I am thinking positively. I hope there is someone magical out there waiting for me...because I have magic inside of me. - January 19th 2020
The photo is of me when I went out with my friends to Hoboken.
















