hi

Really want to start restricting again because I miss the feeling of power that I get from starving. I also feel like shit about how I look and it’s been about 2 months since I’ve “recovered”, but I feel like I’ve gained 10 lbs

I’m noticing more fat rolls in places where there weren’t as many when I was restricting, like my ankles have gotten fatter again

I’ve been gone for a couple of months because I started eating again and my friend was showing me an old picture of us and I look so sick and thinner than I am now because I’ve been eating so much but I’ve lost all motivation to starve and I just wish for once I could consistently do it until I reach my ugw and I’m scared to weigh myself because it’s been a long time and I’m afraid that the number will be too high

I think I’m gonna go for a run today. I need to run off some of this anxiety and feel like I’m doing something so I don’t gain weight

Explain to me WHY 126 looks so bad on me?? At my height, it should look fine, but no, I look so bad. Maybe if it would go to my boobs instead of my legs, ankles, and stomach, I would look okay.

Def gaining again :/ I’m wearing some jeans that were really big around my legs and knees, but they’re more fitted than they were before. I promised myself I would reach 110 before graduation, but that’s just not gonna happen, even if I do start restricting again.

Been very inactive because I’ve been ~eating~🥴, idk if I’m gonna be able to restrict again for a little while because I’m trying to quit nicotine, but the cravings are real. Also, I’ve been feeling really wonky and a bit depressed for the past couple of days idk if it’s because I accidentally skipped 2 doses of my meds, but I hope this funk goes away

Went for a walk earlier, but my fitness app was paused the whole time, so i have to guess how much I burned 🙃

Any advice on how to avoid a binge while fasting?

I’m going to try to get back into fasting again. I’m a little worried because I used to always binge when I tried to fast, but when I first started, I was really good at fasting. I’m doing an 18 hour fast, so it will end around 8:30 tomorrow morning. I really hope this doesn’t backfire, I just want to reach my gw before graduation next month.

I have been bingeing so much this past weekish and I hate it. I’m tired of being so bloated to the point where I look like I’m in the third trimester of a pregnancy. I hate feeling gross and greasy and judged. It’s hard though because I’m quitting smoking, but I’m going to try my best to get back on track this week

Okay, so I ate(:/)/ threw out some of my binge food, so hopefully that will help me to stay in control. I made some coffee, so I can have iced coffee tomorrow morning because iced coffee weirdly makes me less hungry than hot coffee? I’m gonna chug water like there’s no tomorrow and try to stick to my rules

I’ve been unintentionally high restricting :/ been eating around 1000 every day, I just don’t have the motivation to low restrict lately. Plus my mouth has been soo dry, so I just chugged a bunch of water, but now I’m bloated and in pain