everything is temporary

june 30th was a huge day for me. it was a day i knew was coming but didn’t have the courage to act upon how i felt. how scary is it. you don’t exactly remember the date, the time or what you were doing - but in the midst of it all you fell out of love. someone you spent 5 years with - laughing, joking around with, being vulnerable with. 

this sucks. this truly does. to let go of not only a relationship but a true friendship. 

I'm writing this so i can look back march 13, 2017.

i came home from lemongrass chicken with nunu. i came straight to my room and cried about you. and past experiences i can't seem to let go of.

all the heartbreak, the hate, feelings of insecurity -it made me who i am today. i can distinctly remember when my heart was physically in pain, when it was so unbearable i wanted to stay in bed forever. 

fast forward to today- i feel indestructible (lol). as the saying goes “you can only feel the highs when you’ve felt the lows.” and to be honest, i still have bad days... but they’re manageable. i’ve come to a realization that everything happens for a reason. nothing is fixed, nothing is certain. there is and will be light coming your way no matter what.