† max †

it’s truly been a dream seeing eva perform as eurydice. i cannot believe how different she seems on stage compared to when i saw her and reeve perform together in their concert. this whole hadestown stuff has been so fantastic but also incredibly stressful and bittersweet. there’s SO much to process, like the fact that i’m seeing someone perform that i never thought i’d get the chance to, let alone as my favourite role of hers. i’m incredibly grateful that i have gotten to see the OBC 2 times so far. but as an autistic person with a hadestown special interest, i can’t pretend it hasn’t been very hard! i love it so much that it hurts. and i’m sad because i know it won’t last forever and i feel so much pressure to make the most of every second of it. i am but it’s taking a toll on my body seeing it, like the first 2 weeks i was soo deep in the special interest, all i could do was stress about making art for them at stage door. the second time i saw it, i cried through the whole show (silently haha) agh it’s just a LOT and i love it but it’s it’s hard. it’s ironic that i got the tickets because i’m autistic and get access tickets, but i also am experiencing all these different emotions about it so intensely because .. i am autistic.