I've Saved You !!! Now You Save Me !!!

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So because I've stopped losing weight ... I've given up ... I've lost the willpower I used to have !!! So from now I need to remember my goals my aims .... This journey isn't just about me . It's about proving that you don't have to be stick thin to look healthy you can be toned , big boned and still look just as good .... So next time I look at the cake or the chocolate cake I need to consider my future .... being unhappy with myself of just focus on the fact that I can do this ... Love me xxx

Hi all , So today I am happy to post a shocking before and after picture of my body !!! The difference in just over three years .... in the first picture I weigh and astonishing 15stone three pounds in the second I am weight just over 10stone nine pounds.... So my target I wanted six weeks ago isn't looking too far away . But I've started to learn to forgive myself because I know I may not have done it today or now but there is always the future to look for. Because my weight-loss isn't just about the end result , it's about me being an all round more positive , social, friendly , happy and outgoing person. The significant change in my diet , I rarely cook with Sauces which are found in jars now , I don't drink green milk, I've gone to red, I've realised that a little is better for me than a lot, I would rather have one piece of chocolate and savour the moment rather than lots ... Exercise has been a key part in this it started with running with my other half in January and by running mean stop start ... having to get home and lay down for over an hour to recover from my walk/run. Now if we go out for a run I can not only keep up with my rather fit other half, but I can often keep my speed up... and hardly ever stop. Yoga was something I found in May a lovely lady on YouTube by the name yogawithadrienne , she changed my focus. She made me realise that yoga wasn't just exercise , it was a way a life, it help me focus, help me regroup when my anxiety had taken a hold and most off all begin the process of the "I can attitude within me". So much so that I've taken my yoga to work with me and often found myself teaching them simple movements ( the kids I work with are two) , it helps them focus too and they genuinely enjoy so much so , I found a YouTube channel devoted to kiddy yoga called "cosmic kids..." ( just wait till I have my own child , Yoga everyday ). The biggest change came on July 29th when I joined regiment fitness , I love the training outside , getting covered in mud the satisfaction I feel when I start to be able to do things that I previously thought I couldn't . Sometimes I'm there and I feel like a complete dork because I sometimes need time to catch my breath, but it's hard and it cater to all levels of fitness, abilities and strengths. ( I still hate a dreaded burpee and I can't do a Spider-Man press-up but I am getting better... it's all about progress). So you know what as we head in to Christmas ... I am going to relax my routine a little bit , but I am not going to let myself give it to the person that I used to be ... because you know what the person at the end of this journey and the me now is positive and genuinely happy to take the next step .... Merry Christmas and a happy new year all Love me xx

Evening all , Has a rough start to the month and getting ready for the biggest personally food event of the year .../ I'm anxious but I am sure that I can make it though or even overcome what I do after Christmas... Have a lovely Christmas Love me x

So tonight I'm glad to tell you all I've stayed the same ... glad because I've had a tough week and glad because it means next week can only get better.... But something I have noticed by just being a work this new found positivity of mine is rubbing other people up the wrong way. Now I'm just in a state of thinking fuck I have no friends right now..... But I have realised that what I have conquered in regard to my weight loss so far has been incredible but I know the hardest part is yet to come. I know I need to push and get to target!!! I also know that friends come and go but the ones who truly matter come back ... and I know that I will get through this ... because positivity and happiness need to remain my priority.... So I'm digging myself out of the big black hole and saying fuck it because my anxiety is not going to take over my life again ... So take a deep breath count to ten and get prepared to take the biggest leap yet .... Love me ....