For the past entire week I was too lazy to get pencil led and as a result i doodled with pens, which meant if I messed up I messed up. I used to be a perfectionist and this drove me insane. But eventually it forced me to put up with flaws and mistakes—I either had to start over or keep going, making something out of these flaws. Improvising. There’s no point in starting over with another piece of art if you already put so much time into something already beautiful, even if it’s not flawless. And because I decided not to scrap the doodle and make something out of this imperfect drawing I ended up doodling something even more creative than I initially imagined. I think life is just the same way. You’re going to make mistakes or encounter imperfect situations or people, and you can’t just erase what you don’t like. you can either choose to start over or keep going, but if you keep starting over then you’ll never get a result; you’ll go nowhere constantly being dissatisfied. And if you never challenge yourself to accept things you don’t like, and make something beautiful out of it, how will your life have any spice to it? How will you learn new things? And how will you find beauty in things you’d never expect if you didn’t “keep doodling over the mistakes?” Sure these doodles look kind of hideous and bleh, but they also have their own rough little aesthetic to them that I found really admirable, and I’m proud of it even though I only spent like 30 minutes on the whole thing. This was all just a very philosophical way of saying I fucked up the girl’s mouth so it looked like she was a human wind instrument so I had to cover it with a bandana because I was too damn lazy to draw another normal crying girl and I got this incredibly cool angsty traitor gangster concept instead #drawing #doodle #doodling #manga #sketch #anime #sad #heartbreak #tragedygirls #tragedy #crybaby #sadgirl #aesthetic #art #betrayal