𝐋𝐞𝐚𝐟𝐲𝐚

Wanderer quickly let go of your hand as the group of people kept talking about you and laughing under their breath as they walked down the hall. He felt his heart beating, he didn't know what it was from and he didn't like it at all. After a long pause, he glanced at your face which was as nervous as his. It was quite awkward so he wanted to suggest going for a walk, but you beat him to it.

❝ Do you want to do bread duty with me? ❞ — You saw how puzzled his face was, so you immediately started explaining what it was — ❝ Bread duty is something I always do after sign language class, I feed the fish. Let's go, I'll show you. ❞ — He watched you smile from ear to ear, he nodded showing that he agreed and that you can lead.

As you were walking together to feed the fish, out of nowhere he started thinking about you again. Even though he didn't know what your older sister and younger sister looked like, he knew that you lived with them, along with your father, whom he had seen from the car in the past when he was talking to his mother. He's sure that if he saw you two together he wouldn't be happy to see him after all this. He hoped that you were feeling better and had many real friends in current school, without any problems like he did to you.

When you reached the bridge, you started taking out bread in a sack from your bag. After opening it, you started throwing small pieces of bread into the water where many fish immediately appeared and ate them. Wanderer was a bit surprised that you came to feed the fish after class, not everyone wants to do that. He patted your shoulder lightly to draw your attention to him for a moment.

❝ Why are you feeding the fish after class? ❞ — He signed as you put the bread down on the bridge railing — ❝ Our breadman doesn't come on Tuesdays, so I volunteered to do it. I like it when people count on me. ❞ — He looked at you strangely when you signed, he never understood why some people found it happy, maybe there was just something wrong with him.

❝ You're odd... ❞ — He noticed how you looked away and slowly tore off pieces of bread. He rested his hands on the railing and ruffled his hair slightly, angry at himself for signing it. He didn't mean to be rude, he just let it slip. He still couldn't believe that you were standing here together when all he had to do was apologize and ask for forgiveness. He just had to do it before...

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw you reading your old notebook where others wrote terrible things to you. Why were you reading this? You didn't want to forget the past? How he humiliated you along with the others?

❝ Y/N... Listen, why don't you give me that notebook? ❞ — Yet you didn't pay attention to him because you were busy reading and flipping through the pages. He didn't want you to read it so he tried to take the notebook from you but you immediately pulled it to your chest. Wanderer didn't give in and tried to grab it from your hands again, which caused the notebook to fall out of both of your hands and fall into the water.

Both of your eyes widened and you immediately leaned against the railing to find it. He didn't want it to end like this, but if it meant you wouldn't read it, he didn't mind that much. He turned his head towards you, but what he didn't expect was that you were in the middle of jumping into the water. He tried to grab you by the waist, but unfortunately you managed to jump in front of him and all he heard was a splash.

"Y/N!" — He yelled your name, he would never admit that you scared and worried him at that moment, he felt how hard his heart was beating. He quickly tossed his jacket aside and jumped in after you. When he was underwater, he surfaced to see where you were. He heard you gasp next to him as you tried to push the hair out of your face to see anything. You kept searching for your notebook as if your life depended on it. Was it really so important to you? If so, why?

You kept dipping in and out of the water just to find that damn notebook, he knew there was no point in trying to convince you, so he started looking too. It wasn't easy but luckily he saw it covered in sand and more. He noticed how you were still searching, not giving up, which confused him. He poked you lightly on the head with his finger and when you looked at him he handed you your notebook which you happily took. You bowed as a thank you and he just crossed his arms as he raised an eyebrow.

❝ Is this really important to you? ❞ — To which you nodded and slowly started to get out of the water. Wanderer ruffled his wet hair slightly, not understanding you at all, he didn't see anything that important in that notebook. He sighed and shrugged, it wasn't his place to judge, after all it was yours and not his. When you were back on the bridge, he noticed you were shivering slightly due to the cold wind, so with a little reluctance, he handed you his jacket and you stared at him in shock.

❝ Take this and don't think about doing such stupid things. Don't do it again. ❞ — He scolded you, but you gladly took the jacket from him to put it on. He watched as your cheekbones lifted high, causing him to turn his head to hide his embarrassment. He felt his cheeks burning, he didn't know why he was reacting like that because of you, he wanted it to go away quickly.

"Y/N!" — Wanderer heard someone calling your name, he looked straight and it turned out that it was your father, Neuvillette, who was walking towards you with a not very happy face. It seemed like your dad hadn't changed, he looked the same as before. He gently removed the hearing aid from your ear and noticed that it didn't work due to contact with water. Then his eyes landed on Wanderer, who was watching your father anxiously.

"Let's go home." — Neuvillette lightly patted your back to show you to go to the car. As you started walking you looked at Wanderer one last time with a smile and showed him in sign language 'see you later'. He hesitantly did the same and while you were gone, he was left alone with your father. Wanderer squeezed his hand as he watched Neuvillette take your backpack, he wanted to apologize to your father too for what he did but it was harder than he thought.

"Sir?" — Neuvillette's cold gaze met his pattern, and he felt a shiver run down his spine. Before he could say anything, your dad simply walked away from him, leaving him alone in the middle of the bridge watching him get into his car and drive away. Wanderer clenched his hands, causing them to turn white and his eyebrows furrowed. He knew your father didn't have to forgive him or listen to him, but he really did want to apologize and he was just ignored. He looked at the ground and gritted his teeth to calm down, he didn't want to suddenly explode with anger. He could only be angry at himself and not at the others who were innocent in this situation.

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You looked at your father uncertainly as you got out of the car. You hoped that your father hadn't said anything mean to Scaramouche or that he hadn't hurt him in any way. Neuvillette, seeing your expression, took out the small notebook and pen that he always kept in his pocket to communicate with you in some way and gave it to you so that you could write down what was wrong. You took it and, after writing, handed it back to him to read.

« You didn't hurt him, right...? » — You noticed a small smile on your father's face and he shook his head, making you sigh in relief. You knew your dad wouldn't do it, but you always wanted to make sure. As you were about to enter your home, you suddenly realized that you hadn't asked Scaramouche about his new name, which gave you another reason to meet him again.

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Wanderer was returning home late at night, he was still wet, which reminded him of the old times when he jumped into the water with his old friends, Kazuha and Heizou. Just thinking about them started giving him a headache, so he decided to stop thinking about it and his thoughts returned to you. You signed 'see you later' which meant you wanted to see him again. Why? You should dislike him or even hate him, why did you treat him like a friend? And if he saw you again, your father would definitely not like it, knowing that you normally talk to your past bully like friend.

But it wasn't that bad, right? He should be happy that you weren't mad at him, or you were, maybe you just hid it. Wanderer scoffed quietly as he couldn't calm down the thoughts that were swirling chaotically in his head. This notebook was important to you even after all this and only because he brought it back to you. He had already forgotten why he even kept it in his room instead of destroying it or do something else. But maybe that's a good thing. You were odd, but in a good way, that's what he wanted to sign earlier, but he didn't allow himself to show that he was weak, while also hurting you a little, which he didn't want.

Wanderer thought his mother was already asleep but when he entered the house he was greeted by his mother with warm food which was quite suspicious, at least she was a better cook than his sister.

"Welcome back Kuni! Come eat before it gets cold." — He just shrugged, took off his shoes and went to the bathroom to wash his hands. His mother was suspiciously happier than ever, not that he didn't mind because she had every right to be happy however it was quite weird. When he sat down at the table, he noticed that Nahida was not sitting in her seat as usual, so his mother had probably already put her to bed. As he ate, he felt her eyes so he raised an eyebrow at her and she just smiled slightly.

"Why are you so happy?" — His mother took out an envelope which he placed next to her head while she slept, causing him to immediately stop eating — "Thank you for the money, I see that you tried very hard. I would be very proud."

"Would?"

He watched as her gaze suddenly went blank as she looked at the envelope with the money and she frowned.

"Why did you want to kill yourself?" — Suddenly the silence became loud, Wanderer tensed like never before and his eyes were fixed on his food. His hands became clammy and he felt his stomach turn just looking at the food. She wasn't supposed to find out, at least not in the way. How was he supposed to explain this to her? He couldn't look at her, he knew that if he looked straight into her eyes he would see her disappointment.

"I... Um..." — He couldn't say anything. His mother threw something on the table and it was his calendar which was half torn which made him more stressed. He never thought he'd have a conversation about this.

"So is it true...?" — He couldn't lie to her because it would make things worse, so he clenched his hands tightly and nodded slightly, still not looking at her. There was silence, which worried him a little, so he decided to glance at her. His eyes widened when he saw tears, which was rare for her. He saw that her face was filled with anger and sadness, two emotions that he most didn't want to see on his mother's face.

"Why?!" — Suddenly she took the envelope with the money from the table and pulled out a lighter, keeping the flame close to the envelope — "Promise! Promise you won't kill yourself! If you don't do this... I will burn it all! I don't care that you sold everything to get this money, you have to promise!!!" — Burn? No, no, no, no, no, she couldn't burn it! He immediately stood up to take the money away from his mother, but she brought the lighter closer to the envelope, which made Wanderer stop moving.

"Don't be stupid!" — He snapped at her, she couldn't burn it. No — "You're stupid! Every time you earn this money again I will burn it and burn it until you promise me! Until you promise me you won't kill yourself! You have to promise me that!"

"Mom-"

"NO! I won't listen to your excuses! Not any other words from you, I just want to hear your promise! Otherwise I'll burn it!"

"I-"

"Promise! Just tell me!" — His heart began to beat faster when he saw how close the flame was to the envelope. He felt like he was going to break down, but he didn't want to cry in front of his mother, so he fell to his knees in front of her and put his forehead to the floor.

"I promise I won't kill myself! I promise! I promise!" — Wanderer gritted his teeth tightly, felt like he was sweating and his body was trembling slightly. He frowned as he still pressed his forehead to the floor, not wanting to look anywhere else.

"I hope you really mean it..." — He watched her from the floor, but quickly began to stand up, stumbling a bit when he saw the burning envelope in his mother's hand.

"Mom!" — She quickly let go when she felt burning, they tried to extinguish the flame quickly, which they managed to do, but...

"There's nothing left." — He said as he looked at the burnt remains of the money, there was nothing left. Nothing. They both looked at the leftovers and sighed quietly.

"I wouldn't want that money anyway." — When she said this, he raised his eyebrow and bandaged her hand after the burn. After finishing his mother's bandage, he said small goodnight to her and went upstairs to his room also checking if Nahida was still sleeping. He smiled a little when he saw her sleeping sprawled out on the bed, his cat curled up next to her head.

He quietly left and went to his room which was almost empty. He looked at the calendar he had taken from the table earlier and felt a little guilty. Maybe he really shouldn't do this? After all, then he will never see the smile on his mother's face again, he will not take Nahida to kindergarten by hand, he will not be able to pet his cat, he won't see you again...

He sat down on the floor, hiding his face in his hands, trying not to break down. He still felt this feeling that he didn't want to be in this world, he knew this feeling wouldn't go away anytime soon, but something made him want to fight, even if it was small. He promised, so he will try to fight even if his life falls apart. He will try.

He stood up and took the pages he had torn out of the calendar. He took the tape and glued them back, then hung it on the wall. He crossed his arms as he stared at it blankly like his mother had before and closed his eyes.

Tomorrow will be another day.

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Rumors were something Scaramouche hated, most of them were lies, unfortunately this time the rumors were about him and they were true. People asked if it was really because of him that the girl transferred to another school, and he always replied monotonously that it was true. People looked at him with disgust as he passed them in the corridor, he could feel their eyes everywhere but of course he tried to ignore it. His behavior left him alone, without friends or anyone, he would be lying if he said it didn't bother him, he was always somewhere with his friends or talking to them.

Scaramouche or rather now Wanderer (You can name him now whatever you called him!) changed completely, of course he was still not nice but his behavior became more calm than before. In high school he still didn't talk to anyone, no one has forgotten what he used to be like, they preferred to stay away from him.

“Could you bring me the line powder, Scaramouche?” — Wanderer hated that name, it reminded him of a past he would like to forget, but he sighed and nodded.

"Okay, nevermind. I will do it myself." — Of course, no one wants him here, he foolishly thought that he could be useful for something. He didn't know where it came from, but every time someone talks to him, he feels like his mind is trying to twist all the words. He couldn't stop thinking negatively, if someone spoke nicely about him, he always claimed that they were lying and just trying to irritate him.

“Why are you always alone, Scaramouche?” “What a lonely weirdo.”

“Do you have any hobbies, Scaramouche?” “Leave me alone, you think you're great but you really aren't.”

“Finally, the next part of my favorite book is out!”

"Really? Have you bought it yet?”

“Do you think the teacher will notice if we're gone?”

"Certainly not!"

“Why is he looking at us like that?”

“Why are you surprised? He's probably jealous that someone has friends."

“He's so annoying.”

“He still looks pissed.”

“I hope that when we finish this school, we won't see him again.”

SHUT UP!

Wanderer felt like his ears were about to burst, the noise and buzz wouldn't stop so he covered his ears with his hands to stabilize it at least a little. His thoughts kept wandering around his head, he wanted it all to stop, unfortunately it wasn't that easy. Why did HE have to be nice to everyone? HE should hate them all. It disgusts him when he hears these idiots talking about dating, it makes him feel sick.

“That weird old guy was talking to me today.”

“He was flirting with you.”

"No way!" Nobody cares, just shut up, nobody wants to hear it, especially him.

“I hate those gropers on trains.”

“What, again?” Same with you, you try to be funny and all you do is make fools of yourself that no one even laughs at. It's not funny.

Everyone there pretends that they are so smart because they read books, they pretend that they are busy but actually they do nothing, they pretend that they are healthy but they are not. They pretend to be honest but they lie whenever something doesn't go their way and make themselves look innocent.

He hates them all. He hates all the things they like. He hates them. He hates them. He hates them.

When the noise and buzz finally stopped, he rested his head tiredly on his hand, staring blankly at the notebook in front of him. Because of this thinking, Wanderer hates himself most of all, he hates his life. He decided to isolate himself from everyone else, he didn't want to be lonely but he didn't want to be betrayed again, loneliness couldn't hurt him like that.

In middle school, he went to Nagoya alone for the first time, it was quite a nice memory even though he was very nervous because he was far from his home. He was very happy then because he bought the limited edition and it was also the moment when he decided to buy a book that teaches sign language. What tempted him? He doesn't really know but he probably wanted to learn for you.

Wanderer also remembers how his classmates said how much they wanted the limited edition and upon hearing this he thought that maybe this would make them friends again. Unfortunately, when they heard this, they started saying that that they will stop listening to them, so he stopped too.

That day he felt like something had broken inside him, sometimes you can't achieve everything even if you try hard, it's not always worth trying. Everyone knew what they wanted to do in the future, except him, he didn't see his future anywhere, he didn't know what to do with himself. He's going to die anyway, right? Everyone is going to die, so why not end it sooner?

Wanderer was in his room, tearing off half of his calendar, the calendar remained April and only days from 1 to 15, and it was already the 9th day, i.e. Wednesday. He stared blankly at the calendar he had hung up again, a few more days and everything would be over. Suddenly his thoughts were interrupted by a phone call, he sighed slightly annoyed but answered it anyway.

"Good morning, are you the boy who was looking for that girl?"

"Yes, it's me."

"She comes on Tuesdays, stop by around five and you should find her there." — When the lady hung up, he felt a lump stuck in his throat, he knew he had to do it, or rather wanted to do it. He had to apologize to you for everything he did to you, it won't be easy for him to admit it but you deserve an apology, first he has to quit his job.

"What? You're quitting?"

"Yes."

It had been two days since he quit his job and got his paycheck. He also sold everything he could in his room, furniture and more, for which he received ¥30,000 (Around $250). He took envelopes from the drawer containing money that he received from other people on various occasions, such as the New Year and he also cancelled his contract.

He wrapped up all the money he collected and wrote "Here's the money I owe you." He quietly entered his mother's room, who was still sleeping in her warm bed, and placed the money next to her. He sighed quietly as his thoughts consumed him, he didn't want her to have a son like him, he could be better for her. He felt his cat rub against his leg which made him smile a little, he reached down and stroked his furry friend one last time as he left the house.

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Wanderer felt his muscles tense as he looked at the building you were most likely in. So he saw your face again? To be honest, he thought he would apologize to you in a few years, but he doesn't have that much time. He entered the building hesitantly, which was quite crowded, he couldn't back out now, not when he was already so close.

Suddenly, he felt like time stopped when he saw you out of the corner of his eye as you walked past him without noticing him. He has never felt as scared as he does now, what will you say when you meet him? Will you slap him out of anger or will he make you cry? He didn't want any of these things to happen even though he knew he deserved it and he wouldn't be offended if you slapped him, after all he deserved it. He quickly shook his head as he realized he was lost in thought, so he quickly ran up behind you and grabbed your sleeve gently.

"[Y/N]!"

He tensed as you looked at him, slightly shocked. He wanted to speak, but his words stuck in his throat. He wanted your forgiveness for what he did to you long ago. He is so sorry for the way he used to be. The silence was uncomfortable, he couldn't bring himself to meet your eyes, he squeezed his fist trying to force himself to say something.

Suddenly you ran away from him, which surprised him, he couldn't leave, not yet, so he quickly ran after you, shouting your name, completely forgetting that you couldn't hear. He was still running after you, he couldn't miss this opportunity, he knows that later he won't have the same chance as now. While turning a corner, he accidentally bumped into someone, causing him to fall, and the person quickly apologized and left.

Stupid people can't watch how they walk, because of this person he will definitely not find you now. Although he understands why you ran away. Well... why wouldn't you? After all the shitty way he treated you... He was prepared for how you might react, no matter how, he still wanted to apologize to you. It looked like he wouldn't get another chance, and he had plenty of them when you guys were younger.

Once

Twice

In fact, he could have apologized to you every time he saw you, but he gave up on all of them. After a while, he felt someone's presence in front of him, so he slowly opened his eyes and saw you. You crouched down and took his hand, making him flinch slightly, not expecting it. He looked at you confused, but after a moment he realized that you were writing on his hand, first w, then h, and finally y.

Why?

What did you mean? Why is he here? Or maybe why he was bullying you in the past?

He felt you pull him lightly to help him stand up, he didn't know why but when he felt your hand connect with his, he never wanted to let you go. He shook himself from his thoughts as he stood up with some help from you. He felt your eyes on him so he quickly handed you your old notebook, it was slightly worn and dirty.

❝ Your notebook.❞ — He signed, you couldn't believe what you saw, he knew sign language? He looked at you confused, why were you so surprised? Did he do something wrong again?

❝ You know sign language? Why?❞ — His cheeks flushed slightly as you pointed it out. How was he supposed to tell you that he started learning sign language just for you?

❝ I studied it to tell you everything, I- ❞ — He suddenly stopped signing when he noticed you looking through your old notebook, he couldn't tell what you were feeling right now but it probably wasn't easy. He frowned as unpleasant memories began to run through his head. How he behaved as a child, how he was rude to you and made fun of you.

« I'm sorry. »

Scaramouche looked at the words in surprise. You apologized? Again? Scaramouche roughly took your notebook from you, which scared you a little. For a moment you just looked at each other.

"Doesn't this piss you off?! C'mon say something!"

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"What's your problem?!" — Heizou noticed the small blush on Scaramouche's cheeks and started to laugh quietly at him but got a sharp look from Scaramouche to shut up. He looked at you again and then you saw him take your notebook and throw it into the water nearby.

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"Scara, was it really necessary-" — Scaramouche interrupted Kazuha — "Let's just go."

…

«My name is [ Last Name ] [ First Name ]. It is nice to meet you.» — This made everyone look at each other in confusion, Scara rested his chin on his hand as he read — «I would like to get to know everyone through this notebook.»

It is not enough. He hasn't done enough to be able to take his own life now. It's still not enough. He can't. Not yet.

"Wait... Stop." — Wanderer tried to take the notebook from you, but his eyes widened when he noticed tears in your eyes that were threatening to fall. He can't give up now, he has to tell you everything.

❝ Forget what I said. The truth is that I came here for myself... I'm sorry that I was so hopeless to you, that I treated you like garbage. I was a terrible kid who couldn't control his emotions. I hate myself for what I did to you, I never think about others only about myself, I'm selfish. We only communicated through fighting, if I could, I would change it. I hoped that I would change, unfortunately the only thing that changed was my name but now I want to fix it, I want to try to understand your world. I want to understand what you feel, I want to understand your voice, I just want to understand you.❞ — He couldn't believe he had said or rather signed all that, he felt like someone else had taken over his body singing all that. He never apologized to anyone. Now there is one thing left, probably the most difficult.

❝ [Y/N]...❞

❝ Could you...❞ — He pointed at you.

❝...And me...❞ — And he pointed himself.

❝...Be friends ? ❞ — He put his hands together and shook them lightly.

It was the same gesture, or rather sign language, that you showed him when you were younger, Wanderer didn't know what it meant so he didn't think that you wanted to be friends with him. But now he knew, and he felt stupid when he remembered that you showed the exact same thing. When he finally looked at you, he saw you looking at him over your notebook, your eyebrows furrowed.

Fuck, why did he even offer this to you?! After all, his only goal was to come to apologize to you and finally leave this hopeless world. He mentally slapped himself and started to think of an excuse, but before he could do so, he suddenly felt your warm hand on his. He heard people whispering behind you how sweet and in love you were together. In his mind, Wanderer was already planning their deaths, but after a while he remembered that you were still holding his hand. What was he supposed to do now?!

You're not making it easy for him, are you?

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➸ Any ideas for a name for the Scaramouche cat? ≽^•༚•ྀི≼

➸ Ignore how much I change my perspective, I don't know if I write better when I write "her" or "you"

➸ Maybe I'll start drawing for this series

➸ Anyways, I wanted to thank you guys very much for reading this!!! If you have any questions, I'm always happy to answer!!

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Scaramouche immediately pulled his hand away from her, a small blush on his face. She didn't know why he reacted like that, she just wanted to be friends with him.

"What's your problem?!" — Heizou noticed the small blush on Scaramouche's cheeks and started to laugh quietly at him but got a sharp look from Scaramouche to shut up. He looked at her again and then she saw him take her notebook and throw it into the water nearby.

"Scara, was it really necessary-" — Scaramouche interrupted Kazuha — "Let's just go." — But as they were about to go, they heard the splash of water, and as they turned around, they saw her trying to find her notebook. Scaramouche started laughing at her but she still tried to find her notebook without giving up.

Scaramouche saw nothing wrong with bullying her. After all, it was her fault for ruining the entire atmosphere in the classroom, if it weren't for her, everything would be the same as before. This gave him satisfaction.

Until.

"Class, we would like to discuss something with you that is very important, that's why the principal is here." — Said Mr. Ragnvindr who had his arms crossed which showed he was not in a mood. The principal cleared his throat and began to speak — "This is about [ Name ] [ Last Name ] who, as you can see, is not with us here today. Yesterday we received a call from [ Name ]'s father. [ Name ]'s hearing aids have been broken or gone missing. Hearing aids are very expensive. Her father believes [ Name ] is being bullied." — There was silence in the class — "If any of you have seen [ Name ] being harassed or abused at school, I need you to tell me who is doing it. If no one says anything, unfortunately I will have to call your parents."

Scaramouche moved his leg nervously, he didn't even know why he was reacting like that. He noticed his hand shaking on the desk, he knew he had to tell the truth but was he sure? If he counted all the hearing aids he had destroyed, he knew his mother might even be short of money.

"This is a really serious matter and the school does not accept bullying-" "Raiden!" — The shout of his name brought him back to earth as he quickly stood up. Mr. Ragnvindr frowned at him, he tried to look less nervous but failed miserably.

"Now Megistus, you're sitting right next to him, what have you seen?" — Mona was a bit surprised when the teacher involved her in this, she didn't want to get in trouble, so she cleared her throat nervously — "Well, it's kind of true, he does tease her a little uhh like he makes fun of her." — Scara looked at her in disbelief. It's true what she said, but he didn't think she would say it and she didn't say it either, that she was talking behind her back.

"And Kaedehara?"

Kazuha was Scaramouche's best friend, he didn't want him to get in trouble but he also couldn't lie, what he did to [ Name ] was truly cruel. He felt guilty for not doing anything, so he looked away so as not to meet Scaramouche's gaze, who probably thought he would support him in this matter.

"It's... True."

Scaramouche couldn't believe what he heard — "What? It's not fair! You all made fun of her too! Everyone did it! I swear it's true! Especially Mona and Sucrose!" — When he finished, Sucrose suddenly started crying. She took off her glasses to wipe away the tears that were falling.

"That's mean... I would never do anything like that. How... How could you say something like that...?" — The entire class started whispering and some even looked at Scaramouche with furious expressions for making Sucrose cry. Why was everyone looking at him like that? It wasn't just his fault! Why did everyone blame only him and not the rest?! Why?!

From that day on, his 'friends' turned away from him. Most of them looked at him in disgust for what he had done. That's why he's sitting in dirty water now, because he was pushed in, a soaked school bag with books is lying next to him, some of them even fell completely into the water, and one was on his head. He saw his 'friends' walk away, not wanting to have anything to do with him today. Reluctantly, he started to take his books out of the water when suddenly he saw a notebook, but it wasn't his, and when he opened it, he saw a signature.

6-2 [ Name ] [ Last Name ]

So this was her notebook, huh? He thought she took it out. He started looking through her notebook, the first few pages had many nice words written on them, such as 'good luck' , 'you look nice' and others. Turning to the next pages, he saw that people were no longer writing nice things, on the contrary. They were also annoyed that they had to keep helping her and she only replied 'I'm sorry'. He shook his head, not believing that he had read it, like it or not, he took the notebook and headed towards his house. He was soaked and especially today he wanted to avoid his mother, so he discreetly entered the house, when he thought he had succeeded, he suddenly heard her.

"Kunikuzushi!" — But he completely ignored her as he climbed the stairs — "Come back here! I'm talking to you!" — She followed him, not wanting to leave him alone when the school called her and informed her about everything

"Kunikuzushi. They called from school...wait a minute, why are you so wet?" — Scaramouche had his back to her, but she could see water dripping from him and his school bag.

"Leave me alone. I jumped in the river like always." — He wanted to go to his room and never come out again, but his mother wouldn't leave him alone, continuing the conversation — "Have you been causing trouble at school?"

"No..."

"Then why did I get a call from your teacher this afternoon?"

"Okay fine! It's true!" — Scaramouche couldn't stand it anymore and yelled, looking into her eyes. He saw in her eyes that she was disappointed. He no longer had the strength to explain himself to her.

"Get cleaned up, We're going to [ Last Name ]." — With that, she left and he just tightened his grip on [ Name ] notebook.

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Scaramouche sat in the back of the car watching out the window as his mother took the bank's money, he frowned when he noticed how much his mother had taken. Then they arrived at the place where [ Name ]'s father was waiting for them, he didn't look angry but he didn't look calm either. He had long white hair that reached down to his waist, pale skin and dark blue eyes that could kill with just one look, or at least that's what he felt. Leaning against the car, he saw his mother handing money to [ Name ]'s father. Scaramouche couldn't read his expression as to what he was thinking now, it was still the same. His mother waved at him and left with [ Name ]'s father, who frowned as he looked at Scara, making him shiver a little.

He knew it would take some time so he decided to walk around the area. While walking, he noticed a staircase going down so he went down but suddenly stopped when he saw [ Name ]. She was sitting on a bench feeding pigeons with bread, she didn't even realize he was standing there. What was she doing here?! Not wanting to be noticed, he quickly hid behind a column. He wanted to walk behind her, but he accidentally tripped over the uneven sidewalk, causing the pigeons to get scared and fly away.

"What are you looking at?!" — Scaramouche quickly ran towards the steps to the bridge. He didn't expect her here, he thought her father came here without her. Panting, he placed his hands on his knees as he reached the bridge. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw her again, but she wasn't alone, but with her father this time. He wanted to say he was sorry but his ego wouldn't let him and why should he be the only one apologizing? Her father looked him up and down.

"What a vulgar face... Just like your mother's." — Her father started to lead her to the car when he said this. She didn't know what he said so she just smiled and Scaramouche clenched his fist when he heard it. They are comparing him to his mother again.

"Let's go home, Kuni." — He scoffed when he heard how she called him but didn't add anything else. This day was hard and exhausting for him, he preferred not to have another argument with his mother. He thought everything would be back to normal tomorrow, but he was wrong.

The next day at school, when he was about to change his shoes, he saw that they had pins in them, just like he did to [ Name ]...

After she came.

His friends changed.

He changed.

They used to get along so well.

He got hit in the head with the ball from his 'friends', just like he did to [ Name ] ...

It's all her fault.

His shoes were thrown into the garbage, just like he did to [ Name ]...

[ Name ] [ Last Name ].

They took his school bag and threw all his stuff on the ground, just like he did to [ Name ]...

He hates her.

He was doused with a garden hose, just like he did to [ Name ]...

HE HATES HER.

He was interrupted from his thoughts by [ Name ] who crouched down next to him and started picking up his things that were scattered around. When she noticed that he was looking at her, she smiled, which irritated him and he sharply grabbed his things from her.

"Get your hands off my stuff! Go away!" — He didn't want HER to help him. He didn't want any of HER help. He didn't want HER to feel sorry for him. He wasn't like HER. She didn't know what to do, so she decided to leave when she saw him herding her with his hand. She just wanted to help him.

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"Gone?!" — Scaramouche whispered to himself when he noticed his shoes were missing. He was furious but chose to ignore it. After all, he wanted this life, right? It's not boring anymore...

Every day something had to happen. He couldn't sit in the classroom because his chair disappeared several times, and while cleaning, others dropped dirt on him, saying it was an accident and his shoes often disappeared.

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"You lost your shoes again?" — Ei asked him as they were eating dinner and his sister was sitting across from him — "Yeah, I lost them in the river."

He noticed his mother frowning, not really believing him, but he didn't want to show that he was weak — "Do you want me to talk to your teacher?" — What did she care anyway? — "About what?"

"About your shoes..." — Scaramouche rolled his eyes and scoffs — " I told you I lost them in the river!" — Ei just sighed and went back to eating. She hoped he really lost his shoes in the river and not because of something else.

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While going to school, he started thinking about the words his teacher once told him. 'Your responsibility...' It kept going through his mind over and over again, and he started to notice that he was walking with his head in the clouds. which hadn't happened to him before. What's happening to him?

After putting on a new pair of shoes, he walked towards his classroom with his hands in his pockets. As he was about to enter the room, he noticed [ Name ] soaking a cloth and wiping the words off her desk? She's still being bullied? Sucks to be her... Wait, no. That was his desk...

Unexpectedly, he moved her away from his desk, which had many things written on it, but what stood out the most was the large "DIE" written in the middle... So they wanted his dead...? He stared blankly at the sign and then his attention was caught by the fresh flowers on the windowsill, which [ Name ] probably brought. Did that mean she came here every morning and erased the writing on his desk?

Stupid girl.

He felt her put a hand on his shoulder but he moved away from her. She's stupid. Why did she do it? Why did she remove them? He treated her badly!

"Get out!" — He exclaimed in her face as she held the cloth she was wiping his desk close to her, he knew she couldn't hear me so he showed her the door with his finger, she just nodded slowly and left the classroom. He was alone now, the silence squeaking uncomfortably in his ears as he rested his hands on his desk. She really pisses him off! He felt his tears wanting to fall so he quickly wiped them away with his sleeve, his stomach turning around from the stress.

[ Name ] [ Last Name ]

He hated her...

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You could feel someone's stare on your back but you decided to ignore it because after all, you were new so you knew that a lot of people would be staring at you.

Scaramouche had his chin resting on his hand, looking at your back. So you can't hear huh? Whatever, he didn't care anyway. He took his book and rolled it into a tube, moved a little closer to you and shouted into the tube.

"Wah!"

Everyone turned their eyes towards you, Scaramouche of course pretending like it wasn't him. You sat there frozen, you didn't expect this, so you turned towards him. Mr. Ragnvindr looked up from the book he was holding and frowned.

"What do you think you're doing Mr. Raiden? We are in the middle of class." — Scaramouche just looked away, crossing his arms. You were still looking at him, but you noticed that the rest of the students were focusing on the lesson again, so you did the same.

"Miss [ Last Name ], do you know the answer?" — You noticed that the girl in front of you with glasses turned towards you and showed you the question Mr. Ragnvindr asked you. You smiled at her as a thanks and started writing your answer in your notebook to show the teacher.

« Dugout shelters »

"That's correct answer. Let's give her a hand."

After class they had PE, Scaramouche was holding the ball waiting for Kazuha to put on his shoes when suddenly out of the corner of his eye he saw someone's ball flying towards him so he quickly caught it with his other hand so it wouldn't hit him. He smirked when he saw that the person who threw it at him was Heizou, who was probably complaining that he didn't hit him.

"Are you stupid?" — Heizou asked him, talking about the situation earlier in class — "I just wanted to see how bad her hearing is."

"I don't think it's nice." — Kazuha stated calmly as he finished putting on his shoes and joined them — "I think I can figure it out... You know?"

"How?" — Kazuha glanced at him with curiosity, but he also knew Scara and knew what he was like, so it started to worry him. He hoped he didn't come up with something he would regret.

And so for several days, Scaramouche checked how loud you could hear something. First he started by whispering and when he saw that you didn't react, he checked off level 1. Level 2 and 3 were already louder but you didn't react either, Mona just stared blankly at him as he made his stupid list.

"What are you looking at? Since you're already here, you can try it too." — Scaramouche said to Mona who thought for a moment but finally tried it.

"Wah!" — She shouted but not loud enough for you to hear, at this moment you were enjoying reading your favorite book not knowing what was happening behind your back. Kazuha noticed what was happening and he and Heizou approached the two.

Noticing them, he approached them and pushed Heizou slightly forward — "Do it too!" — Heizou looked at you uncertainly and shook his head causing Scaramouche to call him a chicken. He stepped a little closer to you and screamed loudly, you gripped the book tightly in your hands.

"Mr. Raiden!!"

Mr. Ragnvindr took Scaramouche to the staff room to talk to him — "I realize you've never met a person who is deaf, but you can't make fun of [ Last Name ]'s because of her disability. You hear me?" — Scaramouche just stared at the floor with a grimace.

"I just wanted to know if she really couldn't hear." — Scara explained, trying to somehow alleviate his situation — "Then go about it differently. Ask [ Last Name ] directly."

Directly? Scaramouche didn't like this idea, he didn't like talking to people he didn't know, so how was he supposed to ask you about it directly?

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"Mona."

Mona stopped talking to Sucrose when she heard Scara calling her name. She frowned and looked at him, not knowing what this idiot wanted from her.

"Go talk to her." — Scaramouche pointed at you, sitting in your seat in the classroom, continuing to read your book, wanting to finish it.

"Hey, do you speak Japanese, [ Name ]?" — Mona asked as she leaned her hands on her desk. Sucrose just smiled slightly awkwardly — "Haha... That's not a nice way to put it."

You didn't know what the girls were talking about but you knew it was directed at you so with a small smile you walked up to them with your notebook.

« Could you please repeat that? »

You noticed Mona making a sour face and Sucrose holding her hands, looking elsewhere. You didn't know why they made such faces, so you wanted to write, asking if something happened, but before you did, Mona took your notebook, writing.

« Do you have nickname? » — A nickname? You suspected that wasn't what the girls were talking about, but you shrugged and wrote your nickname.

" [ Nickname ]? Sounds great!"

"Woah!"

"This nickname really suits her!"

Scaramouche just watched the conversation, still not knowing how to talk to you. Should he just talk to you? So what's next? Ask you if you really can't hear? Sounds stupid.

Scaramouche decided to do it when he had a chance to be alone with you, and it happened while he was going to get water because they were having PE now. He noticed you were still putting your shoes on, so he adjusted his hat and stepped a little closer to you, but not too close.

"Hey, uh... Why'd you come to this school anyway?" — You didn't answer anything, but after a while you turned your attention to him, exchanging glances with each other. He noticed you picking up your notebook from the ground.

« Did you say something? »

At this point, Scaramouche panicked a little and walked away from you as quickly as possible, not wanting to talk to you anymore. He started thinking about what an idiot he was for asking you about it. Never mind, it wasn't like he really cared, he didn't want to deal with some weirdo who couldn't hear anyway.

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"Louder, Megistus! How do you expect to get the feelings across like that?" — Mr. Ragnvindr corrected her when she pouted and sat down in her chair, offended.

"Next line: student number fifteen."

Sucrose tapped on your desk so you realized it was your turn, you grabbed your book and stood up to start reading —"Anh doh I gan't waid... noo see gramba again." — While reading, you noticed that a few people started looking at you strangely, so you stopped reading and sat back down.

"Good next. That's you Mr. Raiden."

Mona clenched her hands tightly when she heard this, why did you get praise and she didn't? She whispered a little "Are you serious?"

"Uwah, uwoh. Argle bargle." — Scaramouche mocked you by repeating your speaking style, which made Mona laugh a little but quickly hid it with her hand so as not to draw attention to herself. Some people in the class also started laughing, to which Diluc sighed and decided to take Scaramouche for another conversation in the staff room.

"I know the way [ Last Name ] speaks is unusual but that's no reason to mock her. You hear me?"

"I don't think it's unusual, She's just speaking her mother tongue-" — "Shut up and listen to what I tell you. We're having conversation about morality." — "I don't want-" — "What kind of parent raises an idiot like you?" — "Well-" — "Anyway... There are some things in this world that you just have to deal with."

Scaramouche had already given up on saying anything as he was constantly being interrupted, so he sighed heavily, showing that he didn't like it. Things you have to deal with? Funny.

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« Do you understand what Sensei just said? It would be a big help if you could tell me » — Mona read this as you handed her the notebook, she nodded and started writing down what Mr. Ragnvindr said.

Things you just have to deal with, huh?

"Write down what I'm about to say, kids. Pages 20 to 25. Page 32, chapter 2 practice section and..." — You started looking around, seeing everyone writing except you, you couldn't hear what the teacher was saying, so you looked at your notebook worriedly.

« What is everyone writing down now? »

"What? Again?" — Mona asked, already a little irritated, but eventually she took the notebook from you again and started writing.

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"...So this time I didn't hear what he said." — Mona complained as she walked with Sucrose — "I'll copy it for you later."

Things you have to deal with.

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"Then... [ Last Name]" — Diluc noticed you raised your hand to respond, so he chose you.

"He called on you." — Even though you didn't know what Sucrose said, you guessed that you had been chosen so you started writing quickly so as not to take up much of the others' time, but it didn't help much — "... Sorry, Miss Megistus. Can you tell Miss [ Last Name ] not to raise her hand until after she's written her answer?"

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"I don't see why she has to raise her hand anyway. Doesn't she know how much time she's wasting?"

"I wish she'd get a clue."

"I know what you mean."

Things you have to deal with...

"You know..." — Scaramouche started when he noticed you changing your shoes as he was about to leave. — "At this rate, everyone's gonna get fed up with you." — But when you turned around and handed him the notebook to write down what he said, he panicked a little again — "Wh-what a pain in the butt!"

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"Now, let's all do our best to prepare for the choir competition!" — Said the music teacher as the lesson started. Everyone lined up to get ready, Kazuha sat down in front of the piano and started playing but he suddenly stopped when he heard that you were the only one who started singing too fast. Mona covered her ears because she was standing behind you and the others looked at you strangely so you stopped. A teacher who was familiar to you but not to the rest suddenly came inside. She took you to the middle of the room and started talking to explain something.

"Hi, I'm Naganohara Yoimiya from the hearing classroom! [ Name ] is a little tone deaf because of her disability."

Mona rested her face against her hand when she heard this — "What're we gonna do about the choir competition?" — Mona mumbled — "Lose?"

"She'll do her best, just like everyone else, so won't you please let her participate in the choir with you?" — Ms. Naganohara continued — "Everyone who thinks that's a good idea, clap your hands!!" — Some people started clapping and some didn't, Mona wanted to win the choir competition so she just crossed her arms looking away when a few hairs fell on her face.

Scaramouche met you again at the exit as you were changing your shoes and when you looked at each other again, he finally managed to gather the strength and snatched the notebook from you when you wanted to give it to him calmly — "Gimme that!" — You waited patiently until he finally stopped writing.

« You're tone deaf, so just pretend like you're singing! »

As you were about to look at him, you noticed he started to walk away, so you just watched him go.

"Choir friggin' stupid anyway!" — He added but then he remembered that you couldn't hear so he started walking faster. You felt someone put their hands on your shoulders, it was Ms. Naganohara.

"Oh, don't pay any attention to him."

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"Where's [ Last Name ]? She was in your group. Why didn't you tell her, Megistus?" — Mona stood up to explain herself — "I didn't notice..." — "No excuses! Listen, you're all at fault here." — Scaramouche just listened to what was happening and he was confused. Were these just another "Just have to deal with" things? Scaramouche looked at the ceiling to think about it a little deeper. But should we?

The time it takes to tell her things.

The delays in class.

Putting up with your bad singing.

"Let's use the three-minute afternoon homeroom period to help [ Name ] and... Learn sign language!" — Ms. Naganohara exclaimed happily, standing in front of the class with you. An hour ago, Yoimiya explained to you what she wanted to do, so you agreed, but when you noticed the faces of your classmates, you started to regret it. Some people didn't know what sign language was so Yoimiya took some chalk and wrote 'sign language'.

"As the name suggests, it is a way to communicate using 'signs,' which are made with the hands. You could say it's a way to talk with your hands!" — Scaramouche knew what sign language is but had never learned it, he was slightly curious about how to communicate with hands but decided not to volunteer.

"Then why don't we start today? [ Name ] will be our teacher for these lessons!" — Suddenly she was interrupted by Mona raising her hand.

"Ms. Naganohara! How will us learning sign language... Help [ Name ]?" — Yoimiya looked at her slightly confused but smiled and started to explain — "Huh? Just like it helps an English person if you speak English, it helps people who cannot hear if you use sign language. That's obvious, right?"

"Can't we just write in her notebook?"

"Well, did you know... It's easier for [ Name ] to communicate through sign language, and she can get her feelings across much better that way as well?"

"Well it's easier for me to communicate through writing."

"Um... Right now, we're talking about how we can all help [ Name ]... Isn't it just that you think learning sign language will be a bother, Mona? It seems to me you're finding a reason to be unhappy..." — Mona frowned, not wanting to argue with teacher anymore, so she sat back down, glaring at Ms. Naganohara.

"Mr. Ragnvindr and I will even learn with you!" — Diluc looked at her confused when he heard this — "Just a moment Ms. Naganohara. You don't know sign language?" — There was a small silence in the classroom and Yoimiya turned her attention to Diluc —"... No I don't... Which is why I thought I would start learning today..." — She said slightly awkwardly as she started scratching the back of her neck.

"You're not embarrassed making the students learn something you don't know yourself?"

There was another silence, Yoimiya was still smiling with her eyes closed but you could see the sweat dripping down her face. Some students even started laughing quietly to themselves.

"Is that... A problem?"

"I can see why Megistus is complaining. No one will go along with this. Why don't we try this again some other time, Ms. Naganohara?" — Yoimiya began to look around frantically to see if anyone would come forward, but all she saw was that the students were whispering to each other until someone finally spoke up.

"I'll learn sign language." — Said a girl with long pale salmon pink hair in a ponytail and also had beautiful light indigo eyes. Suddenly the entire class was quiet, no one was laughing and everyone was paying attention to the girl.

"I'm sorry, what's your name...?" — Yoimiya felt relieved when this girl came forward, she would be grateful to her for the rest of her life — "I'm Sangonomiya Kokomi. Instead of three minutes a day, I'll study an hour and a half a day so no one else has to." — Scaramouche almost choked on the water he drank. What's wrong with this girl?

"And I'll stay with [ Name ] all day long... During classes and between them... If helping [ Name ] is the goal then I think one person will be plenty..." — Yoimiya felt tears of emotion, she felt as if she had just met an angel.

"Mr. Ragnvindr... Isn't class 6-2 wonderful?" — Diluc was about to deny it when suddenly Yoimiya exclaimed happily and threw her hands up.

"Everyone! How about a round of applause for our brave Kokomi?!" — The entire class started clapping for Kokomi who bowed with a smile, thanking everyone. Mona grimaced, but she already had a little plan prepared.

Kokomi started learning sign language with you. She sat down with you and you started helping her study. Kokomi was the sweetest and you liked her the most out of everyone. Not only did she learn sign language with you, but you also wrote about things friends talk about. She wasn't yet perfect in sign language to be able to use it freely, but it wasn't bad either. You were finally happy that you had made such friends with someone.

"Nice job scoring those brownie points, you little suck-up." — Kokomi heard this behind her back. She tried to ignore it but it was hard when the girls, especially Mona, talked about her behind her back.

"What's she trying to show off for? Everyone knows she's stupid."

"And aren't her clothes ugly?"

"Yeah, totally!"

« What's wrong? » — Kokomi looked at your notebook. You saw that something was wrong, she was shaking slightly and her eyes were glassy as if she was about to start crying. You were about to put your hand on her shoulder when she suddenly stood up and started talking something.

"Oh! I'm sorry. I, um... I'm sorry." — Kokomi quickly left the classroom before you could do anything so you looked at your desk worriedly, worried about her. Scaramouche saw Kokomi walking nervously to the bathroom, her hands clutched at her chest.

Guess he figured out... [ Last Name ] [ Name ]'s true identity...

She isn't just an alien raised in a different culture.

She is an intruder sent to bring harm to their class.

Because of her, the choir competition was a total bust...

... Our normal routine was destroyed...

... And Kokomi stopped coming to school.

Scaramouche looked at the chalk in his hand and then at the board.

But is [ Name ] aware of this fact? ... No matter what the method... He must inform her of the truth. And from that day on, Scaramouche decided that he would bully [ Name ] for everything she caused in the classroom, for all the chaos.

"Man, this is really stupid, Scara." — Heizou stated, watching Scara write offensive things on the board with chalk.

"Looks like fun!"

"When you get in trouble, I had nothing to do with this!" — Sucrose said not wanting to get involved and Mona just rolled her eyes — "Let me help!"

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When you entered the empty classroom to put the flowers on the windowsill, you noticed what was written on the board.

𝙲𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜

˗ˏˋ [ 𝙽𝚊𝚖𝚎 ] ˎˊ˗

𝙱𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞♡︎

𝚆𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚒𝚛 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 .ᐟ ּ ֶָ֢.

𝙱𝚠𝚊𝚊 𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚑

𝚆𝚑𝚢'𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞

𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙵𝙸𝙽𝙶 ??

𝙳𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 ♪

𝙻𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝙼𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚃𝚘𝚗𝚎-𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚏 .ᐟ

𝙰𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚒𝚣𝚎

𝚝𝚘 𝚞𝚜 .ᐟ.ᐟ

You stood frozen as you read this. You didn't want your class to suffer because of you. Suddenly, Sucrose entered and stood next to you, saying something — "It's awful, isn't it? I mean really..."

"Whoa! What happened to the blackboard?" — Scaramouche entered the classroom along with Kazuha, Heizou and Mona. Scara pretended like he hadn't done it.

"Boy, that is mean. Right Kazu?" — Kazuha felt a little bad doing this, but he sighed and handed Scaramouche the eraser — "Let's erase it for her." — Scaramouche wiped the board with a sponge and tossed it aside — "There. All gone."

Then everyone noticed that you started writing in your notebook and then showed it to them, smiling.

« Thank you, everyone. »

They looked at you surprised when you thanked them. Kazuha was the first to leave the classroom because he felt bad doing it and then the rest followed him, leaving you alone in the classroom.

What was wrong with you? Is that all you got? He thought you would flip out like that! Or cry... Or get pissed off...

Well now, you got his attention! He wanted to know...What will happen to you if he keeps this up.

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You felt something fall on you, out of nowhere you were covered in dust and more. You looked up and saw Scaramouche with a dustpan — "Whoa! Sorry [ Name ]! I didn't know you were standing there!"

Mr. Ragnvindr came in and asked Sucrose what happened and she told him everything, so he grabbed Scaramouche by the back of his clothes, pulled him up and led him out of the classroom.

"Say you're sorry."

"I already did! Didn't I [ Name ]?!" — Diluc watched as you cleaned up downstairs, not knowing what was happening above — "Apologize to her later."

"It's such a pain, huh?" — Mona complained as always — "Mr. Ragnvindr! Why can't [ Name ] hear, anyway?" — Sucrose asked curiously and Diluc realized that he had never asked your mother about this or you — "I'll ask her when I get a chance."

"They for sure forgot to paint the sutras on her ears." — Scaramouche mumbled but his friends heard it and started laughing. Then he smirked.

This is it.

When he see a slug, he pour salt on it. When he see a pigeon, he chase it. He throw off ant trails. And doodle on cats.

So he'll pour water on you. Chase you. Throw you off track. And doodle on your stuff.

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You were sitting in your chair as usual when suddenly you felt someone take out your hearing aid — "Hey, lemme see this for a minute."

Hearing aids were expensive and you didn't want anything to happen to them, so you quickly looked at what Mona was doing with them — "This is it, right?"

"That's a hearing aid?"

"Then she can hear after all!"

"I know, right?"

"So she doesn't need a special treatment!"

You tried to take your hearing aid back but Mona handed it to Scaramouche who told her to give it to him — "Ew! There's something on it! Sick!" — You just saw Scaramouche throw your hearing aid out the window so you quickly ran to the window trying to find it. But you couldn't. And even if you found it, it would probably be destroyed by the height from which it fell.

A few days later you had your hearing aids back on and Scaramouche noticed this so he forcibly took them out — "Oh hey, she's got another one!" — You felt a lot of pain in your ears as Scaramouche pulled them out. He pulled away from you when he heard you squeal in pain, he didn't want to go that far.

"Whoa!"

"You're gonna get in trouble."

"S-see? I told you to stop it...!"

"Uh-Oh! You went to far, Scara!" — Kazuha said as he tried to help you with the girls — "Let's go to the nurse's office." — Kazu, along with Mona and Sucrose, took you out of the classroom to go to the nurse.

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"I'm telling you! I didn't do it on purpose! I just wanted to see what she had in her ear!" — Scaramouche shouted in anger, he felt his hands squeeze, causing his fingertips to turn white. It wasn't his fault! He just wanted to see.

"I don't care why you did it. Whatever happened, it was your responsibility. All I'm saying is, don't embarrass me." — Diluc stated as he filled out some paperwork and Scaramouche stood behind him with his arms crossed — "Though well... I understand how you feel."

Scaramouche frowned at this but said nothing and then left the staff room, not wanting to listen to his teacher's remarks any longer.

"I don't have to apologize!" — Scaramouche put his hands in his pockets as he walked with Kazuha and Heizou.

"Aww. I wanted to see you say sorry." — Kazuha teased him — "Never."

When they were about to leave, they suddenly saw you approaching them with your notebook in your hands. What were you doing here? Weren't you mad at him or something?

"What do you want?" — Scaramouche said coldly, he didn't want to talk to you, especially what happened earlier. Were you waiting for him? What are you even writing?

« I'm sorry. »

Scaramouche looked at the words in surprise. You apologized? Again? Scaramouche roughly took your notebook from you, which scared you a little. For a moment you just looked at each other.

"Doesn't this piss you off?! C'mon say something!" — He shouted at you, he was fed up with you constantly apologizing and thanking. He wanted you to finally do something! You looked down, not knowing what to do next, and Scaramouche threw the notebook at your face, causing the notebook to fall to the ground.

"I don't think she gets it, Scara." — Kazuha said when you didn't say anything but suddenly you grabbed Scaramouche's hand and he looked first shocked and then disgusted. He didn't like anyone touching him, especially someone he didn't like. He saw how determined your were.

"Wha?!"

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Many people say that life is wonderful and full of happiness. But is it true? No matter how hard you try, everyone will blame you for everything. They'd rather stab you in the back than forgive you. But it's his fault, right? It's all because of him. If it weren't for him, everything would be fine...

Six years earlier

Scaramouche, Heizou and Kazuha went to the bridge that was forbidden to enter. Boys loved to get involved in such activities, regardless of whether they were dangerous or troublesome. They did it all so they wouldn't get bored. They loved entertainment.

"I'll catch up with you anyway, Heizou!" — Young Scaramouche shouted furiously from a distance, chasing Heizou who tried to run away seeing Scaramouche running towards him but was caught by him and pulled back. Kazuha in the distance, who was walking towards them, laughed slightly to himself as he saw his friends rolling on the ground.

"It will hurt if we jump from this height." — Kazuha stated looking down at the water. Scaramouche looked where he was and smirked as he finally let go of Heizou who was trying to get some air — "Then you jump first, Scara."

"Yeah, that's right!" — Heizou agreed as he stood up from the ground, brushing off some of the dirt. Scaramouche just rolled his eyes and crossed arms.

"You'll never know if it hurts if you don't try." — With these words, Scaramouche jumped off the bridge, ignoring the surprised screams of his friends. After hitting the water, he quickly surfaced to take a deep breath. He felt pain as his adrenaline wore off, but he decided he not to tell them it hurt.

"Did it hurt?" — Heizou asked, shouting so that Scaramouche could hear him clearly — "Not at all! Come on guys!"

Kazuha looked suspiciously, not really believing Scara's words, but when he was about to warn Heizou, he was already standing on the edge and jumped with a scream. Kazuha facepalmed but he put his bag aside so it wouldn't get wet in the water, he knew that his friends wouldn't let him live if he didn't do it and jumped into the water.

"That hurt, you idiot!" — Heizou exclaimed as he emerged from the water with Kazuha who was trying to get the leaves out of his hair. Scaramouche just stuck out his tongue at him and swam towards the shore to get out of the water. The weather was warm so they weren't too worried about getting sick. They took their things and headed towards Scaramouche's house.

"Damn, I forgot to take my shoes off." — Scara complained under his breath when he saw the condition of his shoes, they were dirty and soaked.

"They are really dirty, man." — Assented Heizou who was walking behind with his hands in his pockets. Kazuha raised his eyebrow at his friend's shoes — "Do you really want to go home like that? These aren't the new shoes Ei bought you?"

"Yeah, I mean I'll leave them outside and dry." — He answered him without really caring about it. Even if Ei complained about him, he would ignore it. It wasn't that he didn't have a good relationship with his mother, but they weren't particularly close either.

They tolerated each other.

Scara shook his head to stop thinking about it and started walking a little faster when he saw his home. Scaramouche opened the front door to his house, or rather to the hairdressing salon that his mother ran, which was connected to their house.

"Hello, Mrs. Reiden!" — Kazuha and Heizou said at the same time, smiling like angels. The indigo-haired boy just waved his hand in greeting, not really wanting to talk.

"Welcome back, boys." — Replied calmly Ei, who was trimming her client's hair. Scaramouche's mother was very pretty, with long purple hair tied in a braid, shining purple eyes and light makeup. Scara took any leaflet he came across, pretending he was interested — "Do we have any snacks?"

"There's some in the fri-" — After seeing what the boys looked like, Ei immediately stopped talking. They were soaked and dirty, with a few leaves and small twigs sticking out of their hair. The condition of their clothes looked much worse because they were covered with dirt. Scara just looked at her questioningly when she stopped talking.

"How did you get so dirty? Next time use the back door, boys." — Ei said slightly annoyed as she saw dirty water leaking from them onto the floor, both customers just laughed as Ei scolded them and the boys looked down in shame, except for Scaramouche.

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"The 41st daily daredevil contest?" — Ei asked confused as she threw the towel towards Scara who glared at her as the towel hit in the face. Kazuha was sitting on a chair in the kitchen with a cup of water in his hand and Heizou was eating some chips he found, they both had towels tied around their bodies.

"We do this every day after school." — Kazuha announced, drinking the last drops of water from his cup. Heizou nodded in agreement with a proud smile — "Today we jumped off the bridge into the river."

Scara who was drying his hair with a towel just rolled his eyes when he saw Heizou bragging to his mother.

"You guys should stop playing such dangerous games." — Ei said as she crossed her arms looking at them in disbelief — "You two don't have to hang around that idiot if you don't want to, you know?"

Scara just looked at her furiously and threw a wet towel towards her which she caught so he looked away, looking out the window so as not to look at her.

"It's okay, Mrs. Reiden." — Heizou responded, giving Kazuha some chips, which he gladly took. Ei just shook her head and turned her attention to Scaramouche's shoes — "Your shoes are all muddy."

He turned his attention to her and when he was about to answer, she grabbed his cheeks and looked at him annoyed — "Sheesh! Next time you will wash them yourself Kuni!"

Heizou tried not to laugh when he heard Scara's mother call him but he failed so he burst out laughing and Kazuha just chuckled lightly. Scaramouche felt embarrassed and pushed her slightly away from himself as he ran towards the stairs — "I told you not to call me that, you old hag! Die!"

Ei just sighed annoyed and went back to her work. Heizou and Kazuha looked at each other confused but they shrugged and followed Scara who had already gone upstairs.

Scaramouche's room wasn't very clean, but it wasn't very messy either. The two boys sat in different places reading books and Scara played a game on his console to avoid getting bored.

"Where's the next book, Scara?" — Asked Kazuha who was trying to find the book but couldn't.

"In my sister's room." — Scara got up and walked towards his sister's room only to find her on the ground sleeping. He just shrugged and took the book from the table while leaving her room to let her sleep.

"Here." — He handed Kazuha the book who mumbled thanks and began to read. Scaramouche sat back on the floor and continued his game.

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The school day was like any other day. The girls were talking to each other, gossiping about things and the guys were causing some problems. Suddenly, Sucrose walked in and shyly cleared her throat to get her class's attention. She was a shy girl but that didn't stop her from being the class representative.

"Big news everybody...! I heard that a transfer student was going to join our class." — She informed and most of the girls ran up to her to ask about the new student.

"For real?!"

"Yes, I heard Mr. Diluc talking about it in the in the faculty office."

"I wonder if it's a girl or a boy, what do you think Scara?" — Kazuha questioned him while he was just playing with a pencil, not really interested in the new student.

"Who cares? Girls are boring and other boys are losers." — He answered and Kazuha only sweat dropped seeing that his friend was not very happy about the fact that there would be a new person in the class.

Scaramouche was the type of student who didn't pay attention in class but was still able to answer questions he was asked, which is why he got bored quickly and he hated this. He was not interested in any of the things that were discussed in the lesson, he preferred to do something else. So, after school, he went with others to another bridge to jump into the river.

"Woohoo!" — Heizou exclaimed as he jumped into the river with Scara, creating a big splash. Heizou accidentally put some water in his mouth so he started coughing when he tasted it. Scaramouche looked up at the bridge where Kazuha stood looking at them.

"Why don't you jump?" — Scara asked and Kazuha let out a small "huh". When Heizou finally stopped coughing, he also looked at Kazu — "Are you afraid?"

"Oh... Well, actually... From now on, I'm out." — Kazuha replied to them as he rested his chin on his hand looking at trees. The boys looked at him confused, not knowing why the sudden change occurred.

"Didn't I tell you I started cram school?" — A small "nerd" from Scaramouche could be heard in the background, to which Kazuha sighed heavily and he put on his backpack — "We'll be in high school next year, so I want to prepare."

Kazu said goodbye to them, but when he was about to leave, he suddenly heard the boys shouting — "Hey... It's a cat!"

Kazuha quickly turned back and looked out to see the cat Scara was pointing at. The cat licked its paw, it had white fur and blue eyes.

"Let's catch it and keep it as a pet!" — Heizou announced and Kazuha's eyes lit up, looking at the cat. He quickly took off his backpack and shoes to jump into the water.

When they caught it, Kazuha happily carried the cat in his arms and stroked behind its ears, causing the cat to make a purring sound.

"Let's name it!" — Heizou exclaimed as he stroked the cat's head. Scaramouche looked away from them and noticed that the place where his shoes should have been was not there — "Where are my shoes!?"

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"Are you sure you looked for them properly?" — Ei questioned him, looking at her son who gave off an evil aura — "Yes! I looked for them for two whole hours! I even jumped into the river that's why I'm so wet!"

"You can be kind of absent-minded, Scara. Someone probably stole them when you're not paying attention." — And it was Mona Megistus who spoke. These two didn't like each other, they always called each other names or made stupid pranks at some point — "Shut up, witch! What are you doing here anyway? Couldn't you go to another salon?!"

"Kuni!" — Ei hit him on the back of the head, Mona laughed under her breath and stood up with her hair down — "It's fine Mrs. Reiden."

Scara almost started to push her out of the salon to get her out of there if it wasn't for Ei who grabbed the back of his shirt and looked at Mona with a small smile — "Thank you for coming."

"Of course Ma'am!" — Mona waved to Ei, giving Scaramouche a look and sticking her tongue out at him, which made the boy start shouting at her, but Ei covered his mouth with her hand.

When Mona left, Scara quickly got away from Ei and went towards the regiment to take a few books with him.

"This is probably the worst day of my life. Stupid witch." — Scara mumbled to himself, but when he noticed that there was another customer in the living room, he immediately stopped talking and sighed deeply.

"Welcome." — Scara greeted the customer painstakingly who was sitting on a chair with a hair catalog covering her face, all he could see was [ hair color ]. Noticing that the client wasn't going to answer him, he made an irritated sound, saying something about people not having respect anymore. He decided to leave this person alone and go to his room where Kazuha and Heizou were waiting for him.

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"Aren't these your shoes, Scara?" — Kazuha handed him a photo that showed a boy with shoes that looked awfully similar to the Scaramouche shoes that had been stolen from him. Heizou crossed his arms and leaned against the car parked in front of the hairdressing salon, looking at the photo.

"Yes, that's them, who is this guy?" — Scara asked him as he handed the photo back to him — "A guy from 2nd elementary I go to cram school with. He started wearing them right after yours went missing, and when I asked if he had stolen them, he quickly ran away."

"I see..." — Scara started to think about a plan when suddenly he felt Heizou's hand and grinning. Scaramouche only raised his eyebrow, allowing him to speak — "I have a plan!"

It was a hot day, which bothered Mona terribly. She took her water and when she was about to drink, she heard a boy yelling at everyone to get out of his way. Mona smirked and walked over to him as he stood, wiping his face with a towel.

"Umm... Excuse me" — The boy turned towards her and looked at her questioningly — "A teacher told me to carry some things, but they are very heavy, can you help me?"

Mona smiled angelically at him, making a boy blush slightly and nod in agreement. Mona clapped her hands and showed a boy where things were.

On the other hand, Scara, Kazu and Heizou waited patiently for Mona to bring a boy. Kazuha was leaning against the wall with Heizou. They were hidden around the corner of the school on the stairs outside where no one was because everyone was going to their own class.

"Are you sure you can beat him?" — Kazuha asked his indigo-haired friend who was impatiently looking around to see if a guy or Mona was coming. Heizou turned his head towards them and looked at them surprised.

"Beat him? But that wasn't in-"

"Shh" — Scaramouche shushed him and then he noticed Mona leading a boy behind her, he quickly positioned himself, alerting his friends. Scara blocked the passage for the boy, who frowned as he met his gaze.

"Give back what you stole." — The boy just crossed his arms smirking.

"What if I don't?" — This only made Scara more angry and he punched the boy in the face, causing the boy to lose his balance and fall onto the dirty ground. Scaramouche took this opportunity, roughly grabbing him by shirt to punch him again but Kazuha quickly grabbed his arm shaking his head. Scaramouche just shrugged and put his hands in his pockets, walking away from his friends who were calling him. He no longer cared about his shoes, he just wanted to go home.

The next day, Scaramouche decided to skip school and went to the bridge where he met Kazuha and Heizou talking to each other.

"Are you doing anything today?" — Scara asked as he stood in front of them. Heizou started to think and Kazu nodded.

"Yeah, I'm going to cram school today. I skipped too much so have a nice day guys." — He passed them, waving goodbye. Scara looked away from him and his eyes met Heizou's.

"So it's just us." — At this, Heizou shook his head, making Scaramouche look at him strangely — "Sorry Scara, but I'm out today."

Heizou patted his shoulder as he started to walk away, leaving Scaramouche standing alone on the bridge with no one around. He frowned and hand clenched his hand into a fist. It wasn't like he had to be with someone all the time, he didn't mind being alone, but something made him dislike this idea. And so he spent the whole day alone, playing or reading books in his room, but soon he started to get bored. Lying on the bed with a book, he turned his head to look at the time and saw that only 30 minutes had passed. He sighed heavily and put the book aside, thinking that tomorrow would be a better day.

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Scaramouche sat in his seat, constantly clicking on his pen. There was a change of seats so his chair and desk was next to Mona who was not happy about it.

Neither did he.

Their teachers entered the classroom. Mr. Diluc who had beautiful red long hair that was styled in a ponytail, his eyes matched his hair and he was wearing typical clothes that teachers wear, a white shirt with a collar, a black tie and elegant trousers to match the shoes.

"Listen everyone. Today a new student will join us." — Everyone in the class started getting excited and whispering to each other, Scara just rolled his eyes ignoring it all. A girl with [ hair color ] hair entered the classroom, her [ eye color ] eyes were looking down at her legs. Mr. Diluc lightly tapped her on the shoulder, causing the girl to start taking out a notebook from her backpack. This slightly intrigued Scaramouche so he finally looked at what was happening, putting his pen aside. The girl opened her notebook and showed it so that everyone could read what was written there.

«My name is [ Last Name ] [ First Name ]. It is nice to meet you.» — This made everyone look at each other in confusion, Scara rested his chin on his hand as he read — «I would like to get to know everyone through this notebook.»

«When you want to talk to me please use this notebook.» — She flipped to the next page, causing many gasps.

«I can't hear.»

Scaramouche's eyes widened, he had never met someone who couldn't hear. As if she were from another planet.

"What a weirdo!" — Scara said, not knowing that he said it loud enough for the entire class to hear. Mona looked at him in surprise and then smacked him on the back of the head, causing him to glare at her and mumbled — "Stupid witch."

Mr. Diluc just sighed and then lowered himself to [ Name ] height to show where she will sitting. It was an empty space in front of Scaramouche. The girl began to bow to each person in front of her to greet them, and they gladly did the same. Finally, [ Name ] stood in front of Scaramouche, she smiled at him and bowed, making Scaramouche frown and turn his head away from her. Ignoring it, she sat down in her seat, taking her things out onto the desk.

Scaramouche's gaze returned to her. He didn't know her, but something made him dislike her. Was it because she couldn't hear? What normal person couldn't hear?

She was weird.

➸ There will probably be 60+ chapters oh well 🧍

➸ I didn't know I would write so much honestly

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➸ It will be a mix of manga, movie and I will also add something from myself.

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➸ English is not my first language and I am not a professional writer (I do it for fun).

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