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@lazyrunawayphantom
You can call me phantom. [He/him]
a journal keepsake of my thoughts, rants. weighins. EDNOS hw: 245 | cw: 232

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random food log
Heh have 600 cal of liquor (seltzers bless you for the calories and my histamine tolerance)
And going to plan to eat spicy chicken buldak noodles with rice or pasta noodles to allow for spice to cool down let’s gooo (haven’t had that in a couple months yum)
Edit (drunken): had experimental food my family member cook AND IT WAS SO GOOD thank goodness for dgaf day today because that shit was yummy
Edit 2: buldak noodles gave nothing burger
I had almost caved into emotionally eating this morning but thank goodness I got an energy drink last night and drinking that, plus refilling my water bottle this morning. Weighin below
Yesterday morning I reached 232.8 but today is 233.4. Only a 0.6 difference but I need to remind myself that at the very least, I'm not in the 240's anymore and very close to getting out of the 230's.
Wow up to 232lbs on the dot at 10:00AM
Ugh my parents made me food I couldn’t refuse and I totally forgot about to talk about it here but they made me a tomato and omelette egg sandwich. I basically Overate-tab’ed it today so I don’t binge the next week where I’ll be ⭐️ vine more
Are dinner the drank until 6AM
Ehehe check in
Gonna be retaining the next two days likely since I’m drinking and eating well over maintenance into tomorrow. Back to scheduled restricting on Sunday until the next week. I’m pretty glad I’ve lost about (?)lbs at the 29th/31th check in these last month and a half
It may be a little slow but at least I’ll keep it off longer than usual.
I had almost caved into emotionally eating this morning but thank goodness I got an energy drink last night and drinking that, plus refilling my water bottle this morning. Weighin below
Yesterday morning I reached 232.8 but today is 233.4. Only a 0.6 difference but I need to remind myself that at the very least, I'm not in the 240's anymore and very close to getting out of the 230's.

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Nothing much to say planned for this week other than the usual. Drinking coffee and black tea throughout the morning and afternoon and then omad for dinner. More below.
Going to log daily weighins on a seperate post and see from there. Current weekly goal is until the 29th. To see how my I can lose from here to there. Then the next planned goal will be the 13th of August.
Check in
Dgaf day since it’s injection day and don’t want to pass out while getting a needle. Back into restricting tonight after dinner. Returning to dirty liquid fasting tomorrow.
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Woke up still buzzed holy shit.
edit: feeling fine now, back to regular schedule program
I’m so drunk
Food log
rewritten: had a small bag of ketchup chips. SMALL fries (evidence found by the foot of my bed ew LOL) one junior chicken and a large sprite. plus the homemade burger. (hand made bread included) dont know the exact number but likely around 1600 for all of it? im glad i got some walking in last night.

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Weighin
Woke up to 234.8lbs and roughly fasted for 12 hours, we had potatoes and hamburgers for dinner but i only ate a couple bites of the potatoes and setting the burger (just plain and only siracha for taste lmao) aside for later when I return home tonight. I ate at 4 so that leaves me with a 4 hour resting period. drinking more black tea and diet pop this evening.
theres a pregame plannedddd at 8 ol clock and likely heading to the event around 9ish probably. will update this weighin. 6:12PM
edit: so the pregame has been pushed to 9PM due to outside circumstances but we ball. im likely gonna take a shot here in a half hour to start and see where that goes.
Update 2: oof broke my water fast with a small freezee since i started seeing stars a bit before i take my first shot here. and awaiting for this allergy pill to kick in cuz its been acting up from the smoke.
Update 3: spiced rum makes me hurl lets see how vodka treats me....i have selzters as a back up. tbh not that bad with sprite its very bearable with sprite.
Update 4: several shots in for courage since I’m pretty agoraphobic LOL vodka treating me right 9:09 another change of plans heading to the event directly no pregame party rippp.
update 5: spent about three hours there, didnt get home till around midnight and slept for about four hours. j
random rant 8:43AM saturday
gonna see how long i can fast for until the drinking plans for tonighttt... hopefully not waken for breakfast if i am im just gonna eat small portions and try to shut out the hunger cues for the rest of the day, still too early to tell. drinking out is mf expensiveeee. pregaming my beloved. (heres to hopefully pregame on an "empty" stomach) LMFAOOOO
shout out to black tea for basically blocking out my hunger cues.
threw everything out the window last night and starting another 16-18 planned fast. time is currently at 8:27 am. I am at 237lbs!
…emotionally ate. rant below
Ice cream, even more leftover pasta and a sandwich all at 6:30AM. As I literally finished my ice cream, I thought to myself. “You could’ve just had a sweetener packet for the cost of the calories if you were craving something sweet." And now I’m sitting here at my computer with a bit of an upset stomach from the sudden ingestion of food (my fat ass scarfed that shit down) after about roughly a week and a half of eating thought out timely mannered meals and fasting.
Tbh this “technically” could be an Omad as it was about 6 hours from yesterday. I did start the timer at around 1:30? AM? About an hour after that previous post at 11:59PM. (I say. Lying to myself trying to save myself from more mental turmoil. Honestly just not going to weigh myself until saturday. Just going to be mindful of the hunger cues and craves.

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I caved into a pasta salad for about 600 calories
fasted for 20 hours and breaking it with 870 calorie omad.