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Hearing that you had to eat dinner alone broke my heart. Seriously. I was bawling behind the mic. 

Your birthday is the one special day a year that gets to be all about you! I am so sad that it wasn’t special, and it really sucks that I couldn’t do anything to make it better. 

I don’t know why being civil and having mutual respect was always such a big problem for you.. I was determined to help you with that, which is why I constantly fought for it - better communication - but you never met me halfway. Instead, I was overlooking things, compromising myself and my beliefs, just constantly taking the losses because you’re too damn stubborn.

Even now in our final days, you are starting stupid arguments, calling me names, and talking down to me. But I know you and I knew this was coming. It’s sad to say that I wasn't surprised.

I get it, you know, we’re single and we’re free to do whatever we want… But out of respect for ME and our 4 year relationship, can you not check out every girl right in front of me ? Do you even know how many times you ignored me because you were too distracted looking at ass RIGHT in front of me ? Including 11 year olds ??

You don’t even try to hide it. You make it pretty fucking obvious that you’re doing it while I’m looking or talking to you. At least have some decency and don’t do it in front of my face, and at least listen to me when I’m talking to you. When you do this, it becomes so undesirable to hangout with you. If you want to disrespect me like that, then go do all these fun things with your other friends - not me.

The best part is that I can’t even talk about this like a NORMAL human being because as always, you will never see any faults in your actions even though I didn’t do anything wrong. Even though you feel you’re free to do whatever the hell you want without considering anyone else’s feelings. Even though you think you’re a flawless human being, when nobody is. 

At the end of the night, it was my shoulder you fell asleep on, it was me who you sat in silence with in the car instead of leaving, and it was me who you hugged tight at the end of the night so how about you don’t disrespect me like that otherwise I can’t and won't do these things with you anymore, and we can go back to sitting in a parking lot all day every day. I suggested to attend all these events and places to change scenery for us, but instead you just slapped me in the face.

Every time he works night shifts, he becomes a complete different person. On day shifts and on his off days, he’s so nice, funny, and he’s a proper “friend” that isn’t inconsiderate or does rude things but on nightshifts ALL of that goes out the window and he becomes a dick or does really dick-ish things.