Area 64-66

yeah, I said "practice". remember how much joy there was in getting a new toy/book/game as a kid, and practice feeling that excitement again. a lot of us had that instinct squashed out of us, and you may not even know that you've internalized the idea that being excited and joyful isn't "mature" or "cool".

fuck that! let yourself experience joy and excitement! part of being an adult is learning that not only should you be able to feel anger/sadness/hard emotions without suppressing them, you have to do that for joy/excitement/wonder too.

Giggle at crows playing in snow.

Catch snowflakes on your tongue.

Coo over and take a picture of the cool caterpillar or colorful bug you come across.

Stare at the sky and see shapes in the clouds.

Jump in puddles

— What if nothing works? What if nothing gives me more than a few days before my brain starts looking for the next fix, before my leg feels like someone's shoving nails into it. What do I do then? — If nothing in the world can hold your interest, uh, we'll deal with that when we get to it.

SYDNEY SWEENEY