Lara

It’s my birthday today and you didn’t congratulate me. I thought it would hurt, annoy me, make me sad or just make me feel some type of way in general but it doesn’t. I don’t feel anything, maybe I’m even a bit glad that you didn’t? Last year to the same time we just officially started dating &‘ on my birthday the only thing you said was „oh yeah btw happy b-day“ and that hurt far more than you not saying anything. I keep waking up in the morning thinking I would go back into the phase of missing you but I never do. I’m actually glad you’re not a part of my life anymore. I’m happy that I don’t have to deal with your addiction, your lies and your empty promises anymore and I’m happy that you don’t have any power over me anymore. Last year on my birthday I cried because of you, this year I didn’t even thought about you. This year I was afraid to get a message of you because I didn’t know what feelings it would bring out but now I realised, everything is just perfect how it is and everything feels right now. You might have been my worst heartbreak but you were also an eye opener, you showed me how a relationship shouldn’t be and how I will never let anyone treat me again. In a strange way im thankful because I know it’s hard so find someone who’s worse than you. So happy birthday to me & fuck you, I hope you rot in hell <3