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The masterlist has never been concrete in chapters, and maybe some of you have noticed that the names change a lot.
It's officially done. I have the chapter names and outline done. Ive mentioned it once that the masterlist is a good way to see where the story is going. That's where I will leave it for now. I will post Yunho's smut chapter soon. I just need to get it in the template and edited.
Thank you for the patience and love for the story <3
So... it's been a while. I've been juggling a lot of things. I think I mentioned I got a job at my last publishing, and I was part-time. Now im fulltime with college. So it's stressful and a bit hard. I also lost motivation for things, and looking at my Circus Google Doc had me very burnt out and fed up.
Will I continue writing on this account? Yes.
Will I upload for Circus? Yes.
Will I continue 7Tales? Yes.
Will I continue Golden Restraints? Yes.
Is it a process for me? Yes.
I have Circus ready to go, and besides the Yunho + Mingi smut, I'm five chapters ahead, which I'm so excited to finally release. I hope to see your comments on the reaction to Jongho's chapter, since it will be a journey.
For 7Tales, I'll need to give it more attention and finally finish and get ahead on some chapters, which is a lot of editing.
For Golden Restraints... honestly its ready to go. I just need to read the template and start queuing the chapters. I have completed 24 chapters,, which I think need some skimming through and minor edits, but it's my slow-burning romance that might need ten more chapters to be fully complete.
The fun part of this is... what got me out of my funk was Bright Sun. A completed work of mine, which I decided to read through and absolutely hated. I disliked my writing so much I started a Rewroite but not in a whole change of story, but added details and life to the environment. Chapters that were 1k turned into 3k, and I made it less hypocritical for Heeseung and Sooha as characters. Im debating uploading the rewritten chapters, but might in the future if I finish with it. Which I'm now at the end of Jay's section whihc means I would only need Jake and Heeseung's Acts to finish.
So yeah... that's my update. I will upload soon hopefully this month, but please be patient, and thank you for those in my asks asking if I'm okay. I am just burntout and lost my motivation to write.
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genre(s) -> fluff, non-idol, hybrid au, poly au
paring(s) -> yunho ( centric ) x reader
warning(s) -> angst, illegal activity, allusions to past abuses, mental health, etc.
words -> 1.4k
abstract -> a cafe where being human is a fantasy... what can go wrong with apple flavored treats ~
yunho's perspective
I didnāt get to spend much time here before the whole argument with Mingi.Ā
However⦠Everything was official. We were her hybrids, collars and all. I always used to think people like her were collectors⦠but I wanted to think she cared, especially how we first met. Hearing everyoneās stories hit hard, thoughā¦
Mingi and I still didnāt know much about the other hybrids until they told us. San has amnesia⦠yet heās content with it. Makes sense since he said he was in a hybrid ring. ThoseĀ events⦠were cruel in environment and bred violent hybrids. Yet that made sense in my head⦠he was apparently the strongest, and also how he found me besides the scent masking pills.Ā
Wooyoung and his unhealthy attachment. I can relate to it with Mingi. Yeosang and his previous owner and her all kinds of abuse. Seonghwa and Hongjoong from the circus, and how everything happened all became common knowledge.Ā
Now they even know about us⦠and me and everything. It made me feel vulnerable for once. Something I didn't use⦠acknowledging my past was hard. Especially since I never talked about it, even with Mingi.Ā
Yet it didnāt help me feel any better about being an outlier here. The thought of I don't belong. I'm here because of association with Mingi and no other reason.Ā
I'm his bonded pair.
I guess that's why I'm in therapy every week. Being in clinics was strange⦠I've never been to one. Coming from a farm and into an abusive home. I never had people ask if I was okay.Ā
āCome on, Yunho, let's go home!ā she said as she had paperwork in her hand. I nodded as I opened the door of the clinic for her as we left. I wonder just how much those doctors told her⦠if she knew every one of my worries.Ā
āWant something sweet?ā she asked, and I couldnāt help but chuckle. She always did want something sweet. āYou know⦠there's a new bakery I've been meaning to take Wooyoung to since heās been eyeing it up, wanna go there instead of our usual?ā she asked, and I smiled.Ā
āAnything you decide is enough for me,ā I said, and she deflated only a little⦠She wants my opinion more, but that was hard. As we entered, the bell rang, and I couldn't help but notice her flinch slightly⦠did she not like those sounds? She recovered and immediately went to the pastries.Ā
It's the end of fall, so a lot of things were displayed as limited. Apple-flavored pastries. Some I've never even heard of.
āHello, can I helpā¦ā I heard a masculine voice say before I saw him freeze at the sight of her. A hybrid?
āHello, can I take a minute to decide?ā she asked without realizing his stare of realization before snapping out of it and going inside the kitchen⦠I heard footsteps back and forth, as if he was panicking.Ā
āEverything here is so good! It's a shame most of the items are limited!ā I suddenly heard another voice⦠her again? āOh? Have you been here before?ā y/n asked the girl dressed in all expensive brands.
āWant a few recommendations?" she asked, and y/n nodded. I felt a little protective⦠a lot of the customers here were hybrids who had been turned humanā¦Ā
āMaybe we should just leave,ā I suggested, and she looked confused⦠sometimes, hybrids turned humans weren't really kind, especially to hybrid owners. āOh? You should wait for Jongho to come back, he also makes these pretty drinks!ā she said as y/n turned to me, asking me silently if I wanted to go, and I did.Ā
Was she safe?Ā
āItāll be quick, can we take it to go?ā she asked, and I sighed and nodded⦠as she went closer to the cashier to look for drinks, I was left with the girl turned human. āProtective,ā she teased, and I scoffedĀ
āSheās okay here donāt worry⦠this place just opened to humans for funds dear~ā she said and I hummed⦠āthe bear hybrid⦠his mother is sick, and while she helped a shop run a year ago she couldnāt anymore. Her son surprised her by opening it againā she said and I sighed.
āShe's a good human,ā I said, and she hummed. āIām envious then⦠but then why would you run away?ā she asked, and I sighed. āMy bonded pair⦠didnāt want me, not her,ā I explained, and her eyes showed sympathy. āShe smells like so many hybrids,ā she said, and I nodded.Ā
āSheās quite the sanctuary for them,ā I said, and she looked at me silently before asking.. āAnd for you?ā she asked⦠I looked at y/n as she thought hard on what to get, surely for some of those back home tooā¦
āParadise,ā I said, and she laughed. āIt's not funny!ā I muttered and she smiled⦠āI wouldāve called mine hell, yet it makes sense why you rejected my offer,ā she said, and I saw no fear in her eyes.
āYou said you make your own paradise⦠have you?ā I asked and she smiled, āIt's building before my eyes⦠it seems like yours is too,ā she teased as she left money in the tip jar and left while waving byeā¦There was a mixture of hybrids turned humans and regular humans in hereā¦
How⦠interestingā¦
āYunho⦠do you want anything?ā she asked, and I walked to her, seeing everything she already ordered at the kiosk⦠I chuckled and looked through until I saw an apple-flavored drink⦠latte art included.
āOoh, are you gonna ask for a little design?ā she smiled, and I chuckled⦠a puppy. She looked confused, making me laugh. āYou said I could get anything,ā I pouted, and she smiled.
āSure, Yunho,ā she said, and I realized. āYou know this is a lot for us to take back alone?ā I said, and she sighed⦠āThey have bags⦠it should be fine,ā she muttered, and I smiled.Ā
āI know why you were crying both times I found you,ā I said, and she looked at me with shaky eyesā¦
āYouāre such an overthinker⦠they love you, I can see why too. Iām just glad everything worked out and⦠I'm with you, too, now,ā I said, and she smiled as she held my hand, comforting me. Sheās naturally affectionate, which makes things harder. She was their mate, and I donāt know if theyād accept me and my desires for her.
āYour order, miss?ā I heard the voice of the man who panicked at the sight of her. Did he know her? āOh⦠youāre right Yunho, this is a lotā¦ā she said, making me laugh. āNext time, maybe we should just get something for ourselves,ā I said, and she pouted.Ā
āCan we maybe get a box for it?ā
Eight drinks and two boxes of treats was a lot to take back but she was happy seeing them all enjoy a midday treat. āIt's a really pretty cafe!ā she said and I hummedā¦
āYou donāt think so, Yunho?ā she asked, and I chuckled⦠āIt's pretty and filled with hybrids,ā I said, and she was confused.Ā
āThe girl that talked to you used to be a cat hybridā¦. The cashier that helped us, a bear hybridā I said and her eyes widened. These places are known to favor hybrids and be dangerous for humansā¦Ā
āAnd you didnāt say anythingāā āThey arenāt violent⦠apparently raising money for the shop and the workerās motherā I defended and sighed⦠āI shouldāve left a bigger tip thenā she pouted, making me smile.
āI think you're kind as much as it is,ā I said, and she pouted, only making Seonghwa, who was next to her to coo at his mate⦠She was such an interesting human.Ā
āYunho⦠did you ever want to become human?ā Hongjoong asked and I nodded. āI wanted to adopt Mingi so we could have a different life⦠but the money would be impossible to get⦠it would just be an impossible fantasy,ā I said, and they all stayed silent.Ā
āYunho, I offered this to the rest⦠but if you and Mingi want to be human, I can payāā āNo thanks⦠I want to enjoy my life as your hybrid⦠please,ā I begged, and she smiled.Ā
āThe offer is always there,ā she said, and it was a nice thought, but I didnāt want the stressā¦
since i will be busy I wont have a stable uploading schedule but I will still upload. In fact I just finished the first chapter with Jongho and I'm excited to finish the last official part of the series.
His section is way different than the others and we'll be focusing on the main character along with Jongho instead of the other hybrids for once :D
I know I just finished the second to last main story plot with yunho and mingi but... I just want to remind you guys.
hybrids hate humans.
that was my biggest plot point from the beginning even when introducing hybrids like San. while there are hyrbids who love their owners that they would break a taboo and become lovers. I don't think even 90% of the hybrids like humans.
Especially the plot point none of you questioned... hybrids turning human. They would be there most dangerous... and who's to say hybrids don't lie... and say sweet things.
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genre(s) -> smut, fluff, non-idol, hybrid au, poly au
paring(s) -> yunho ( centric ) x reader
warning(s) -> angst, mental illness, illegal activity, sexual assault, etc.
words -> 3.9k
abstract -> nothing is ever as it seems... so maybe you shouldn't have lied
y/nās perspective
āI.. seeā I said trying not to feel disappointed but San instead put his hand on my head trying to comfort me. āHeāll be back⦠Mingi wouldnāt let him go like that. Yunho strongly believes he hates him but⦠everything is just a misunderstandingā Yeosang said and I sighed.Ā
āIt's not your fault⦠Yunho said that. He really wanted to make up for everything he did, but he will always put Mingiās interests firstā Seonghwa said and I nodded.Ā
āDoes⦠Mingi know yet?" I asked and they all shook their heads. I sighed and stood up. āThen⦠we go about it like he didnāt leave. Itās a regular day⦠I wonāt let Yunho live on the street again. Iāll send a text to Kun to be on the lookout but not to interfere with himā I said and they nod along with the plan.Ā
I was dressed, when I went outside my room to see Yeosang waiting⦠āPretty as always, angel,ā he said making me smile. āOnly cause you dress me upā I corrected and he hummed. āNo⦠I think it's something else~ā he teased and I chuckled softly at his flirting. They seem to truly believe in Yunho⦠theyāre not worried at all.Ā
We make it to the kitchen where I see Mingi tapping his foot nervously sitting down. Wooyoung and Seonghwa were finishing up breakfast⦠Mingi noticed us and looked around confused.Ā
āDid⦠Yunho sleep in your room?ā Mingi asked and I shook my head. āBut⦠he didnāt come back to his roomā he muttered. I was really hoping he was okay⦠he had food, and money so I hope he was okay.Ā
I told everyone to be on the lookout for the six foot one, golden retriever hybrid.Ā
Theyād tell me and probably stalk him for a bit until we interfered. I just needed Mingi to understand what his intentions were.Ā
āHis scent is faint⦠did no one see him this morning?ā he asked, now anxious and worried. āNope⦠he looked upset after your fightā San said and that didnāt help the wolfās anxiety. āHe wouldnāt run away right?ā he asked his hyungsā¦Ā
Bingo, there was the answer.Ā
āI⦠no, heās around somewhere!ā he said, standing up absurdly, startling even Wooyoung and Seonghwa as they were setting up the table. āYah! Youāre gonna cause a messā Hongjoong scolded and the wolf sighed and looked panicked. āHe ran away last night, no useā Hongjoong said bluntly and Mingi looked at him with wide eyes.Ā
āAnd⦠you didnāt stop him?!ā he yelled now accusing the orange tiger. The sudden aggression seems to irritate Hongjoong. āWhy should I? You hate him, and he said he knew that so he wanted to make things easier for youā he said and Mingi looked distraught until he looked at me now rushing to me suddenly grabbing my shoulders.Ā
āDid you know?!ā he suddenly asked and before I could answer I heard growls. Everyone was now on edge with him suddenly acting erratic⦠though the sudden tension and aggression seemed to calm him down. āWho do you think you are huh? Grabbing her like sheās the reason for your problems? She didnāt yell at Yunho, she didnāt say he was a liar or a bastard who was better than you!ā San now scolded.Ā
Yeosang grabbed my hand, putting me a little behind him.Ā
āI⦠didnāt mean to⦠but Yunhoāā āis gone⦠accept it. You wanted that after allā Seonghwa added. āTaking out your faults on her wonāt fix anythingā¦ā Wooyoung muttered. Thre was a silence before I decided to ask... āMingi⦠why are you so opposed to him?ā he stayed silent, not even looking at me.Ā
āBecause⦠he doesnāt know what I went through,ā he muttered. āHe thinks Yunho had it easy without any abuse,ā San explained and I sighed.Ā
āMingi⦠can I show you something?ā
mingiās perspective
A file⦠his file. His confession of everything⦠he said yesterday he was also abused but I didnāt believe him. Was it true then? āAre you waiting for an invitation?ā Hongjoong sneered and I sighed.
I didnāt⦠want to accept his truth.Ā
Suddenly the file was snatched from my hands. Hongjoong⦠the one who trapped us now looked at me with annoyance. I⦠havenāt been the best. I yelled⦠not only at them but the girl next to me, the one who gave me everything. I had bit the hand that fed me... the one who gave me a better and happier life and now that Yunho was here I let everything get to my head.Ā
āYunho, a golden retriever hybrid. Suffers from depression, could be from his separation from his bonded pair as well as years of neglect and abuseā Hongjoong said and he stopped when she told him to.
āHongjoong⦠youāre going too far. Mingi, weāll leave this with you but⦠please have an open mind?ā she begged and I nodded as she pushed the tiger out of my room.
I was worried to see his statements⦠but I had to. My best friend, my only companion, left because of me. He returned to the life of stealing and life on the streets because of my immaturity.Ā
So why didnāt he tell me any of this.Ā
Yunho said he and another hybrid under her possession were abused and neglected. He said the abuse started when they were kids, when she adopted them. Often played as a mediator who would shield his bonded pair.Ā
Quote: āMingi would get punished in neglect⦠So when we were starving it's often for two weeks at a time. So while I wouldnāt eat in two weeks besides some food from the one meal sheād give us for the week, I'd give the rest to Mingiā
I remember all the times⦠I told him off for eating my food thinking he wasnāt the one starving. Why⦠Did he never tell me? Is that why he was always thinner than me despite it?Ā
Quote: Yunho also explained that during heats, Mingi would be locked in their closest and since the two often pushed each other into each other's hearts. He explained she wouldā
No⦠that doesnāt seem right. She⦠no, no no. This isnāt true, it's just some⦠prank. No, it canāt be because he ran away because of me. Heās gone because of me. He did⦠everything for me just so I didnāt get the worst of it like he did.
Quote: āShe often threatened to get rid of Mingi and degrade him in front of me⦠claiming if I didnāt please her sheād get rid of him or maybe she would use him like she did with me. If I let that happen⦠heād hate me more than he already doesā
I donāt hate you. I never hated you. Why didnāt you ever tell me the truth Yunho? Why did you let me yell at you? Let me say you had it easy? I had it easy! I had it easy⦠Yunho⦠why?Ā
Yunho isnāt recommended to be with another owner nor hybrids due to his self-insecurities and self-doubt. In the rare situation it would be allowed⦠heād have a higher chance to be abused again because of his need to please and masking his own emotions and boundaries.Ā
I need to find him. I didnāt want to read it anymore. I wanted to hear it from him. I rushed to the elevator where they all were⦠y/n was dressed in a coat for the cold weather⦠San and Hongjoong beside her dressed to go out as well.Ā
āFinally come to your senses?ā Seonghwa asked as he handed me a coat. āLet's go find Yunho?ā y/n said and I donāt why she cared so much⦠but I appreciate her a lot. Her and Yunhoā¦
Theyāre everything I have.Ā
yunhoās perspectiveĀ
I had to ration out Wooyoungās food but I was hungry⦠and I was used to three meals a day now. I also felt like I was being watched⦠either way I didnāt wanna steal again.Ā
So what was I gonna doā¦
I missed being with Mingi⦠I missed my chance with making things right with y/n. Why was I cursed like this? If I was honest with Mingi⦠would we still be in this situation?Ā
It was cold outside⦠sleeping in an alleyway was my only option. I know they gave me money for a hotel but I couldnāt risk it. I needed to be smart with the money for now.Ā
I suddenly got pulled from my trance when I saw someone⦠another hybrid? āAre you⦠who I'm supposed to seeā¦?ā she asked. She was a cat hybrid⦠and she looked scared. āFor what?ā I asked and she cried out. āThe⦠species change?ā she muttered. Species change?
āI have the money! This is my ownerās credit card! And- uhmm⦠my collar! This is worth a lot!ā she said putting a bag of money in my hand and her collar and I shook my head.Ā
āIām not⦠im a hybrid too but I ran awayā i said handing her stuff back⦠she looked upset and lost. āI need to find the people for a species change⦠you really donāt know?ā she asked and I shook my head. Iām not one to tell anyone what to do⦠besides maybe her life was really bad that it's her only option⦠I wouldnāt do anything about itā¦
āCan I ask⦠why did you run away?ā she asked and I sighed. āIām an intruder there⦠simply not wantedā I said and she stared⦠āYour jacket is worth at least five million won⦠if you have your collar you can sell it and maybe try to get a deal with theāā āI donāt want a species changeā I said and she sighed.Ā
āHumans, they have it easyā¦ā she muttered. āIt depends,ā I muttered and she offered a soft smile. āMy life will be a fantasy come true⦠I can help you if youād like, we just need to findāā āThank you but⦠I can't see myself being human, "I said and she nodded.Ā
āHow are⦠you even gonna accomplish it?ā I asked and she smiled. āWant to know? Well⦠I stole little by little from my owner until I had a bunch of money saved⦠plus his card and this collar, it'll fund my species change and I can live comfortably. Perhaps outside of Koreaā¦ā she fantasizes but she was prepared.Ā
āDo you hate your owner?ā I asked and she scowled. āHeās a horrible man⦠I just want to live a peaceful life even if it means risking my life. It isnāt worth being at the hands of humansā¦ā she muttered and I understood where she was coming from.Ā
āYou think the little cat will even show up?ā I heard and she lit up. āIām here!ā she said, now talking to the men in the alleyway. They took her money and collarā¦Ā
āOkay⦠now lets see if you survive to see another day little kittyā
I survived one night⦠one night in the streets again.
I was hungry but I needed to get used to eating a little again⦠I wonder if the cat from last night survived. Hongjoong said⦠he wanted a species change once. That was his fantasy⦠getting back at humans but it was foolish. He admitted he would never survive living amongst them but she looked like she could. I wonder if Mingi ever had the thought to be one?
Funny⦠these illegal transactions happen and you never know if youāre living amongst humans or a hybrid. Makes you wonder⦠but hybrids always know. They can smell⦠but weād never tell one another. Because deep inside⦠every hybrid has had the fantasy once.Ā
What if the roles were reversed?
She wrote a book about that⦠Wooyoung told me he read it. It was fun hearing him ramble about her accomplishments. Iāll miss that about him.Ā
At the moment it should be rush hour⦠so I should avoid the streets and stay away from hybrid control. Theyāre gonna be on the lookout⦠no doubt about it. Because even if Mingi hates me⦠y/n is a pure person who is probably looking for me. I needed to stay hidden for now. Occupying my thoughtsā¦
But sometimes⦠you really canāt help but hate living.Ā
I woke up extremely hungry⦠the sky was dark⦠I guess it was time to get food before I starve to death. I walked out the alley way and to a convenience store a little farther than where she lived. I was planning on taking a plane to Jeju island⦠maybe a boat?Ā
I was able to get a kimbap⦠something to occupy my stomach for the time being. I walked around looking for a new alleyway to sleep at.Ā
That's when I smelled a familiar scent⦠I wasnāt stupid. I masked my scent. That's the first thing I bought⦠hybrid scent pills⦠theyāre supposed to be for heat but it masks a hybridās scent when they aren't on their heat or changes it a little.Ā
I hid in the closest alleyway when I heard them.Ā
āAll day! It's taking all day and we canāt find him!ā Mingi⦠why was he looking? Isnāt this what he wanted? āStop crying⦠would you?ā Hongjoong said, sounding tired and annoyed.
āKun said he lost track of him mid-dayā she said⦠so i was followed?
I just needed to sneak away from them⦠I swear I turned away for only a second to see if this wasnāt a dead end when I looked back and⦠āAhh!!ā I said falling down suddenly startled. San was there⦠How did he find me?!Ā
āScent pills were smartā¦ā he muttered and I was shocked⦠he could still smell me? āSan!ā I heard as she rushed towards us where I was now caught. āYunho!ā I heard as I was suddenly tackled in a hug. āYunho! You big giant idiot! Youāre a liar! You shouldāve told me everything! But I couldnāt ever hate you! Why would you thinkā""Oi youāre rambling" Hongjoong scolded the wolf hybrid who hugged me hard.Ā
āYou must be cold⦠and hungryā she said as she crouched down to where I was. Sometimes⦠I could really see the halo on her head like Yeosang said.Ā
āLet's go home?ā she asked and I couldnāt even make out the sobs from Mingi nor his ramblings but⦠he cared enough to come find me. That alone made my eyes tear upā¦Ā
āIf you insistā
y/nās perspective
He fell asleep instantly⦠as well as Mingi. He didnāt even eat but he said heād lay down on the couch for a second before he fell asleep. Mingi, not wanting to be separated, joined him.Ā
āMisunderstandings arenāt allowed in this apartmentā Seonghwa said as he handed me dinner. I chuckled⦠āYeah⦠everything should be talked about thoughā I said and he nodded.
āTomorrow do you have to take him to the center?ā Wooyoung asked and I nodded. āI need to make sure heās alright and not sick. Besides⦠I also want to talk to Mingi and Yunho about the custody caseā I said and they nod.Ā āYouāre gonna win it right?ā Yeosang asked and I smiled.Ā
āIt's already settled⦠Yunho and Mingi are my hybrids. Case closedāĀ
Everyone went to bed however⦠When was this home ever calm?
I woke up to insistent yelling. It made me chuckle⦠how they were sometimes very energetic early in the morning despite some days waking up at noon. I went to the living room when I saw San arguing with Yeosang.Ā
āy/nnie! They're fighting over lunch againā Wooyoung said, tackling me in a hug, āOh? Did you guys vote?ā I asked and they scoffed. This always happened when it came to meal time⦠especially ordering and picking up food.
āEveryone wants something different,ā Seonghwa informed me and I laughed. āHow about you let me, Mingi, and Yunho decide what we bring back?ā I asked and they nodded, not arguing further. Besides⦠This will give Yunho a push in the right direction. That his words are just as important as anyone else's and so are his choices and preferences.
āI see you guys are ready⦠let me change and weāll head out okay?ā
yunhoās perspective
She was taking me back to the center probably for good this time. The way Mingi gripped on my hand though made me question it. As we made it I felt myself more worried⦠should I have taken the catās suggestion.Ā
Would be human⦠even suit me?
Was she even alive⦠would the risk be worth it? I guess sheās an extreme case though⦠I wasnāt that far gone⦠or was I? I guess living on the street for over a year is a sort of extreme but Mingi made it worth it.
āI see you found himā the doctor said as the girl in front of us nodded as she looked back at me with a soft smile, one I didnāt think I deserved. āLet's make things official, Yunho!ā she said and I wondered what she meant. It was official⦠technically at least soāĀ
āYouāre free from your previous owner the both of you areā the doctor said and I was shocked. Already? It⦠was supposed to take longer than just a few days⦠or was this planned for longer? Even then it should've taken longer than even if she planned it when adopting Mingi.
āLet's talk right now, we need to do a competency and neglect assessmentā
Too many questions⦠just like the first but this time to her. I didnāt even have enough to evaluate her as a person entirely. I just⦠knew she was perfect. She was loved and I was nothing but an outsider whoās only connection was Mingi.Ā
But⦠she wasnāt returning to me. I was still gonna be there though I wondered if Mingi would really improve? Would she forgive me for taking things for granted⦠will she accept me and show me what love feels like?Ā
My head hurts from overthinking and questions forming but⦠I wondered what I did to deserve any of it?
I wonder⦠if I shouldāve taken the opportunity to cut all ties?
āDo you want to go with her?ā he asked and I shook my head. I want Mingi to be happierā āIf Mingi wasnāt a variable would you want to go with her?ā he asked and I wondered. āMaybeā I muttered, questioning it myself.Ā
āWeāll be setting you through more weekly sessions, every other week weāll do some exposure therapy with Mingi along with just on your ownā he asked and I sighed.Ā
āI want him to be happyā I muttered and he nodded. āSo give him the chance to think for himself instead of trying to shelter himā he said and I knew he was right. I was helicopter-ing him⦠and sheltered him for far too long. Maybe I was being selfishā¦
āHow do I know⦠this wonāt happen again?ā I muttered and he looked at me with a soft gaze. āI see hybrids everyday who ask the same thing. Do you want to know a secret about those hybrids of hers?ā he asked and I shrugged not really knowing where he was going by saying all of thisā¦
āSeonghwa and San are probably the two who think that the most, you arenāt alone in thatā he said and all it did was make me more curious as I wondered what Seonghwa and San would have to go through to ask the same thing?
āThese hybrids understand what it's like⦠to be abused. Sheās a weird one⦠sheās adopted hybrids who could never find a home otherwise. Sheās their last chance of a happy life, peace after the torture they went to. And those hybrids would savor every moment of it⦠you should take the chance tooā he said now saying the session was over.Ā
As I walked out I saw her there with Mingi by her side⦠From the little time I spent there I knew that the panther was there the longest. Her first hybrid and mate⦠yet what did he go through?Ā
āAre you doing okay? Do you need a break? Or are you hungry? No⦠thirstyāā Mingi was rambling made me laugh a bit. āIām just tiredā I said and he nodded softly before gulping and looking at her almost for help making her giggle⦠What a pretty sound⦠it almost made me forget where I was.Ā
āCome on⦠weāll get food and then go back homeā she said like it was so natural. Mingi and San followed her so easily. Home⦠their homeā āStop getting in your head⦠someone as pretty as you shouldnāt be cryingā she said⦠my eyes widened in response. Was I crying? I guess that's why my vision felt a little blurry.. I assumed it was the lack of food but that's not what was in my head.Ā
My mind was filled with the memory of panic I had when I first saw her.
As I wiped my eyes I decided to try⦠āHeh, who ever said that sounds like he gives good adviceā I joked and I peeked behind my arm to see her reaction. She laughed⦠but she smiled brightly. āYouāre right.. Heās a genius who lost his brain for a bitā she teased and I chuckled.
āWill you help find it?ā I asked and she smiled. āCome on Yunho, youāre stuck with us now!āĀ
āDid you have to choose this? We literally had it last week!ā Mingi whined and I smiled at how whiny he became. āYunho chose it, so Mingi what can you say?ā she asked and he pouted. āYou have bad preferencesā he muttered, earning a laugh from y/n and San.
āYouāre a canine!ā Mingi countered in my choices. I shrugged⦠āI donāt know, I donāt have a preference for beef over chicken⦠I just havenāt had it in yearsā I said truthfully and he sighed but stood up.
āFine⦠but you wonāt get it often here eitherā he teased and I didnāt mind that.Ā
āWeāre back!ā she said cheerily as I saw my⦠new home.
āWhat did you end up picking up!ā I heard Wooyoung come cheerily and San chuckled. āCan you smell that fox nose of yours?ā San teased and he scoffed back at the panther. āFried Chicken!ā Yeosang said⦠and that was the most emotion I have ever seen from the dobermanā¦
āWe had it last week though!ā Seonghwa whined⦠āIf you havenāt realized everyone here practically prefers beef over chicken⦠besides Yeoā she explained and I chuckled. How funny⦠It's still meat.
āCome on, let's set the table!ā she said and they followed her lead.Ā
Before Yeosang left though I felt the need to ask⦠āHow come youāre the only one who likes chicken?ā I asked and he scoffed⦠āWell I used to sneak to eat it⦠it is known as pure junkā he said and I chuckled. āI remember the first time I tried it I stole it for Christmas for me and Mingi⦠I think it's a nice snack food "I said and his eyes widened.Ā
āThen maybe we should try to convince the other idiotsā he said as we both went to the table where even though they prefer beef⦠were fighting for drumsticks and thighs.Ā
They were so lively⦠I hope⦠I can learn to enjoy it here.
i was wondering if you ever plan on finishing circus, since iām an avid fan of that work of yours!
no pressure at all! please donāt take this as some request or anything like that, just a curious ask!
i love all of your works so so so much :( you are such an amazing writer and weāre all so thankful that you shared your work with us!!!
your writing style is just *chefs kiss* itās so unique and incomparable to any other!
sending lots of love ā”
hello I appreciate this and yes I finish circus, and even continue another series for ATEEZ!!
thank you so much for the kind words and the praise I love reading comments like this especially when im in burn out but im back now and will post updates soon!!
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