I Belong Out There.

One year ago I was still not awake from surgery on the ninth. Now I’m following everyone around in a kayak... #transplantlife #family #friends #birthday #sunburnt #glamping #💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/CD2KxNnDu_ZwpRRLkBbMWIsNEUsthQskg1B9Hs0/?igshid=15zwn05pzd7b7

I was feeling reluctant to share this work it’s deeply personal and heart breaking for me. But as usual @taylorswift has to release an album that I relate to in ways a year ago almost to the day I could not. I fully believed when I spoke to @melindaarose on the phone that morning that would be the last time she would hear my voice. I couldn’t thank Taylor in person for what her music has done and continues to do for me and I’m okay with that because what she did for my sister for just existing in that moment gave my sister hope that she would need for the period of time that they thought I’d never come back and I’ll always be so grateful for that invisible string that lead Taylor and Melinda to the voice stage. The day my dream came true I was technically dead, weird right? These pieces of art are a reflection of the process of recovery, losing yourself, losing the love that ultimately saved your life, and finding your new way because you can never go back. This is the lyrics in folklore that made me decide to share my tale, “You knew it still hurts underneath my scars from when they pulled me apart, but what you did was just as dark darling, this was just as hard as when they pulled me apart. My only one. My kingdom come undone. My broken drum You have beaten my heart. Don't want no other shade of blue, But you. No other sadness in the world would do” I hope you find some beauty in this #taylorswift #melindarodriguez #transplantlife #art #lgbtq #hearttransplant #💕 #love #loss #queerart #swiftie #thevoice https://www.instagram.com/p/CDSX2MwjaNKGYqdD8yIT5zDJUX3slRBpKisXZA0/?igshid=18virib9y4zia