A Constellation of Lights

i want to read a very specific fanfic and i’m so mad that i can’t (it’s sitting in my drafts) (unfinished)

so glad this post is resonating with people bc it’s still resonating with me as i am once again not working on said fanfics that i want to read

i understand words and phrases. my dialogue is natural and in character. i know where the plot is going. my word count is reasonable. i am not scared of my document

A cat is a machine that turns proteins into violence.

@lacertae-dreamscape @ibijau

i will not lie, friends in my phone, i have been imagining affection from time to time

idk if it’s an adhd thing or whatever but I constantly pingpong between being too silent for too long and not shutting up and I kinda hoped that growing up and getting adhd meds would fix it but sadly no

Sometimes people are like “hey Roman has been quiet for a really long time what’s wrong Roman what’s on your mind” and then this pops the cork I didn’t know was there and I am not in control of the resulting word explosion

I've seen some posts trying to make fun of former gifted kids by comparing them to former student athletes who insist that they could have gone pro if not for a specific injury, and those posts always backfire, because my reaction to them is "You're right, we should treat former student athletes with more compassion than we currently do"

I went from being very physically active to getting the "your body doesn't make energy properly anymore" disability so I can completely understand the grief that comes with circumstances outside your control destroying parts of you you were once proud of and locking you out of the life you could have had. It's not a good feeling.

... was that not the whole point of that comparison? Are we supposed to dislike the kids who were pushed into overworking and permanently damaging their bodies at a young age by people who should know better but value second hand glory over the health of kids?

pro-tip: your blog is about you. be self-indulgent, self-absorbed, and self-possessed. go all in on your obsessions. this is a work of self-expression, a living monument to your heart.

it’s never a normal temperature anymore it’s always some fucking bullshit

the thing about art is that sometimes you'll be moved to tears by stuff that is not very good