call me cute

[ she continued to cling to him, she worried about her brother so much and she was even more worried about him moving out soon. she knew that when he moved away nobody would tell him when to let off steam, when to take some time for himself, hell she doubted he’d even get tie to himself. ] You know it’s okay to not be okay, especially with me. You don’t have to lie to me about being able to deal with everything at once, I care so much about you and just want you to be happy and healthy. But if you’re sure you can handle it, then please be sure to have enough down time.

[ kyung lent into his sister, almost clutching on to her. he sighed, she was so right. he hated it when she was right but he couldn’t hide the fact that she was. ] Aish.. Kyuri-- I’m doing okay. I’m keeping up, aren’t I? You know that I’ve been far worse and I’ve come out on top. I’m a survivor, now stop your worrying! [ he tried to convince himself that everyday but it was getting harder to not feel so tired, so miserable and so conflicted every time ]

[ she linked arms with him and rested her head on him as they walked ] Good, I’m glad you’re not doing any of those things. Just walking is good for you sometimes, you just gotta do nothing for a little bit and you especially need to do it more often. You’re gonna get yourself all stressed out, I don’t want you to do that. You need to learn how to do nothing, Kyungin, you’re always too busy these days I hate it.

[/ it was true, he was overworking himself. he had school, he had his extra curricular activities, he had his training, he had debut preparations, rehearsals, he had his friends, family, his boyfriend-- It was starting to feel like too much. he couldn’t handle it all, something was going to slip. ] I’m fine. I’m okay, you know I can handle it! I can handle anything.

[ she pouted up at him and shrugged, she didn’t want to admit she’d spent the last few hours partying with her college friends ] What are you doing out here, little brother? Shouldn’t you be in bed sleeping? Or at home studying? Or practicing for your debut?

[/ he sighs, knowing that he should be doing all of those things. but where was the time for it all? where was the time for fun? he needed fun, to relax, to just chill and forget about the stress invading his life. ] Probably. I was uh-- Just walking. Thinking.

[ lu stumbles up the street on her way home, trying to be as quiet as possible. she checks the time on her phone, the bright flash of 4am making her sigh heavily, five hours past her curfew. she was just hoping her parents had came home late from work and just went straight to bed and not noticed her absence. as she locks her phone she looks up and see’s the back of the head of the person she least expected to see out at this time only a few feet from her. she smiles at her brother and rushes to him, wrapping her thin arms around his waist and giggling, hoping to frighten him a little. she lets go of him and bounces beside him ] Lu Kyungin, you secret rebel, it is past your bed time!

[ he should’ve probably been in bed, but no. he walks casually along the darkly lit street, something that definitely was not a good idea. he didn’t have his headphones in which he thought was sensible. it’d been a crazy week, something he just wanted to forget, to pretend never happened. startled by the arms around him, kyung tenses up, ready to kick whoever thought it was appropriate to grab him. his eyes wander to his sister, surprised to see her out and about so late and alone. ] Mhm.. So it is. What’re you doing out so late?

“It’s okay to miss something Kyung, there’s nothing wrong with it, as long as you do the right thing in the end.” he nodded a little and leaned back agaisnt the wall, “So… you liking the party so far?”

Kyung didn’t want to talk about the party. He didn’t particularly want to talk about his personal life either, not with Jae, but he found it coming out like word vomit. “What if it’s not the right thing? What if-- What if I’ve spent almost three years pining after someone, loving them with all my heart, missing them like crazy only for it to be for nothing? What if it has to be nothing? What if nothing will ever come of it because nothing is allowed. It’s not allowed, it’s not okay, nothing’s okay!”

Kyung stared at the cigarette in his hand before shaking his head, offering it back. He didn’t want to go that far. “Maybe I wanted to branch out. I wanted to have fun.” He rubbed his eyes in a sleepy fashion, glancing around.

I was scared I would hate everyone. You kinda remind me of my old best friend, maybe that’s why I like you. You’re outgoing which is good because Jie and I aren’t exactly the most social, we’d be a weird little hermit group without you. No, but you do mention him every time we talk. You shouldn’t be so specific with things, like if someone asks you if you had a good weekend just say yea, I did and end it at that. If people don’t ask for details don’t give them. I think you have some sorta weird habit when you just talk for longer than you really should which is kinda part of your charm but I’m scared it’ll get you in trouble one day.

I do? I hope he was nice because if he wasn’t then I’m doing something wrong. You and Jie are just the quiet little introverts and I’m loud and I hog all of the attention. I need to tone it down otherwise people will get bored and annoyed at me. Ah jinja-- I’m sorry, hyung.. I just-- I don’t really have many people to talk to so when I do have someone, I just want to tell them everything. Gotta learn to keep my mouth shut I can’t help it.

I’m just gonna go home if you insist on being moody.