TruthShallSetMeFree

Heartlust

While I am on the topic of “neediness” we both know that’s YOU, not me. It’s pretty normal to expect someone to touch base with you after giving a time frame where you will be busy but not a real goodbye.  If I were to say “dinner” “going to the gym” “heading out for a bit” “be back later” etc etc etc those are all scenarios which someone would expect the person to come back and message them later that day. I didn’t freak out about it, I merely brought up that you disappeared the next time we spoke. Expecting that, doesn’t make you needy, it makes you normal... You’re judgmental as fuck and yet you have the audacity to act like I have the issues? If you can’t see your faults and keep trying to deny certain things you do or say, then you’re the one with issues.  Like I've said, you may know a whole lot of facts about me and my thoughts on things, but that doesn’t mean you’ve become a “real” friend to me nor does it mean you’re irreplaceable and it sure as hell doesn’t give you the right to use my insecurities, past, nor my shortcomings as a tool against me. 

Her, but more than that im, I'm missing how she made me feel. How I felt loved, wanted, and the center of someone's life. Currently, I feel like a nobody. I just feel like an empty shell.

feel like I've been losing my motivation. I'm over my break-up but now that I'm over it I've started to lose my drive to push forward. I'm trying to find the fire within myself, but it's so hard. I also feel like I'm starting to lose everything around me. It's scary. Things feel like they're about to collapse in on me. I don't know if I'm being paranoid but I feel like things are about to change for the worst. I don't know what's going on around me and in my head but I do know that things stopped getting better and the pieces of myself I've fixed up are starting to crack. I'm trying to reach out for answers and solutions but to no avail. I'm starting to lose myself.

but lately it feels like the only thing I do that moves forward.