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12.28 // 💕💤🐣✨ #vscocam #vsco #babygirl #momlife #family #fourmonths

12.9 // We've been on and off for many years now, @birchbox but I'll always come crawling back 💫 (I mostly subscribe for the actual box, if we're being honest.) #vscocam #vsco #beauty #birchbox #makeup #skincare #prettythings

12.8 // Four months old and already reaching for coffee. No doubt she's mine 💕 #vscocam #vsco #fourmonths #babygirl #littleone

10.31 // Happy 1st Halloween, Libby Lou! You've been grunting and growling since birth, so it was only fitting we turned you into a polar bear 🐻🎃💫 #vsco #vscocam #halloween #babybear

10.31 // She had on a Halloween shirt that said "Monstrously Cute" but then she pooped alllll over it. Guess it was pretty accurate 😉👻 #vscocam #vsco #babygirl #babiesofinstagram #family

10.18 // Itty bitty Libby with her Papa 💕 I never met my dad and my biggest fear used to be my babies growing up in the same situation. That fear completely imploded the minute I met this man. He's so gentle and he lights up every time he gets a smile or a coo out of her. She stops crying when he starts singing and she seems to only explode through her diapers when I'm holding her (thanks Lib). Please keep fighting T, we want you home and healthy. #vscocam #vsco #dadlife #newborn #babygirl

10.10 // CHEEEEKS 😊✨ . . #vscocam #vsco #babygirl #newborn #2months #newmom #parenthood

10.8 // Major outfit envy doing Libby's laundry 😍💕 #vscocam #vsco #baby #clothes #shop #babygirl #newmom

10.2 // Sleepiest babe 💕 #vscocam #vsco #baby #2monthsold #naps #momlife

9.29 // Last pair in my size. On clearance. I HAD TO. #vsco #vscocam #targetstyle #shoes #apparel

9.28 // We got a new dining table yesterday and this setup is perfect for the hours of mindless online window shopping I seem to be doing lately. #vsco #vscocam #maternityleave #targetstyle #ikea #desk #home #create

9.16 // Explored Manitou today with @tonylewisgolenz and LibbyLou in her @sollybabywrap 💕 #vscocam #vsco #sollybaby #manitousprings #newmom #momlife #baby #explore #babywearing (at Manitou Springs, Colorado)

9.14 // This picture has been our situation for the past two hours. Her: refusing to sleep unless she's laying on the bed, pressed against my boob. Me: shirt covered in milk, stretch marks on display, growling stomach, aching back, realllly need to pee. Libby makes the rules. #vsco #vscocam #baby #newmom #momlife

9.6 // Oh, Opie boy. I love you so 💕🐶 (But please stop stealing Libby's dirty diapers) #vscocam #vsco #dogs #animals #germanshepherd #allears

One month ago at this time I was in my hospital recovery room breathing in the smell of the new baby cuddled on my chest, breathing through the pain of every move I made thanks to the delivery turned surgery that brought her into the world. Today, at this moment, she's asleep in my arms making the sweetest coos (plus loudest farts) and holding her left ear in her hand. I'm on the couch still in my pajamas, taunted by the coffee sitting on the table in front of me just out of my reach. I'm doing this. Libby is everything. Her health and happiness is 90% of what crosses my mind these days. The other 2% is chocolate and about 8% is What Am I Doing With My Life. I'm struggling with knowing what's right. What it means to be a parent. What I'm supposed to sacrifice and what I'm supposed to fight for until my face turns blue. I don't know where these next months/years will take us. All I know is that Libby wakes up every three to four hours to eat. She likes her head being rubbed when she's falling asleep. She loves bath time, being in her carseat, and staring at the light through the curtains first thing in the morning. For today, even if it's just these next few hours, that's all that really matters. #vscocam #vsco #newmom #motherhood #love #newborn

8.25 // The hardest part about being a mom so far is trying to cope with the amount of love I have for her. I cry at least once a day because I'm simply feeling too much and I can't sort those feelings into compartments like I normally do. I see myself in her - her nose, her eyes, the way she holds onto her tiny ears for comfort just like I did- and that terrifies me. I never want her to experience some of the things I've gone through. I want her to be strong. To be witty and unapologetic for who she is. To love herself in all the ways I struggled with. Our most used phrase around the house these days is "I can't believe she's real." This little human that was literally part of me less than a month ago has a power over me that I never expected. She is everything. #vscocam #vsco #newborn #baby #newmom #motherhood #love #babygirl

8.20 // Today started with a trip to @fourtillfour for some coffee, a stop at @cactusflowerflorists, then breakfast burritos at home on the couch. Nap time! #vscocam #vsco #flowers #coldbrew #coffee #scottsdale #az