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I promise to love you every day … every yesterday, every today, and every tomorrow … forever.

Even when I had nothing, he was everything.

Before you say yes, get him angry. See him scared, see him wanting, see him sick. Stress changes a person. Find out if he drinks and if he does, get him drunk - you’ll learn more about his sober thoughts. Discover his addictions. See if he puts you in front of them. You can’t change people, baby girl. If they are made one way, it doesn’t just wear off. If you hate how he acts when he’s out of it now, you’re going to hate it much worse eight years down the road. You might love him to bits but it doesn’t change that some people just don’t fit.

Eat food from farmers markets. Drink good tea each morning. Read books that make you feel. Paint, even if you’re awful. Write, even when you have nothing to say. Sit in the fresh air outside. Go on hikes. Swim in lakes and wade in streams. Sleep as long as you need. Work hard at what you love. Work hard at what you hate. Love unconditionally and wholeheartedly.

It’s sad when you’ve already learned to be a part of someone’s life and then end up being strangers.

to the whoever I end up with. honesty, I can’t wait for the days I get to run around the house with you. the nights I get to roll over and see you peacefully sleeping. the evenings I get to take you to dinner. the nights where we stay in and watch stupid movies all night. the days we go on random adventures with no destination. the midnight trips to the store because we were hungry or ran out of alcohol. the mornings I get to cook you breakfast. there’s so much more I could say but to be honest I just can’t wait to experience life with you.

I understand that nobody understands me, but I can’t be someone I’m not.

She did not need much, wanted very little. A kind word, sincerity, fresh air, clean water, a garden, kisses, books to read, sheltering arms, a cosy bed, and to love and be loved in return.