self titled

Problem w tym, że nie znałam ich aż tak długo, ale to i tak boli. Boli bo myślałam, że na tej planecie istnieje dla mnie jeszcze jakieś miejsce, że jest jakaś nadzieja.

solitude does things to your brain and quality of life that genuinely make you desperate and just overall miserable

I have my boyfriend with me but there's so many things that only women can relate to with eachother.

so many moments and situations that I would love to have more people for

for all my joy, sadness, anxiety and anger

today I saw a post with compilations of women sharing their pregnancy announcements with their girl friends. I saw gathering of groups, just two women together or even a trio

I would not have enough people to gather for a trio

in may I had my first pregnancy scare of my life. my stomach turning with anxiety, sleepless nights, until I finally decided to buy a pregnancy test

on my way back from college I went to the drug store all by myself, since my boyfriend was busy at the time

I've never felt so lonely. searching around the store in desperation and almost throwing up from the anxiety

after I did the test none else to announce to that they came out negative, just my boyfriend

I'm immensely grateful for having him with me but the emotions I experienced only a woman would understand

if I didn't have my partner with me there'd be absolutely nobody in this world for me

this doesn't make me more grateful for having me, just makes the solitude stronger

when he goes to play games or just talks with his friends I just sit there in my solitude hearing nothing but my own thoughts of his laughter in the other room

not cool being someone you wouldn't want to know

I feel bad for not building a stronger relationship with my aunt and my grandmother but I feel like they never cared to build it with me from the get go. maybe if my grandfather was still alive I'd get more attention or something.