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Jumin Han

Bless his soul, Jumin had no idea what to do when MC became so angry.

Jumin loves MC no matter what, though, and still loves MC even when she became angry.

MC started throwing things at a party Jumin asked her to attend when she heard someone saying that “she didn’t really love Jumin.”

It was selfish of him, but Jumin was almost glad that she became angry over something about him.

He tried to calm her down by talking to her, but when that didn’t work, he managed to take her away and calm her down.

Jumin was terrified of hurting her, so he was very soft and gentle with her as she seemed so fragile to him.

Jumin is really shocked to see MC’s other side, but is glad that he was able to see another part of her as he loves her with all of his heart.

Seven

God, Seven was terrified.

He had no idea what to do when MC started yelling and throwing things around his place; he felt useless.

Seven was slightly scared of MC and had no idea how to calm MC down, which caused him to panic.

Nevertheless, Seven managed to calm MC down by hugging her in his arms and stroking her hair soothingly.

Seven wasn’t scared of MC as such, he was more scared that he wouldn’t be able to stop her.

He still loves MC and understands that everyone has flaws; they both help fill each other’s imperfections, after all.

Zen

Zen was so shocked.

How could his beautiful, sweet and innocent girlfriend become so violent in such a short amount of time?

Was Zen seeing the right person, or was he hallucinating? He hoped it was the latter, but when MC started yelling at his fans he knew it was real.

He tried to get MC to calm down by merely talking to her, but she didn’t listen to him at all.

People were starting to look and Zen didn’t want anything bad to be said about MC, so all he could think of doing was literally carrying MC away on his shoulders.

Poor Zen was kicked as MC couldn’t control her anger, but when she saw the bruises on his back, she started crying.

Although Zen was bewildered, he still loves MC no matter what and always tries to calm down MC whenever she gets angry. (Zen won’t admit that he gets just as angry).

Yoosung Kim

Yoosung was petrified.

What was he supposed to do? It wasn’t like when Zen got angry; it was much worse, and he didn’t know what to do.

It was such a small thing that caused MC to lose control - she grew frustrated with a video game and threw a controller towards the TV.

Yoosung didn’t think that someone so innocent could become so… violent.

Cheesy Yoosung started a speech about how he loves MC and how she really needed to calm down and he started crying because he wanted to help MC, but he felt so useless.

Yoosung ensures to keep video games away from MC and finds himself making sure that he watches what he says, but his feelings haven’t changed for MC at all.

Jaehee Kang

Out of the others, Jaehee was a lot calmer as she knew how to help MC, but she was still shocked and panicked.

She got MC to punch and scream into a pillow and told her to count to ten in her head. Jaehee thought that it wouldn’t work, but, surprisingly, it worked.

Jaehee was relieved to have her sweet MC back, but she was happy to see a new side to MC.

MC still means the world to Jaehee and the two work on breathing exercises, counting to ten or punching a pillow together. They work on MC’s anger together.

She’s gotten used to MC’s random outbursts, but the first one shocked Jaehee a lot, despite her calm façade.

V

This guy deserves a bloody medal because after Rika, he managed to deal with this.

When MC became angry, it reminded V of how Rika used to be.

Rather than shock, it was pain as he couldn’t stop seeing Rika in MC because of it. He knew MC was nothing like Rika, but he couldn’t help but fear that she was.

V tried so hard to calm MC down just as he did with Rika, except MC never hurt V and managed to calm down thanks to V’s words.

V definitely prefers MC’s bubbly, cute and innocent side, however he still loves MC regardless of her anger issues and always will.

I had been situated at my desk as I stared at the computer screen, heaving out a nervous sigh. Closing my eyes, I rubbed my sweaty palms along my jeans, wincing as pain shot through my arms and legs. “Shit,” I muttered, causing Vanderwood to rush over towards me, a concerned look upon his face.

“You okay?” He asked, eyebrows raised as I hung my head low in shame, attempting to clench my fists, but the immense pain cause an inability to.

Biting the inside of my cheek, I knitted my eyebrows and exhaled sharply. “Yes, I’m fine, Vanderwood.” I said, beginning to give up as my heart sank in my chest, “I just need to finish my work.” I stated bitterly, gnawing along my bottom lip as I felt so hopeless; I was lost like a leaf floating towards the ground, only to crack due to the smallest amount of wind.

“Are you like this because of work, or because that girl is coming?” Vanderwood questioned, causing me to shoot my head up towards him, confusion evident across my face. “I’ll take that as a yes.” He laughed, folding his arms over his chest as he looked down towards me, a smirk dancing across his lips.

Nobody looked at me like I was normal—I was just a fragile person to them. It made me want to throw things or smash windows, yet I couldn’t. All I could do was scream inside my mind as the pain in my joints prevented me from moving in extreme ways.

“How do you even know about her?” I asked, turning back around on my chair to face the computer screen. Although I was motivated to do work, to feel useful, I found myself merely glaring at the all-too-bright screen, eyes stinging with tears as dark thoughts drowned my mind.

What if MC wouldn’t like the real me? What if she wants to go outside, but I prefer to stay indoors? What if she thinks my cerebral palsy is too much for her to deal with? What if—

My anxiety-ridden thoughts were interjected by Vanderwood’s voice, once again, which caused me to groan in frustration. “I saw you texting her and she said she would be coming over. You must like her, since you hardly let anyone inside.” I rolled my eyes as Vanderwood continued talking, pretending to be concerned, “Have you taken your medication today? For the pain?” He asked, although he already knew the answer.

For me, taking the medication was a horrible reminder that I couldn’t be like everyone else. I couldn’t go outside and run around, nor could I even get ice cream, merely because I was too afraid of what people would think. Too afraid of having an epileptic fit in front of everyone—I wanted to go outside, to walk beneath the sun and get a coffee, but I couldn’t. Heck, I couldn’t even have a conversation without people talking about my condition. Nobody cared about me, they simply cared about what happened to me.

I wanted to run away to a place where nobody knew my name; where I was merely a nameless face in the crowd. Yet, I knew I could never do that. I relied on people to ensure I had help if I needed it, but the looks of utter pity made me feel so insignificant and helpless.

My thoughts, once again, were interrupted as there was a knock upon my door, and Vanderwood opened the door (ignoring my heavy breathing) and I almost fell off my chair in exasperation.

MC was beautiful.

Absolutely mesmerising, in fact.

Her long, chocolate hair fell past her shoulders, bangs dishevelled as she shyly looked down at her shoes. Her cheeks were smacked with a pale crimson, small, barely noticeable, freckles scattered along her face. Her eyes were a forest that I became lost in: the forest-green was surfaced with a warm honey, almost as if the forest trees were set alight. MC laced her fingers with her own, glaring down at her shoes as waves of anxiety flooded her veins, causing her heartbeat to accelerate rapidly. Or, at least, that’s the way I felt.

“MC, I—” I choked out, tearing up as she smiled in a way that nobody had before. Her mere smile lit up the entirety of my world and, suddenly, nothing mattered anymore.

Smile remaining upon her lips, MC shook her head; “You don’t have to explain anything to me. Vanderwood told me about your cerebral palsy.” It felt as if someone had shot me in the heart, and I was preparing myself to watch her back as she walked away. “I just want to say, that none of it matters to me. You’re still you, Seven, and I—” MC tried to continue, but tears were fleeing her eyes as she ran towards me.

The beautiful brunette wrapped her arms around me, crying into my shoulder as I could feel her body shake. I opened my mouth to speak, but her soft voice stopped me. “I-I love you, Seven, I love you so much.” She said, leaning backwards as she smiled at me. It was a smile laced with sincerity and love, not pity. It was the first time I felt like I belonged in someone’s arms.

“Saeyoung.”

“What?” She asked, confused.

“That’s my real name. Saeyoung.” I choked out, trying to tell her with my eyes that I wanted her to stay. That I yearned for her warmth and that I loved every single part of her.

We had been talking for months, yet I finally felt as if we really knew each other. MC knew I loved her as she smashed her lips against mine, our tears blurring into one as I gave her my heart. I gave her my all.

Jumin

MC and Jumin are close friends, which is why MC found herself at Jumin’s apartment one night when she was slightly upset.

Jumin and MC had wine, but MC ended up drinking too much and got really drunk, yet Jumin wasn’t even tipsy.

MC is an emotional drunk, so she was already sobbing in the corner of the room because of The Simpsons…

After a while, MC started to throw up, so Jumin rubbed circles on her back when she puked in his toilet, and she was sobbing whilst mumbling things Jumin couldn’t really understand.

“What did you say, MC?”

That’s when MC told him; she told him that she was raped when she was just 13, and how she couldn’t even finish school because of it.

It was an accident, MC was never supposed to tell anyone, she felt ashamed and disgusted, which is why she never told anyone before Jumin.

Jumin just pulled MC into a tight hug whilst she sobbed loudly into his chest, and they sat in the bathroom for a good hour, Jumin rubbing MC’s hair and back.

Once MC fell asleep on Jumin, he put her to bed and he went back into the bathroom.

He was just so pissed at the person who destroyed MC, he didn’t know what to do to make her feel better, he was upset that someone as beautiful as MC had to go through that.

Jumin felt so confused, so annoyed, so disgusted with the person who ruined someone who used to be so happy and carefree. It was unlike him, but Jumin punched the wall and tried so hard not to lose it.

But he did.

He drank some more wine and stood outside on his balcony for fresh air to calm himself down, and he fell asleep on the couch and wrote MC and small note and placed it by her pillow.

‘You’re beautiful, MC. Thank you for being such an important person to me, thank you for showing me your smile.’ -Jumin.

MC literally cried when she read that note, she thought Jumin was simply being nice, as she couldn’t remember the previous night.

MC couldn’t remember anything when she was sober, so Jumin didn’t tell her and decided to be there for her and wait for her to tell him when she really wants to.

Seven

In the chatroom, you and Seven always joke around and laugh, and it’s usually the same in real life, too.

Usually.

But, this time, MC called Seven when she was crying and blamed it on a sad movie, and asked if she could go to his place. Seven thought it was more than just a movie, so he let her go over.

When MC arrived, she arrived with cans of beer and HBC, but Seven could feel that something was wrong.

Seven hardly had anything to drink, but MC drank several cans of beer, and she is a light weight so that was enough to make her drunk.

MC grabbed plates and glass cups, attempting to throw them as she screamed “I hate you!”

Seven was terrified, he thought MC hated him, but he managed to stop her from throwing things, and grabbed her wrists to look at her glassy eyes.

That’s when MC broke.

She sobbed, and Seven pulled her into a hug and the two of them fell to the floor together, Seven holding MC close as she cried for what seemed like forever.

Seven didn’t know what to do, so he just whispered soothing words into MC’s ear, which eventually made the tears lessen, but they didn’t stop entirely.

“I hate him. I hate me.”

Seven could understood, he understood the feeling, which is why he opened up to MC about some of his past.

In return, MC told Seven that she was raped, and she kept apologising and sobbing as she blamed herself.

Seven told MC that she wasn’t to blame, and MC fell asleep in Seven’s arms so they stayed there until MC woke up the next morning.

The next morning, MC briefly remembers telling Seven and tries to leave, but Seven and MC spend a lot of time together just talking and making each other feel okay.

Zen

Zen and MC attend a party together, which was a big mistake.

Zen could drink a lot without really feeling tipsy or drunk, and MC was usually the same, but she drank so much that she got absolutely wasted.

When MC was being flirted with and being touched, MC started yelling at the guys and Zen ended up punching them right on the jaw.

Zen carried MC back to his place, as he didn’t know where Rika’s apartment was, and on the way back MC had fallen asleep and began muttering things in her sleep.

“Don’t…” “No… Stop, please.”

MC seemed distressed, so Zen woke MC up and she freaked out; she jumped out of Zen’s arms and tried to push him over and just run.

MC couldn’t see properly so she didn’t get vary far, which meant Zen was able to ensure she didn’t hurt herself.

Zen was confused.

MC wandered and ended up near a river, and she refused to listen to Zen; she walked along the edge, which made Zen nervous.

He knew he shouldn’t have… But what else could he do? Despite MC’s pleads, Zen grabbed her and pulled her away, and grabbed her wrists and refused to let go.

“MC stop! You are going to hurt yourself!”

Then, MC just fell to the floor and started crying, she told Zen about her rape story, and Zen could hardly hide his anger. But he managed to for MC, his best friend that he would always love.

Zen hugged MC and carried her home, holding her hand and stroking her hair to stop her from crying again.

Zen took MC back to his, and she slept for the rest of the night.

By the morning, MC remembered nothing, but Zen told her he knew.

Yoosung

MC had out with a few of her friends, separate from the RFA, and got extremely drunk - hammered, even - and ended up going to Yoosung’s place at 2:00 AM.

Yoosung was just playing LOLOL, so he wasn’t woken up; he let MC in and she just laid on his bed and stared at the ceiling.

Yoosung was concentrated on LOLOL so he didn’t notice much, but MC was quietly crying and saying things that didn’t make sense. Things that were out of character.

“H-He wouldn’t stop…”

That’s when Yoosung stopped playing LOLOL and focused on MC, and rushed to her side - panicked - when he noticed that she was crying.

Yoosung offered her tissues and a glass of water, and MC kept cooing about how cute Yoosung was.

“MC, this isn’t like you… What’s wrong?”

Before Yoosung could finish, MC kissed him, but Yoosung pulled away and told MC he would only do that if she was sober.

“B-But he just forced himself on me, so why…?”

MC didn’t even need to directly tell Yoosung, because he figured it out; he was oblivious, but smart enough to know what MC had meant.

Yoosung pulled MC into a hug and started telling MC how beautiful she is, how strong and amazing she is. Yoosung just keeps saying those words to MC, just continues talking about how much she means to him.

He didn’t notice, but MC had fallen asleep in Yoosung’s arms.

The next morning, MC couldn’t remember and Yoosung decided not to tell her. But, later on in the day, Yoosung felt guilt for lying and called MC about it and were on the phone for three hours.

Jaehee

It was late, and MC was triggered by something she saw on TV about rape, which brought back so many memories for her, and she could hardly breathe so she decided to just drink.

She wanted to forget. So she drank, and could hardly walk because she was just so wasted.

After half an hour of crying and smashing things in the apartment, she decided to call Jaehee and confessed everything. MC told Jaehee about her being raped, she told her about how it ruined her life, she told her about how she can’t forget it. Not even all those years later.

“MC… I’m going to be there really soon, wait for me, okay? Listen to my voice, you’re going to be okay.”

Jaehee put MC on hold, and quickly called Seven to demand Rika’s apartment’s address so she could help MC.

It took a while to convince Seven, in fact Jaehee had to yell at Seven and completely lost it when he was so reluctant about it. Badass Jaehee managed to get the address after she practically screamed at Seven.

Jaehee ran.

She ran to MC at 1:00 AM and noticed that the door was unlocked. Jaehee saw MC, who was scratching the walls with scissors and was sobbing so much she could hardly breathe.

Jaehee was gentle about it, but she took the scissors from MC and merely pulled her into a hug, and MC told Jaehee that she hated to be alone; she told her that she couldn’t leave the apartment without being paranoid.

Jaehee decided to bring MC back to her apartment, and gave MC water and lost of attention and care and she sobered up pretty fast, so the two just talked about their future together. Moving in together etc.

V

MC had been at V’s apartment one night, and he had been showing her his favourite photographs and telling her why he loved them so much.

The two were just talking for most of the night, just talking about the future and heir dreams etc. MC and V loved each other platonically, and trusted each other with every bone in their body.

MC suggested that they open a few bottles of wine, but V knew MC was a light weight so he tried to be cautious with how much she was drinking.

But, of course, MC drank more than she should have, and got really drunk, and experienced really bad mood swings.

One minute she was laughing and pointing at absolutely nothing, yet the next moment she was clinging to V’s legs and sobbing without giving V any explanation as to why.

“Don’t let him take me, V, don’t let him hurt me.”

MC had been mumbling things, but V managed to understand the majority of them. He connected the dots together, and figured out for himself that MC had been raped in the past.

When MC started to get aggressive towards V, and herself, V had sudden flashbacks of Rika; he was terrified of losing MC, he was terrified of making a mistake again, he was terrified that MC would hurt herself just like Rika had tried to do.

MC rushed into the kitchen before V could stop her, and she grabbed a pair of scissors and started to cut her hair; her brown locks fell upon the floor beneath her feet, and V rushed to her and took them away.

V grabbed MC’s wrists, gently, and told her to stop and told her everything would be okay.

“I won’t let anyone hurt you again.”

It took a while for MC to finally calm down, but she fell asleep on the floor so V put a pillow beneath her head and covered her with a blanket.

The next morning, V told MC everything that happened the night before, and V took MC to the hairdressers so they could fix her hair. V offered MC to move in with him, as friends, because he wanted to protect her and always be there when she cried.

He doesn’t want to make another mistake.

I really hope this is what you wanted! I’m sorry if this isn’t what you wanted ;-; but this took me hours to write, so I hope it’s okay!

Jumin

To be honest, gender never mattered much to Jumin, he never felt romantic feelings towards anyone (except Rika) anyway. Bless this sweet dork.

He was a little shocked at first, but it didn’t change how he felt about MC.

Jumin never thought much about his sexuality, after all he basically dated his work.

Jumin still loved MC like he did when he thought MC was a girl, and he still wanted to kiss MC when he first saw him.

Finds MC to still be adorable.

Seven teases Jumin about him being gay, but he doesn’t really care.

Seven

Of course, Seven knew from the start that MC was a guy, but didn’t tell everyone so he wasn’t really shocked.

What did shock Seven, though, was that when he went to Rika’s apartment he found MC to be adorable.

Seven has never dated anyone before, and didn’t really know if he liked girls or guys, but when he saw MC he practically died. He knew from this moment that he is gay af.

Seven loves teasing MC about basically everything because he gets embarrassed really easily.

Still fell in love with MC all the same.

Zen

Was really surprised.

Was upset at first because he wanted MC to be a girl, as he wanted to date MC after talking in the chatroom.

Zen thought MC was cute, and got really confused because he couldn’t be gay, could he?

Actually got really annoyed with Seven for not telling him the truth, and was mad at MC for not saying anything sooner.

It took Zen a while to figure out his feelings, but when MC was in danger because of Saeran, Zen knew that he still loved MC.

Was reluctant to tell everyone at first, but was accepted and supported by most of his fans.

Yoosung

Very confused to begin with.

Thought he could just be best friends with MC instead, but boy he was wrong. After all, it didn’t feel like the way he felt with the other RFA members.

Was in denial, and was oblivious as well.

He felt like he needed to protect MC, and realised he would do anything to keep MC safe.

Realised he was in love with MC when he saw MC laugh with the others and felt extremely jealous. Took him long enough to realise.

Jaehee

Didn’t matter to her.

Considered MC her best friend.

Until the party, Jaehee didn’t have any feelings for MC. But at the party, Jaehee began to feel something stronger than friendship.

They still moved in together, but it took them both a long time until they were in a relationship.

Jaehee would date MC whether they were a girl or guy.

Saeran

Knew from the start that MC was a guy, since Saeran led him to the apartment in the first place.

Actually preferred it that MC was a guy, as Saeran found it easier to talk to him and felt more comfortable around MC.

Was never really interested in women, but thought it was just because he never had a chance to date, but it was really just because he is gay.

Took a very long time for Saeran to open up, but MC was patient and Saeran fell in love with MC, even though he was too shy to admit it to begin with.

Seven always teases Saeran for being gay, but Saeran is happy to just be accepted by everyone.

Isn’t very shy when he’s dominant over MC.

V

Wasn’t really shocked or bothered, still saw MC as a part of the family and still wanted to get to know him.

It took an excruciatingly long time for V to get over Rika, but MC was there and helped V become happy again.

V fell in love with MC after a long time of them being best friends, and was very happy to have moved on with someone else.

MC made V strong, and V started talking to the RFA again and made up with Yoosung as well.

So cute to see V so happy.