i've held off on posting about this for a few months now, i really don't want to, partly because i don't think i can really say everything i want to and partly because i just wish i didn't have to, but i think this is something important i need to do, almost to like exorcise the negative energy or something. really sad post behind the cut
back in last july my brother was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive cancer, we all tried to be hopeful against all odds but he passed away on november 20th, the 21st would have been his 32nd birthday. it all happened so fast and i still can barely believe it, it still doesn't feel real. he was the smartest and funniest person i ever knew, an amazing drummer, and someone i wish i could have spent infinitely more time with. he was my favorite person in the world and i'm going to miss him every day for the rest of my life
i've obviously been keeping my queue going, having a constant stream of anime girls has helped even if just a little bit lol, but i haven't really posted much myself since. i want to be goofy and silly on here again, i know he absolutely wouldn't want me to be miserable forever, but i still just can't right now. i want to try though
i love you so so much aaron, see you again someday
