i really really really need to die but i can’t do that to my mom

i’m so lonely i’ve never felt this alone before

i think i need to be more optimistic

i am weird my personality is weird

i’ve had a pit of dread in my stomach for a few days now and it doesn’t feel nice

i can’t be myself around my friends

i still haven’t bought a diary yet

slept all day i feel like a blob

never third wheeling my friend and her bf ever again they always find a way to embarrass me

i ate way too many sweets today but i’m going to have more after dinner

i think i had agoraphobia in 2023 because i would feel so anxious to leave my house that i would throw up. then i would throw up in public too while i was out with my friends and i would have to take the bus home by myself. i still don’t like leaving my house but i don’t throw up in public anymore.

i still haven’t bought a diary but it will need to have a lock on it