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being arospec sucks :/ like what do i do with myself? when so many things are framed around romance, am i just pointless if i'm not capable of that? the closest i've come i backed out bc i liked the attention more than i did her. the only times i have liked people without forcing myself to have been either initial crushes and idolisation that flitted back and forth between loathing and love like a metronome. and i know this, i know that there's something i just can't seem to feel rigth, and yet i STILL try and scout out relationships with people? what the fuck is wrong with me? either be attracted to people or don't. stop picking some little halfassed identity that confuses everyone you speak to, just fucking commit to either being sapphic or being aro. it's not hard babe just pick a struggle

I’m finally watching those interview clips of Gerard speaking at that high school and when he’s like ‘there are like seven different stories that are ever told, but we tell them over and over again because it’s all about an artist’s personal interpretation of it’ oh my god that’s so?? I feel like so much of my own creativity is inhibited by a lack of originality but they’re so right- like nothing is original. The merits of creation is about reflecting your own human experience and even at its most mundane, humans are so inherently interesting. There’s not really such thing as ‘bad’ art because there’s not ‘good’ art either- the quality comes from the passion and interest in creating. Art doesn’t have to say anything to make an impact, the act of creating is inherently meaningful. I’m going to be sick

I firmly believe Brisbane Night 2 was the best show

There’s something about the way that Famous Last Word was played at every last show on the Reunion tour. Obviously it’s one of their most popular songs; it’s a permanent set list fixture. But like holy shit?? Having Gerard conduct the audience to sing along with him, sometimes tens of thousands of people, all agreeing to this grand proclamation of life and perseverance? That’s fucking insane. Sure, Foundations of Decay made it clear that the current state of MCR is focused on wanting to create again and less about ‘saving lives’ but it’s like an embedded clause of the band’s existence. First words ever written, the demo man’s storyline, TBP yadayadayada. It’s fundamental to the band whatever. But I don’t know, it feels different. Like they’ve taken it on themselves- MCR isn’t afraid to keep on living. They got up and stopped it when it was failing and they got up and let the spark reignite when it was needed. The band as an entity is going to keep living and continuing on this path, but this time it’s more selfish. Their whole message applies to THEM now and it translates so much more organically I think and I fucking love it

No one understands everybody hates the eagles like I do. Not that I really understand it at all but I GET IT IM ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH YES YES THE WIDOW IS SENDING VALENTINES TO HER BITTER FRIENDS OKAY