fight for your values and fight for your friends

genuinely i think a year away is gonna do me so good. i feel like i'm not part of many of my friendships and the ones i do feel part of i'm fucking up with my own incompetence. it's better that i go away and reset. idk what will happen when i'm back but maybe time will help me figure out how to apologize and be a human being with friends. or something.

okay tumblr hotties this is where i can use some actual advice. the friend who's organizing the plans i will have to cancel says that she's too busy this weekend to talk about them which i understand, so me dropping the news that i'm going to cancel and disappoint everyone has been delayed by a few days. how the fuck do i tell her.

okay nvm the friendship is not fucked just yet but it will be once i inevitably cancel on these plans. delayed fucking.

do you think if i tell my gynecologist that every time i get my period i start wanting to violently hurt myself she'll like. help that stop

i've fucked it!

i need to try out this radical new thing called saying no instead of stretching myself too thin and then having to cancel everything

playing a game called how many more friends can max disappoint by being the way they are

because of how much i struggle to concentrate on things it's like. i fear the only way to get through this semester will be to stop having friends and to stop doing things

i cant concentrate on anythingggg oh my god

having a pretty bad day and in an effort to figure myself out again i kinda wanna start a new blog/online persona yk just to be. someone else for a bit and start fresh and figure some things out. but also i'd miss many of u guys :(