Ocean Angel : Tumblr smut wip for now, fantasy mermaids, college au that focus on Billy and his tender relationship with his mother. Will add ao3 link later.
Everybody Here wants you : Harringrove, but Billy has to struggle with the mundane day-to-day, high school social hierarchy and shitty dad. All while trying not to fall for those soft brown eyes from across the lunch hall.
Venom : Harringrove, A/B/O, Omega Billy, Alpha Harrington, Alpha Venom, Fuck or Die(kinda). Billy is secretly an Omega AU, Harringrove Stuck in the Upsidedown.
Anon Answered
“We cant do this here, but make it harringrove”
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Heated Basketball (Ebhwu Snippet): Steve pov! Billy terrorising him on the basketball court
inspired by this post by harringroveera: ‘The perk of having a Chief dad: ask him to shut down your (ex)boyfriend's party’
Bluebird: regency au, valentine's day theme, cliche lovey dovey
Bed Check! : Little Drabble of Nancy walking in on Billy and Steve
Sharks and the water park : Baby Billy and his mom go celebrate his birthday
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Billy and Eddie are always making weird kissing noises and pull their tongue at each other to make everyone uncomfortable.
Chrissy take none of their bullshit and actually feel very comfortable shipping them.
I've spoken before about how touch is a complex thing for Billy (read here). The abuse, sexual predatory intent, and assault he's suffered through since he was a child means that he's always hyper-aware and watching people's movements, tensing, or even coming to block physical movements that get too close. He hasn't known touch to be a positive, gentle, or safe thing, and so his actions are reactive because of it. Billy lives in a constant state of hyper-vigilance and high stress/anxiety that causes him to react with equally hyper-reactive survival-based responses, all of which are learned behaviors resulting from the repeated trauma and abuse that prevents him from being able to effectively and safely emotionally regulate. Billy is always in a state of overdrive. It is a CPTSD trauma response from living in a constant state of violence and unsafe spaces.
But I want to take a moment to add onto that previously linked post by pointing out two parallels in the series that show Billy's hyper vigilant state of watching people's movements and displaying such reactive responses to block them. And that's when Max and Heather both put their hands up near his face.
It's not too surprising that Billy gets particularly reactive to movement near his face; we know how Neil abuses Billy. Neil not only hits Billy's face, but he controls Billy's face by grabbing it and adjusting it to a position that he wants Billy to maintain. And once Neil adjusts Billy's face, Billy doesn't move an inch out of fear of what Neil will do. And when Max and Heather's hands are near his face, it doesn't matter what their intent is, nor does it matter who they are. He's seeing movement that his body instinctually knows results in violence, and he's trying to stop it. The only way he knows how to stop it is to use force to hold it back.
Let's take a look.
In both cases, Max and Heather put their hands up close to Billy's face, and Billy either 1) catches Max's movement in his periphery vision, or 2) catches Heather's movement head on, but while in a dissociative state.
The way Billy catches these movements in his periphery or in a dissociative state is a sign that Billy's brain has been re-wired because of abuse. We all have an exogenous orienting response, which is an involuntary shift of attention to a sudden, unexpected action (movement, sound, flash of light, etc.). It's a survival based response meant to help us react to potential threats. This response is heightened and overstimulated in abuse victims, keeping them in that constant state of hyper-vigilant survival where unexpected actions, including ones that are not intended to be harmful, are perceived as a threat. It is important to note that however harmless the intent was in both of these scenarios, Billy cannot distinguish gentle or helpful movements/touches from violent and abusive touches because he has never known touch to be gentle. He has no basis by which he can determine touches to be violent or gentle. Hence his highly reactive state.
The moment Billy catches the movement in his periphery, or even in a dissociative state, he enacts the exact same response: he abruptly catches Max and Heather's wrist and scoops their hands forward in front of his face so that he can have a clear line of sight of their hand. In the scene with Max, this movement is nearly simultaneous to his redirected line of sight on Max's hand first before he looks over at her. (He looks to her hand first because the hand is the perceived threat.) With Heather, he doesn't have to redirect his line of sight because the movement is happening right in front of him. Still, Billy catches, scoops, and lifts Heather's hand up right in front of his eyes because even though the action is done right in front of his face, Billy's not fully there- he's dissociating.
The need for Billy to have a clear line of sight of their hands (and to have that clear line of sight FAST) is yet another trauma response. It's Billy trying to see what their hands are doing. He has to see the thing that his mind and body automatically perceive as a potential threat. If he can see it, then he can try to mitigate it. It's Billy trying to take control of a movement that he, in his mind and body, perceives as a potential act of violence. Again, remember, Billy sees movement near his face and instinctually reacts based on a lifetime of abuse where movement and touch around his face is violent.
There's also something else worthy to point out, and it's similarities and the subtle differences in the rest of Billy's body language with Max versus with Heather.
Similarities
Take a look at his facial expression when Max and Heather's hands get near his face. There's no surprise in Billy's eyes or on his face. There is resignation, and there is (more so with Heather) a numbness. Why? Because Billy is accustomed to people hitting him. Movements near his face are normal. Expected.
Differences
With Max, we can see that Billy's body is carrying tension, agitation, and anxiety. It's all pent up in his body because he just watched Max and Lucas get into an argument whereby Max was visibly upset and raised her voice against Lucas. He has just been witness to a verbal fight between Max and Lucas, one that Billy would immediately 1) catastrophize that Max is in trouble and 2) know that Max's actions and choices will wind up with Neil beating him. The tension in his body carries these fears and anxieties. He is in survival mode. And when he's in survival mode, it is hard to come down from it.
We don't see this in the gif above, but when Billy says, "Hey. This is serious shit, okay?" there's a tremor on Billy's face. We see Billy's body tremors and shakes in other points in the series, which you can read about in depth here. He displays body shakes/tremors because he can't put this fear and anxiety anywhere except within because he cannot safely emotionally regulate. He lives in an unsafe environment that prohibits him from being able to emotionally regulate or heal (and we know that Neil has repeatedly tried to beat Billy out of showing emotions like crying or fear). Billy keeps so much of this inside so that it builds and builds and builds, creating a tension and intensity in his body language until something triggers it. That's when we start seeing that fear and anxiety manifest through his body shaking.
With Heather, it's entirely different. Billy's body is completely numb and deadened. In this moment, it's about nobody else BUT Billy. There are no other outside stressors here as there are with Max and with what Billy fears awaits him with Neil. And it's important to understand that after years of abuse, sexualization, and SA paired with years of Billy trying to reach out only to realize that help never comes (read more here), that creates a line of thought within Billy that he's not really worthy or deserving of help. When it comes to the care Heather is trying to give to Billy (i.e. tend to his wounds), there is this implied sense that his body has simply given up (read more here).
Additionally, in the scene with Heather, Billy's possession and assault via the Mind Flayer and this numb body language speaks to that trauma. His body has been violently violated, and as a result, he has shut his body down in an attempt to save himself. He has slipped into a dissociative state because of this violation of his body. And when Heather comes in to try to help him, she's reaching out to his body. But after this trauma with the Mind Flayer, Billy has not only had his body broken and violated, he has also lost any sense of trust in others. To have someone get that close to him in the immediate aftermath is too much, and it is also why he displays that reactive response.
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And I do think billy lays in bed, hair fanning out over the pillow, cheek squished and lips open and soft after he’s been fucked good the night before. And Steve just stares at him, committing the image to memory before billy wakes up and starts his day and puts on the mask of tough guy who doesn’t give a shit about anything and will punch your lights out for looking at him wrong. But at least for a little while Steve gets to see the other billy, the real Billy 🩷
She was birthed from heaven's light. He was formed in the fiery pits. Their romance was forbidden, they knew this all too well. Yet light and darkness cannot exist without the other.
Chrissy Cunningham was the good girl next door. Billy Hargrove was the quintessential bad boy. Despite their popularity and plastered on smile, they were still frightened. Their homes were a place of chaos, rather than a sanctuary from the world. At least they were able to meet up every Thursday afternoon. They were safe there in the forest behind their school. The masks could come down and they no longer felt so alone anymore.
Sometimes you sign up for a mini bang and your brain decides to ignore the MINI part of the event brief. When it happens, you might find yourself with something like 52k words of Billy Hargrove with impossible powers and Steve Harrington befriending him.
Thanks to @st-fromthegrave-minibang for the organization, @thotpuppy for the cover art you'll find embedded in chapter 1, and to @dragonflylady77 for the beta and support!
Child of Burning Time (read it here on ao3)
Rated E, 52650 words
Relationship: Billy Hargrove/Steve Harrington
Additional tags: Alternate Universe - Billy has powers; Pyrokinetic Billy Hargrove; canon? i don't know her; Light Angst (for my standards); Implied/Referenced Child Abuse; Implied/Referenced Domestic Violence; Implied/Referenced Homophobia; Government Experimentation; Strangers to Friends to Lovers; Lack of Communication; Underage Drinking; Consensual Underage Sex; Hand Jobs; HIV/AIDS Crisis; discussion of STIs and safe sex; Condoms; Oral Sex; Anal Sex; Recreational Drug Use; Tattoos; season 3 goes differently; Possession; The Sauna Test; Love Confessions; Found Family; Blood; Shadow Monster | Mind Flayer Possessing Billy Hargrove
Synopsis:
When Billy arrives to the Byers house to retrieve Max, she shows him the dead monster in the fridge and says that they could really use his help. Against his better judgment, Billy agrees to help Max, the kids, and Steve Harrington with setting fire to some creepy stuff in a creepier tunnel.
His life and Steve's change because of that decision.
Aka: what would go differently in season 2 and 3 if Billy helped with the tunnels and also had powers of his own?
Billy and Steve showing up to another group get together covered in bruises.
The kids: Are you guys seriously fighting again? Come on we thought you were over that! Blah blah blah scolding ensues
Nancy: Face goes red as she notices they’re only bruised on their necks and some happen to slip below the collar of their shirts. Even gets flashed a bite mark on Billy’s chest because he doesn’t know how buttons work.
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“I’m starving, darling, let me put my lips to something”
I don’t know what to say, I was.. surely in a mood. I wanted to make an hellcheer piece but something went wrong, so here we go with a Calicheer fanart instead.
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