'Kin Speak

Trouble is, I...am not sure. I don't know if I'm otherkin, or just have a really strong imagination and a wish to fly. I mean - I'm worried that if I decide I'm otherkin, it'll just be because I wanted a reason for me to feel like I want wings badly, a sort of.... justification for it, rather than just being a weird human. Not because I actually am. And I loved animals as a kid (and still love them) so that may have been where the 'imagining' animal-like ears and tail could have come from, games of pretend that stuck.

I'd like to address all otherkin with doubts.

I'm not doubt-free myself, of course, and I don't think that anyone who sincerely questions themselves - without fear - will ever be, but I wanted to share one of my beliefs (from my better times), in the hope that I'll soothe the gaping wound of not even believing what you feel yourself to be is possible, let alone probable.

If I am... who I think I am (in my better moments), then all "fictional" worlds are real. You heard me. This may be REALLY far-fetched to some of you, but theories on the multi-verse are debated by very reputable scientists, and even J.R.R. Tolkien believed in subcreativity - where all the worlds we can imagine exist & we're not actually "making them up" when we think of them, but tapping into them.

Life as an otherkin is difficult enough, so if I can help anyone overcome some of their doubt, I want to! I have always believed this, intrinsically KNOWN it, you could say, so if this helps you, believe it too, and if it doesn't - feel free to ignore it. :) Either way, I wish you well.

May we all turn out to be what we believe we are.

I feel… disjointed. Incomplete. As if I’m missing a part of myself in the water. Running is so slow and awkward compared to the smooth flight of swimming. I don’t know what this feeling is, always nagging at the back of my mind as long as I can remember. I feel crazy, sometimes. Is it normal for people to feel the tug of the water? Or am I… am I something else? But that’s crazy, right? My body is human, completely and maddeningly human. But sometimes, I feel like I’m not.

I dunno. I’m just very confused. I’ve gone through the otherkin tag, but it wasn’t very helpful, and filled with some really frightening trolls. If there’s anyone who can give me some resources, or discussion, or anything really, I would very much appreciate it. I can be contacted at littlefishlost.tumblr.com.

I think that's okay! It is a part of discovering your self. Remember, identity is something that always is shifting, and, even if you think about it as some solid kinself deep down inside, it's impossible for the conscious you to understand all that and see it, right? So, you only have the small echoes that appears from it, and, sometimes, it will be different things.

Like reaching out with your eyes closed and touching an elephant, sometimes you will feel the trunk, sometimes, the leg, sometimes, the tail... and sometimes, different mixes of these things.

It's really different for everyone, anon! Most otherkin seem to experience attraction to humans because that's how they were raised/it's the body they have. A few experience attraction to their species, though mostly they would not act on it for consent reasons. Some others are attracted to furry art and "anthro" art of their species mixed with human, and some are asexual.

Not only that, but if there is anyone out there who also identifies as a geth (as I remember seeing someone who did show up here some time ago?) or anyone/thing from the Mass Effect universe, it would be really wonderful if I could talk with you!