Handful Of Pills

Cuz I got the money to do it. Unlike most of these broke ass jokes that try to come at me.

cant read

can read, but cant comprehend what ur reading

boredom more like Time To Suffer

rsd

u wanna watch a video thats any amount of time??? thats too long, even if the video is like 10 seconds

becoming too aware of how things feel or how u do certain things or just regular bodily functions like breathing or blinking

staying up until 4 AM or later for no reason aside from adhd said so

that sinking feeling when u realized uve spaced out for most of a conversation and u feel too bad abt doing it to ask the person to repeat what they said 

overstimulation

meltdowns

when u have the motivation to get shit done, but executive dysfunction is like “lmfao nope”

trying to get certain stuff done and ur managing ok, but u still get distracted on occasion and u scold urself every time u do but u cant stop urself from doing it

the antsy anxiousness that comes with being confined to doing smth for too long

“i hope i remember this” u didnt remember it

outbursts which cause u to snap at ppl and then u feel bad but u couldnt help it

no volume control so ur constantly told to stop yelling but u cant make ur voice quieter 

*someone explains instructions and its a rather simple thing* “ok got it” u dont got it

getting irrationally irritated over the smallest shit but u cant help it everything is just So Frustrating 

“u know what i think im having a good day” and then mood swing that makes u either Super Sad or Super Mad for no reason

having what ur gonna say right in ur head but somehow u still space out in the middle of talking and forget what u wanted to say

forgetting why u were upset but still feeling upset

the sinking feeling of remembering why u were upset and now ur even more upset

when rsd is being extremely irrational and u know its bullshit but u dont have the energy to fight it so u just sit there in sadness

when rsd makes u self conscious abt stimming in public

having absolutely no time perception at all. what even is time ive never heard of that in my life

needing to get smth done and u manage to focus, but ur focusing on the wrong thing

overanalyzing past stuff thats happened and realizing other shit u couldve said that wouldve helped the situation and damn why didnt u think of that when u were in the situation

Roxicodone.

Xanax.

Soma.

Adderall.

Best drug experience ? haha it maybe had to be Nocturnal 2015, the first time i ever tried ketamine . So it was Day 2 and i happened to be kicking it under some sign where it told you where the porta pottys were at and so happen to see @hempwaffles walking my way or we planned to meet up, anyway he offered me some and i was like “fuck it first time for everything.” anyway i end up doing like half a spoon full not knowing how much is too much. After that intense ass burn we kick it like 3 min, he gives me another big bump or to kill the rest and i was like alright coo.