KeyKeyKey!

first of all, i’ve read that comment right after his musical while waiting among 150+ shawols for him to come out from the venue - while being there one of my friend started crying and i was like ‘what, what’s happening’ because it was so sudden and another girl there passed me her phone and… i was shocked. i couldn’t process it at first, I think i’m still very far from processing it properly, but in that context, after seing him being happy and smiling so brightly… it felt surreal. but i have to admit it, it wasn’t and isn’t unexpected. form the start, since the first day I’ve layed eyes on him I felt it in my bones - that he was someone who went through something like this. I wasn’t necessarly thinking about this type of self harm, but maybe because i used to have a friend who started self harming in middle school I could recognize something. and seriously if you take your time to go back and analyze how he used to behave back during shinee’s first years, when people used to say he was harsh and cold and not very far from being an asshole, and ask yourself why he was like that it doesn’t take long to put pieces together.