dam i want to SMOKE but its so laye and i dont want to waste...

I USJWIAIDONFF I LOOOOVE ADDISON I LOVE ADDY I LOVE ADDY I LOVE ADDY 💘💘💗💗💞💞💞💘💞💞💞💘💘💗💞💞💞💞💘💗💕💕💓💓💕💘💗💞💞💞💞 MY TAURUS SOULMATE???? UUGHJKDKIWPS I LVE YOU ADDISON

why am i so mad what is wrong with me literally right when i *** * ** too its like im annoyed and for what

weird how im slowly forgetting that my dad exists and i used to have a dad like i literally forgot about him til i just saw a picture of him and it hasnt even been that long and im crying

kind of WEIRD that this depressiive "episode" (i cant rven fucking call itbthat anymore) has lasted like 5 years haha wheres the mania?! its right here right now

ihave literally never connected with anyone ive never had a best friend ive never been in love no one has ever held my hand no one cares! nobody cares about me and im so fucking ugly like there is literally no point in me being alive i have no connection or home or ground or anything this is all hurtful and pointless i cant do this

i want to die

oh yeah maybe i should document fhis idk but marcus said hes not gonna talk to me anymore and we xant fuck around anymore on uhhh aug 29th i was with bij and ky so i tried not to cry but it really hurt n i just felt so ugly and useless and its like wow im so UGLY and STUPID that i cant even get used for my body anymore which is really disgusting and pathetic

"can i have a mint" has ruined my life

yeah im actually pathetic its disgusting. she still has my old tag on her blog as /my-angel and after going through it i really want to kill myself

AWW THEYVE got a real pretty dick

im fuckinf pathetic and also ugly and he makes me soooo sad like hes not even doing anything im so stupid and ugly and gross and i know if i was pretty this WOULDNT. BE A PROBLEM GOD

oh yup im gonn throw up now

If u wanna hear something incredibly disgusting then guess what: I could never kill myself cause i cant deal with the fact that my pic would be in newspapers or my face would be at my funeral or my school pic would be hung up in my memory and so i will never kill myself even tho it hurts so bad .

I need to runaway and stop existing

Just crying