Kelly Foster

"Ships at a distance have every man's wish on board. For some they come in with the tide. For others they sail forever on the horizon, never out of sight, never landing until the Watcher turns his eyes away in resignation, his dreams mocked to death by Time. That is the life of men.

Now, women forget all those things they don't want to remember, and remember everything they don't want to forget. The dream is the truth. Then they act and do accordingly.

So the beginning of this was a woman and she had come back from burying the dead."

"Part of our emergency is that it's so tempting to do this sort of thing now, to retreat to narrow arrogance, pre-formed positions, rigid filters, the 'moral clarity' of the immature. The alternative is dealing with massive, high-entropy amounts of info and ambiguity and conflict and flux; it's continually discovering new areas of personal ignorance and delusion. In sum, to really try to be informed and literate today is to feel stupid nearly all the time and to need help. That's about as clearly as I can put it...That last one's of especial value, I think. As exquisite verbal art, yes, but also as a model for what free, informed adulthood might look like in the context of Total Noise: not just the intelligence to discern one's own error or stupidity, but the humility to address it, absorb it, and move on and out therefrom, bravely, toward the next revealed error. This is probably the sincerest, most biased account of 'Best' your Decider can give: these pieces are models--not templates, but models--of ways I wish I could think and live in what seems to me this world."

Every Morning: Zyrtec, allergies.

Nasacort, sinuses.

Concerta, stimulant and ADD medication.

Zoloft, anti-depressant and serotonin booster.

2-3 cups coffee

0-3 cigarettes

Every Evening: Melatonin, Valerian Root, for sleep

Trazadone, for sleep

Herbal Tea

In between: