antivulcan

everyday i dare god's bitchass to fucking end me and everyday they just don't fucking do it

i'm back on here to talk about how fucking miserable i feel every fucking waking moment of my life, there really isn't anything to look forward to in my sad ass life anymore, i'm quitting alcohol and going to therapy and i'm hoping i can snap out of all this but i'm losing hope and so is everyone around me, i've never wanted to fucking die more than i do now, and i'm not sure how much longer i can take it

the brain really is your worst opponent, i hope none of you ever endure what i feel

i'm doing my best to snap out of my own thoughts and its just so hard not to feel misery when no one really loves you

also i’m just pissed and upset i know people that i know dont check up on here so if i could just vent real quick??? i...................am too tired to even do that so bye

aint shit change here huh, looks the same like the last time i logged in, im out now

lol i havent been on this in like three years or something but like i feel like using this again but at the same time i dont and i know i wont keep up with this im not even a blogger why do i have this account