I don't understand!!!!!
How is it after years of searching. Years and years. I finally went out and tried and found the most perfect blonde. Perfect person and have been talking to them for like 2 months now. And I go crazy because of stuff that's happened that made me think the worst they end up blocking me when I've done nothing wrong. How serious. You date all these ppl and nothing then you finally like someone. FINALLY for the first time in years and somehow you screw it up when what they did should've screwed it up with you yet I'm the one that's been blocked and pushed to the side. It doesn't make any sense an it's killing me. Is this getting me back for all the bad I've done? The people I've hurt unintentionally !? Now I'm left wondering why and hurt and wtf. It's pay back isn't. It sucks. I've only ever tried to find the right one and finally I find someone I genuinely like now I'm left here like what happened.. Why..? What did I do? All I asked for was effort. Fuck me this hurts more than I remembered
