Stephen’s head tilted toward her voice and his stark blue eyes followed shortly. There she was with a halo beaming over her head or at least that’s how he always saw her. A half smile touched his mouth as she made her way towards him and engulfed him in her warm embrace. Suddenly removing his tie was the least of his concerns and so was everything else in his life. He remembered the moment he’d first laid eyes on her. She’s been wearing a white blouse, hair pinned to the back of her neck, pouty lips stained red and a part of him had known; known that she’d be his forever. Burying his nose into her neck, he exhaled the stress of his day, allowing it to exit his body with one swift breath. It was true, they were having a disagreement. One he had no idea if he’d win because years ago he’d agreed that maybe he wouldn’t be the best father. His father hadn’t been but then she’d gotten pregnant. She’d had his child inside of her, and that had changed everything. His arms tightened suddenly and he lifted his head to stare down at her gorgeous face, his hand coming up to brush aside a tendril out of her eyes.
“Yes,” he whispered, pressing his forehead against hers. “I wanted to see my wife before eleven for once.” For a man of his status, minutes ran together lending to the idea that time wasn’t enough. It wasn’t uncommon for Stephen to come home at midnight or even one in the morning. With meetings, constant business trips, and public appearances he was always busy doing the bid of his company and his people but recently - with everything that happened - he tried his best to be home before ten. He owed her that much. “Maddie better understand. She’s been here every night this week.” Lifting both hands, he cupped her face and gazed into her sparkling brown eyes, his thumb gently grazing her cheek. “Sometimes a man just wants his wife all to himself. Is that too much to ask for?” And with that, he leaned down and pressed a tender kiss to her lips.
Stephen knew she was hurting, knew she was in pain. He just didn’t know how to help, what to do to make her feel better. Arguments from the past two weeks floated through his mind as their lips worked together. It was hard for them not to be on the same page because they’d been on the same page virtually since they’d met. Now he felt there was tension that couldn’t be solved with just jokes, sweet kisses and soft caresses.
I think we should try again, he’d stated one late night. I think we should have a baby. His deep voice had been so soft in the darkness, so sure but her reaction. God, he could’ve kicked himself now. “I brought Thai. I know how much you love your noodle soup.” he said against her lips, moving his head back a bit to examine her face.
The sad skip of the record fell silent to the vibrato of his silken voice. Stephen, ever the wordsmith, used those gifted lips to institute his will on the masses; instead of some echoing bellow he whispered his will and people followed. She followed and would continue to follow him through the ring of fire. The every enticing mystery that swirled around him still. They had been married for eight months and she still felt herself being mystified by his poise and his wrath. A drifting play on the moment they met curled around her head. Stephen stood stark in an unimaginable amount of stiff lines, glossed buttons, and passionate eyes. The world bent in his view almost like it wished to curl around him like a cape; the unsung hero in the story she never thought she’d have a part in. Looking back at that afternoon, she had no clue what turn her world had taken; even if she stubbornly believed in her all knowing intuition.
Kat melted into his strong arms, allowing herself to shift the weight of her sorrow to slip off her shoulders, like some fatigued Atlas. She didn’t know if she could hold the world over her head when her knees trembled with the new tremor beneath them. “Hey,” her usual sarcastic tone dissipating into a warm vulnerability. “They say midnight is the bewitching hour for passion. Who really wants to eat dinner at 5pm and tucker into bed at 8pm? Noobs,” she cooed. Kat’s fingers smoothed through his hair tenderly. She toyed with the ends. He never let it grow out this long and she liked it this way. Beneath all of his perfection, there were pockets of the man she still wished to figure out. Everyday was another dog eared page and secret meaning in the grand novel of his life. “I told her your schedule was a bit jam packed this week and she..she didn’t want me to be alone. It’s like I’m ten all over again,” her voice dipped slightly at the thought of why she needed company. If she had it her way, she’d lay in bed feeling sorry for herself. Maddie detested such idle pity; it’s why she was so grateful for the woman. Yet, in all of the support, she had realized how little he may be getting.
She wasn’t the only one who lost something.
Kat ran through the roller coaster of emotions that rolled out in waves. Grief. Anger. Denial. Sorrow. Repeat. She hadn’t reached acceptance yet. Not when she tucked the dagger deeper beneath her ribs. I think we should try again. His words replying in the back of her mind. Kat didn’t take to failure well and this was the kind that she never thought she’d experience. A child wasn’t a part of her plan; not yet anyway. Who would have thought something so unexpected could hurt so bad? “My noodle hero,” her words lost against the softness of his lips. “I’ve been a real jerk and I don’t know if I deserve spiced goodness.”