It took me a long time to let God show me who I was in Him and how He can use me in the season I was in. This specific picture was taken at my church’s 10th year of POP Rally themed “Invade.” Here in this panel we were talking about the ministries we represent. And let me tell you, never have I ever thought I would be placed, used or even be in a ministry. Don’t get me wrong, if God put placed me where I was meant to be in the background being a prayer warrior, I am more than happy and grateful to be just that. But in this case God had a different idea. I really searched for my ministry within myself. I looked at myself and dug deep. What was I passionate in? My talents? What am I good at and what am I bad at? What needs fixing?
Through all those questions, the ministry I thought was for me was the praise & worship team and/or dance ministry because I did musical theatre in high school and have been dancing for as long as I remember. Unfortunately, there was decline in my spirit and my heart on where I belonged in this ministry. I thought- “I thought I belonged here? I have the talent! Maybe I just need to pray on it. THIS has to be my ministry.”
I thought I belonged there. I liked singing and dancing and so God can use that obviously, right? WRONG! For my personal testimony, God ALWAYS seems to make things harder for me. Everything I have been LONGING for, God makes me go through hell to get to it. Through the looooong storm and calm seasons- I found my ministry. It’s something I never thought I would love. I have always been around it but never had a heart for it. It was something I found annoying throughout my life and tried to stay away from.
Sunday School. This is where I was first introduced to Jesus. Who He was and why he loved me. I hated Sunday school growing up and I really never thought I would teach YOUNGER kids. I always thought of becoming a professor but for me to have the passion, love and eagerness to step forward and teach these kids in an environment which I once hated? I was mind-blown. But GOD! God has different plans.
In my personal walk with Jesus, God always taught me the best lessons & revealed to me the craziest things when I chose to be the “reverse me.” Meaning, what I’d normally do- I should do the opposite. Be bitter bc I didn’t find my ministry? Nah, worship God through it all. Gossip? Nah, encourage and pray about it. Ignore? Nah, stay when you’re offended. All that good stuff. So here, the thing I once was always annoyed at and lowkey hated- it’s one reason why my heart continuously burns for Jesus. Ashamed because it didn’t work out for you? Nah, God is the restorer of time and will always reposition you!
So thank you Jesus, for highlighting the things I never thought i would love like this. Thank you for making things harder than it has to be for me. And thank you for always showing me the benefit of it, even if it may take years.
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