IC: katatumuripai

i,m okay

i am so tired

i dont know im just tired of everything. i miss being apart of a community and i miss feeling like i belonged somewhere. i miss my friends and i miss being somebody. i miss everything good that i had. all i do is fuck everything up for myself and the other people around me. i am good for nothing. i am scum of the earth. i really wish i could kill myself just so i dont have to hurt anybody else anymore. i dont even care who sees this, because it doesnt even matter. i do not matter as an individual. i am not a real person who has real emotions or anything. i am nothing at all. i am a horrible creature that only hurts people around them. i wish i could be different. i wish i was dead, i want to be dead.