a lady's world.

25!!!!!!!!!

kinda used to being in the dark now

I’m already too lazy to just get up lol

lmao I’m already cringing

it was a busy day between work, church, AC, and naps lol

I’m trying not to let my uneven eyes get to me but it hard lol

I don’t think my loneliness stems from not having as many friends or not being able to make as many friends so easily. I think that was more of how much things have changed from a year or two years ago. My friendships are thriving, I would like to say. It’s the ex boyfriends and their families that I miss - that sense of comfort being away from home. I’m learning how to be more comfortable to not rely on it. And it’s easier since I have these solid foundations of friendships that I actually now have. Thank goodness for these few but genuine souls that continue to tolerate me, wahah.

I this point I think it’s the latter. I don’t feel like I’m welcomed anywhere anymore.

I feel like a huge baby. I just want to be with my family in these last few months but not being able to see them this Thanksgiving or just the rest of the holidays this year gets the waterworks going!! I don’t truly feel like I’m part of any family here in the OC anymore. I feel like I’m going to intrude on my other friend’s family, seeing them all so close. It’s almost YETG, so I might not be able to see my own parents until after the new year. It sucks man. The nostalgia hits differently when everything has changed so much and there’s no comfort of consistency. I just want to spend time with my parents, just like everyone else is able to do.

Lol. This better not be just another cycle of my partners....!!