let's talk about books

Today, I decided to cut my hair short because I felt annoyed whenever I make twisted knot just to fix it, and believe me, it was upsetting during sunny days! That’s all. No other reasons. But I’m hoping that this means I must do whatever I want and express my thoughts appropriately. Something has changed within me and one thing’s for sure: find a job and earn money. Frankly speaking, I’m afraid for later’s journey. I will apply a job later. It;s terrifying, y’know, but I must do it to get a job. Hope it will go well.

I’m about to brainstorm how to construct and organize my analysis on my past deadline task, until I read the email of one of the blogs that I subscribed that says “I can’t write :( “. As I was reading, I wondered that we have the same concerns as them. The writer mentioned some tips to intervene and follow it, which was the reason why I made this blog. I tend to overthink stuff which results to stress me out. I have a hard time making my own task this past few days with remorse because it seems like my effort to push myself to my limits is not enough. Aside from that, my teacher is doing his best to check our assignments and what I did is always give up. It might cause a fear in writing. Ii hurts that I am reigniting my interest in writing but what will happen now, when I get to be unproductive everyday? 

PS: GIF’s not mine. Credits to the owner.

So, I just thought about this challenge during high school and didn’t pursue it due to my school works, part time job and student leader responsibilities. Before I reach 24 years old, I must read at least 20 books. I have a year and a month left. Well, let’s start this year with a bang!

I thought the movie “Me Before You” was uplifting. It has an uplifting scenes but I guess the ending broke my heart which made me realize that I must know the life of Ms. Clark after his suicide.  “That’s it?!! He still wanted to kill himself?” But of course, I understand Will’s situation. He cared with the people who surrounded him and wanted to give them an easy life. I’m sure he was thinking that he’s a burden to his family and lose hope that he may be cured, even though Nathan mentioned that there was no cure with his disability.Their 6 months relationship was memorable to Will. I’m currently reading its second sequel, “After You” and Lou’s life was miserable. I thought she and Patrick will work out again but it didn’t. He has a fiance, though. Guess what?! I’m in the chapter wherein she founds out that Will has a child. I think I’m gonna finish it next week. Hopefully.

Why can’t I do it directly? The interest is sparking but the mind won’t work. Eventually, my body froze and doesn’t do its function. Why would my mind still blank? As if I am empty-headed. I don’t figure out the fact that this doesn’t make no sense. Am I making sense? I’m sick of being tired. Maybe because I am disorganized? The fact that I don’t know how to start making a point. It became a habit. I’m tired! 

The oozing aroma and delightful taste of a chocolate flavored milk tea  from Cocorica with a nice book (of course!) is what I call fascination!

Viola! A new branch will finally opening soon in our city! I followed their social media page and waited until yesterday!

There’s something that holds back. Arguments that can’t be straightforwardly utter is constantly transpiring. Recurrence of my confidence  is what I yearn for. These negative thoughts are feeding my brain to be unmotivated which creates  unproductive days. Will I find an escape from these monsters?

This could be a platform to re-ignite my interest in writing stories which I am comfortable to share with others. It’s good to be back! I made an account when I was a teenager due to curiosity and haven’t discover the relevance of this site.Well, it could be my electronic diary from now on. Haha!