just a single slow desire fermenting

I don’t WANNA go to work today but I will and it will be good and I will enjoy it because it’s a short shift and then I’ll be free again<3

the thing is. as soon as I accept that the hours in a day are actually limited, I will feel so much better about everything. HOWEVER! it’s so much more fun to pretend that a day can contain anything I wish and therefore 5 tasks too many and then wonder why I feel like I’m about to be shot

actually actually actually!!! going to fall in love with things instead of being terrified of them.

maybe I’ll try get to a gallery on the weekend or something !!

I feel so crazeeeeeeee I feel so crazy & my digestion is so bad & I had 1 singular beer and felt sick what is happening !!!!!!!

feeling very “maybe I need to run away and start everything all over again” which is NAWT true and also not even what I want. what I need is to drink some water and have a shower and what I want is to feel less anxious which will be helped by the aforementioned!!!